In the Bedroom after the War
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November 26, 2008
plain all over the place Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:02 AM the key for my survival in army is very simple. i sleep in camp. my entire routine is very different. my nights are very important now, i end at 530pm and half the day is over already so i stay up late to finish stuff and then travel to camp and sleep again. my officers love me because i don't make a lot of noise in camp. hahhs! while when i am up i always make myself helpful. i'm too used to needing to work and do something. my buddy in camp told me off for asking for more things to do. hahhs, but still it was nice of him. this afternoon i was just kind of regretting not being MORE there for Asia Conference. i was thinking a lot about healing and what benny hinn did. i tell you, even if i did not need healing, it will be good to be healed. hahaha i need physical healing, mental, emotional, blood circulatory & nervous system healing. hahaha all because really it would be quite fun to join in. hahahaha i'm getting too gossipy here luh. anyway there'll be CCH camp and i'll be there. Dom just called and got me down. it will be fun & i haven't stayed over in church for quite some time anyway. drum lesson tomorrow & hong hwee will enlist next week. well, so is jian ming. please wish him luck when you see him. wednesday he's gone. today i just bump into one of those good friends you've got in secondary school. those whom you do everything together. study, sleep and get into trouble together. he's malay and he was just so us back then. touched when he saw that we all changed after becoming christians. he was so close to you know salvation. apparently, there was some things going on and we was quite quiet about this christianity thing but still nevertheless, he was touched. he was a malay, muslim and 24/7 around some radical christians man. now as i type this, i reminisce those stupid times we had. we tore down some curtains, broke some stuff, destroyed some parts of our school pond. a lot more like climbing over fences. jump on to our teacher's pick up as he take off. we were caught for vandalism once but then we got our way and the disciplinary committee drop the case because they couldn't take some of those funny stuff we wrote on our pink offense form. quite cool huh? drop punishments because we were really funny. i mean, it was vandalism you know. yeah, we were quite bad last time. we tore down curtains and broke chairs but all not very intentionally. just very funnily. everyone loved us. we were that mischievous bunch. not rebellious! well that guy still had that mischievous face. as i walk off bidding goodbye he gave me one of those stupid comments he usually will give years ago. hahaha that's my brother (: okay... i am watching soccer. st zenit petersburg v.s. juventus. i am quite surprised juventus ain't getting much of the ball. arshavin is substituted by the way so is del piero. i wonder if they both just want a draw. arsenal play dynamo kiev later. i hope i won't die too early so i can watch. haiya, as i type this, gameover. 0 - 0 zenit petersburg v.s. juventus. polytechnics are having exams. good luck to you guys. pls do well. other people are really just having fun now. but not me... poor nsf got no such thing called holidays. okay wait, most of the things i say here are for fun. i'm not serious about it. i'm just trying to be funny at this time. hahaha i feel like playing soccer now at 3.25am hahhs okay i love you all. goodnight now. i need benny hinn to visit me at my place. muahaha gdnight & gdbye
November 24, 2008 T-he G-reat I-nteresting O-pinion Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:39 AM this has been one of those amazingly fast and short weekends. everything just flies pass you & you start ticking off the check boxes on your to-do list. but nevertheless, this is the fast paced life that i enjoy. saturday morning i was activated to go back to camp & i spent an entire half day there. i missed zone b's prayer meeting. i was so excited to be there to share with them what God has been saying to me lately. i knew it was going to be good but then maybe i'll have to do it another time. but thank God, having being told i was only going to leave at 8pm, i left at 330pm in the end. i tell you missing the zone meeting was one thing but then to miss C3 would be crappy. well then, so you know i made it on time. just right on for worship service with C3 Band. Now i type this at the threshold of a new week. It's monday tomorrow and i'm dreading to talk about what i'll do in camp on mondays especially after that activation last weekend!!! but well, that's life as an nsf. keeps you on the ball and rollin' all the time. and i greatly appreciate it sincerely. REALLY! just somehow i do feel grateful. haha alright, so services back at paya lebar was amazing. asia conference was amazing too & we gear up for TGIO this coming weekend. alright now, let me get something out of my system. i've been queuing up and while doing so i observed so many of our church people serving on the asia conference ministry team. it's a beautiful sight largely because of the enlarged site. we've really come so far & it's been amazing just to day dream a little bit and drool over these people. haha apart from all these, it has been a tremendous week. it really has been. i'm excited to go down to tecman to shop for books & i've already got one down. i excited about my future. I mean we belong to a great church with great Pastors sharing great powerful sermons. REAL MAN MAKE RIGHT DECISIONS. ooohh. i'm excited about that man. And i remember one - Real Men have vision and they make the right decision that will lead them to their vision. something like that at least. you stand at the threshold of your future now and you make that decision man! it's so cool. along these lines about real men. i recently read this book about commitments and of course it talks about manhood and stuff. i mean, books are meant to inspire. after i read that, i just put it away. i mean, i wasn't even 3% of what the author say a super duper cool great very real non plastic man is. but whatever, if you read the book you will understand what i mean too. the author's a little bit off... haha many more but too little time. i want to sleep now. meet my z monster, scream and yell and wake up sweating at 7am for camp. that's that for now. i love my life. i really do. the Hand of God. His favor, anointing and presence is with me. my life is good. okay see you soon. that's TGIO November 21, 2008 monday to tuesday through wednesday and thursday Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:37 AM monday was terrible until midnight. i had to stay in camp until 7pm to take pictures of a commander's get together. reaching home late was crazy, at least for the first time, but then to put things into perspective, it's quite good because i learnt plenty from the big shots in camp. i was on my way for a jog when some of the north people surprised me. it was really funny how everything worked out. we had fun and i suffered terribly in camp the next day! hahaha i was just dying... ahaha monday to tuesday through wednesday was great today. today was awesome as well. i finally had the chance to resume drum lesson with hong hwee and it was such a privileged again to be given so much time by one of the best if not the best skilled drummer in our church. plenty of encouragements and words and it's all nice. haha i'll need to practice now. well there's plenty of things going on and i'm too lazy to type it all out here. more serious and amazing things but yeah, you would know!!! (: being 20 feels different. hahaha but come to think about it, crap i'm really young man and immature man! we'll see how things work out when i'm 21 22 or 23. okay that's that! tomorrow half day in camp! YEAH!!!!! see you at asia conference November 15, 2008 my PRIMARY concern Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:30 AM i woke up this morning and the sun and clouds were all in the right places. what laid ahead in a few hours time was not really appealing. i was very tempted to not attend but then i'll get into trouble if i don't. being in bed was a beautiful picture. too bad i had to remove myself like a piece of puzzle from the beautiful scene and make my way to jurong west. okay, heading towards that particular area of singapore in the morning ain't appealing at all. the whole air about the place is wrong wrong wrong. as the train took me nearer to the location i could feel my heart dragged. yikes... i so dislike that morning feeling of getting to a place you don't want to go! but well... i bumped into a joker friend of mine but he wasn't very in shape because it's morning so we just slept throughout the ride there. amazing, we met another guy and he drove us directly to the complex from the mrt station. phew... i do will never didn't want to pull myself there man. i got there and it was quite a big affair. yeah, it's my camp's affair. kind of a mini sports day thing for us service side formations who hardly run and exercise. it was quite funny for a while to check out the crowd. almost everyone had a tattoo. they look all big, scary and very cool. but on the good note, that made me look very amazing around them :p muahaha. everyone had one. i'm not kidding! i saw on with his neck and 1/4 of his face tattooed too. well some of them looked like part time sleeping buddha. cheena looking tattoos and dozing off on the grand stand. it's quite funny. i had a giggle myself before i went on and did my job. yes! yes! i did my job. took some photos and chit chat with some people. it was hmmm seriously fun at least i did enjoy being able to be mobile while everyone had to be seated down! how can you contain me and make me still down man. that's not going to happen! well, good things come to an end! hahahahahahahahahahahha i made my way home. had an interesting bus trip with my buddies. a more interesting train ride. just trust me yeah, very interesting. Other than my CGs today, this train ride home really got my attention! got to spend some time at home! took a nap and read a lot. went down for CG and it was fun being able to be there with the people. Ain't it the best thing to do? we had 2 amazing CGs and had some spiritual fun. people got saved and man they were touched. well, thank you for smiling! without the smiles i could not preach ha then back home i got a rude shock. i bumped into my primary school mate. haiyar.. i shouldn't have. hahaha she was terrifying. thank God our church girls are not like that... if not maybe God should make Man only hahahaha just kidding but so you know how crappy my encounter was. and then the night. the night was good. plenty of things happen at night..... muahahahahahahhaa i'll see you tomorrow at Strike It! See you... wake up early, eat plenty of candies and be a very nice primary school friend. November 14, 2008 too big a hint! Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:28 AM it is nice to receive interesting messages from equally interesting people sometimes late into the night. Nicki-FiEd says: Listening to your favorite music may be helpful to maintaining a healthy heart, according to a study. Nicki-FiEd says: I read the news Nicki-FiEd says: in interenet #ivannn says: hahahahhahahahaha #ivannn says: you are very funny Nicholas Tan, you are amazing (: You are so funny but yet so genuinely not trying to be funny. You are really amazing! Well he's the 2nd person to tell me i need to be healthy today. I get the hint (: November 13, 2008 Big in Somewhere Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:52 AM i am beginning to enjoy Eminem all over again. when i was a boy i could rap his entire song... i came to realize that the fan in me just bearly survive. oh in fact not just that, i took out all of my mum's oldies cd and started listening to them. that's how you got Big in Japan right here. pretty cool huh... muahaha this week is an amazing week. zone f had this youth mad event that was mind blowing. this friday they are having a bbq again and it will be mind blowing as well. not to forget saturday and sunday will be Strike It! it will be fun & i'm playing soccer on sunday again finally and haha it will be fun. next week is asia conference and on saturday pst josh kelsey will be coming to our church. this time with the ccc band. it will be amazing. combined service. don't miss that. then lots more events like candy weekend and you need to floss your teeth after that. 80s 90s weekend. christmas and new year. the year is ending and honestly, it felt like it started recently. time flies... church is getting exciting. man... it is... you bring a friend, the friend register and they stand to win movie tickets. 4th time and you stand a chance in a lucky draw to win a mini laptop. that is cool. can i be a new friend all over again? haha oh and with regards to Strike It! this weekend. talk to your leaders about it. there's a registration to go through. there's also a small fee. you will get more information when you ask your leaders. it'll be fun. see you on the court! (: i think that's that (: This is Our God is a beautiful song. along with You'll Come. Both beautiful songs. Reuben Morgan and that other beautiful worship leader with a beautiful voice. check it out. yeah all very beautiful muahaha I'm quite excited about wearing jersey to church this weekend. i haven't done that for a long time. it will be cool don't you think? may we see many bright red fly emirates out there. but i think that won't be the case. just hope that the aig and carlsberg will not overshadow us. whoever comes with anything else, like samsung, no one really cares (: hahaha my point is... wear jersey to church this weekend. both saturday and sunday. you don't have to limit it to club soccer jerseys if you don't have. internationals, s league is fine!!! whatever... rugby is fine, basketball is okay. just not topman's jersey. i'll see you in your favorite team's jersey hopefully. i wonder why we're so Big in Singapore... our church is just amazing. November 11, 2008 2 things Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:00 AM a couple o very interesting things are emerging. there's plenty but it's 309am & just 2 things: 1) NFL aka American Football is FUN I caught a little bit of it on tv and according to my memory, whatever Pst How taught me. the football is the new fetish. hahaha 2) Back Operational Today i was travelling and yes i'm back to that packed week routine. That means i will be around more which is personally really exciting for me. I was on newsweek and there's this whole lot talking about Obama's win. Well, there's plenty of effects and change and there was one really interesting. One woman wrote to her daughter or son was it? and said spoke about discipline. How Obama was so discipline and stuff along those lines. It's great stuff. You should read it. Let's see what happens on 20th Jan maybe 3: 3) Hiphop is the New Indie Hiphop music is not so bad anyway. I love it.... hahaha well once it seem lousy music but i think it's creative enough now that's that... hiphop is in. r&b is in. BOO! WOW! I have plenty more crap up. but we'll keep them more personal as of now. just kidding... it's 309am November 9, 2008 i love a particular someone and something Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:30 AM it's amazing how it's already sunday. it did felt like we had a long week but it definitely ain't worth it needing to end the weekend so quickly. i'm puzzled but slient happy too just to know that great things are happening in our midst. it's puzzling, yes it is. and i'm making a wild guess, perhaps that's what the mystery of love is. God is amazing. amen (: i sit here in disbelief. it is already november and the year is almost gone! there have been valuable lessons i've learnt and many take aways from various big small events. it has been a good year. i am wondering right now what next year will be like. i know 09 and 10 will be fast & massive. we are already 1200 and recently 2600. we will and obviously we have pass the 1400 barrier we set for ourselves. well, that makes 09 and 10 very special. you will get what i mean... i am so excited. in fact i daily try to contain my excitement. it's been hard doing that! i am excited about life. i love my life & the goodness of God over my life. haha just for laughs, i love playing soccer the way i play. i just love it. haha though not many people will like it (: but i love my life and that is all that counts. well today we dedicated Journey of a Dream to Pst Kong. if you haven't seen or understood what pride is, you should have seen the look on Pst Kong's face. He was so proud of us. there are so many things to say but so little time. just love life. life is beautiful. life at its fullest is when one is not distracted. it is at its fullest when your vision, purpose and dreams have clarity. distraction is the most terrible enemy of your vision. people trying to distract you are more terrible than enemies. (haha) simplicity is virtue and one that not many people have. i love my life. i love how great it is and how crap it gets sometimes. i love being able to laugh at things crapped up here. i love this. i love God. i love a particular someone. i love a particular something. That's it. i love myself. i love life. gdnight and let's love life! yi-pee arsenal 2 man utd 1 hail the gunners (: how not to love life? hahahaha November 8, 2008 apostolic! class! :p Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:13 AM in about a few hours, my camp mates will book into camp for field camp. they only had like slightly more than 12 hours out if i did not remember wrongly and they have to book in to go through torturous field camp. call it a blessing or a curse, i need not attend field camp because i'm enjoying my luxurious branded 8 to 530pm posting. it has been 1.5 weeks now and i'm getting adjusted and acquainted with the routines. i'll be comfortable real soon and i pray by God's grace i'll be able to do something to the zone (: Pst Kong just had an amazing session with us tonight. i hope you didn't miss it but if you did, come tomorrow and sunday. An Apostle is gifted in church planting and builder and growing. growth anointing, builder's anointing and the anointing to take grounds. it is very amazing (: tonight Pst Kong preached about so many things that was so ordinary yet extraordinary. What i like especially was how our speech and thoughts correspond to how much the power of the holy spirit will manifest in our lives. This concept answered a tons of questions i've been asking myself. I was so blessed personally. I hope you were as well. It was amazing too to know that God wants us to exercise what we already have. I so agree that men tend to want more in their basket all the time. Maybe it has to do with our security or pride but it definitely is unnecessary. Learn to make-do with what we have. This is a blessing in disguise. It may sound all meek on the outside but this is a godly principle man. Pst Kong is so right, we've got to make it happen and take dominion because that would be the meniscus of what God would do in our lives. It's be like a strike zone, a standard for God to better. It is amazing (: And Pst Kong got us to pray specifically for 5 areas of our lives. It was a beautiful moment and it was very spiritual and i doubt we live from moment to moment, if we grow and master the details of christianity, we will be strong. Great moments will chase after us instead of the other way round. well i hope you enjoyed the service as much as i did. see you tomorrow and sunday. and oh this weekend is 'have breakfast with parents' weekend. i've just heard some of your ideas and they are so sweet. hope you guys have fun with your parents. i'll be having fun tomorrow morning. gdnight November 7, 2008 a comparison? Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:28 AM a couple of us played soccer today & it was fun. we had a great game. it was very crappy and very funny. plenty of goals plenty of laughter. anyway we played at the smrt clubhouse. it's conducive for soccer. haha it was hard trying to convince jordan to watch movie with us. he would not watch The Coffin. it seems like The Coffin will appear next to his bed! it was tough and we found alot of ways to make him in. well we thought he needed some motherly attention but it didn't work. we tortured him and it didn't work either. we compared s'pore movie sing in the dawn to The Coffin and he still thinks both are crap. he just refused. in the end, we went to the mpr for a nap and right after that he said he'll be watching. so much for convincing jordan and not watching The Coffin in the end. we reached J8 and i saw Quantum of Solace. It is out and if i have James Bond who cares about The Coffin! Nonetheless after the movie, Nicholas said that The Coffin would have been a better choice. but we are not going to convince Nicholas that Quantum of Solace was good. well Quantum of Solace is good & J8 is not the J8 i know. Everything's changed and it's quite fun there. Even Jiayang when for a stroll before soccer. Guess we'll be patronizing J8 alot soon for the love of soccer. November 5, 2008 EPIDEMIC! Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:17 AM i just got back home from church. today we had a great svc with Nick Vujicic. the place was filled and it was good having him with us, it was good having a large crowd to look at and shallow into the heart. as he was preaching, i got a little bit distracted. but for a good cause. i was very distracted by his faith. the way he does the altar call is superb. there's so much persistence and faith. he gets the people and i am very inspired by him. got lots and tons to improve on and grow. 'work' was very slack today. i reached there early and in fact for the last one week i have been the first person to reach. tomorrow i'm waking up later to test out a new routine. hopefully it works out if not i'll flag for cab. i played alot of chess today. chinese... heard alot of babbling and trash talk which i could hardly understand but ain't it cool that i can't understand? that shows how special people are. at work i begin to realize that there are really alot of different kinds of people alive. yeah it's a revelation to know they actually live. i'm not taking offense but i really mean it. it's quite interesting and i think i say this in sweetness and laughter. daily, i meet these people and they never fail to surprise me. i had a good orientation on the first day, i was shocked but shocked more as the days go pass. perhaps this did some work to me. maybe, just maybe i grew to be more appreciative of people. i don't know but i hope i did. BUT yeah, the people are amusing. i just can't seem to comprehend them all. something nice happened today also at work. i had a good piece of news and it isn't coincidental. it was God. i think i am going to keep my good posting (: life has been very exciting apart from this really undecided army-people-weird-or-not-weird-maybe-i'm-thinking-too-much factor. the zone, hahhs i can't begin to talk about it. f2 and b zone has been amazing. i've just realized how precious some things are and how easy it is to grow. in fact i have everything in place by God's grace. i feel i am favored man... haha deep down inside i am very happy about the fact that there are leaders. these people are amazing. first they guide me with army second they guide me with my ministry leaders that i lead are equally amazing. it is good to be not there for 1.5 months and seeing them lead. it's just really good to know i did one thing right and that was to have seen the leader in them. other than that, it's all them. they are pretty amazing. Wayne and I have been talking and F2 is special. We belong to a a special CEG. the people are special and they are strong. all the efforts and plowing of amazing cgls who work so hard man. we are 110 120 now & WE ARE SICK OF IT. I can still remember these amazing cgls telling me to go for 100. Their faith is infectious!!! well b zone ain't lagging behind. guess it's all down to leaders. leaders who are successful make the organization successful. great leaders will make great followers. no great follower will follow a leader they think is 'lesser' than them. i am so proud of Wayne, Maeann, Joanne and Cheryl. I want to kiss their ring man. Henry Ford says one can remove everything from him, just give him his people and he'll get back there again. I'm never so Henry Ford but let me try to imitate him by saying the same thing. MUAHAHA pardon me honestly, i so agree. i would rather lead a bunch of 30 leaders then 3000 members. leaders are everything. now being a leaders should be a norm. personal opinion :p it is good to have leaders doing what they do and being experts in their craft. i feel so led by them all the time. this is turning out great. i've been trying to share my joy with people but i've got no time to talk to anyone. well, at least now to whoever reads this (: it is very expensive to have leaders. 30 leaders are more expensive than 3000 members. but it's worth it. well and but ironically, don't you agree that the most expensive people to have around are leaders who do not lighten the burden? haha I'm infected by a great bunch of people (:
November 4, 2008 the big secret behind a big hoo-haa Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:07 AM today was the first day of actual posting vocation it was fun because of some reasons. i've to wait until friday for something. i'll wait. monday was fun especially when it includes alot of people. it's good to have something different after a while in camp. i could play my guitar freely. be online freely and pack my place. it's been a cool 2, 3 days... i hope you had a good weekend too nick vujicic will be with us tomorrow and it will be exciting as always i'm sliently excited about meeting him. anyway to something alittle more shallow. arsenal was stoke-d. liverpool didn't do very well too neither did man utd i'm getting all excited again about soccer again well that's all i did today. ate alot, checked my emails alot, played alot of music and did those kind of stuff. all i think i really need now is a 3km run to feel sharp. BUT 3KM??? let me go to sleep before i attempt to do something crazy tonight see you soon when i see you tomorrow and wednesday i am very excited about my november and december someone has to help me with Heroes. you know i don't like watching it streaming. i like the feeling of having a file to keep and open and play again. this is shallow but all that i've said here is dead important. well that's a secret we need to uncover ourselves... okok i'll see you tomorrow November 2, 2008 thousands and thousands Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 11:34 PM i haven't been able to blog largely because i'm in camp but goodbye to tekong, i'm not going back there anytime soon. now i enjoy a 8 to 5pm posting which is amazing! By the grace of God i can blog more now. muahaha well, the past many many weeks have been great. there were events after events and all very significant. when i thought it was it this november and december is even more hyped up than i thought it is. we have 7 to about 9 events lined up in the church calendar and i am dead excited. this is the end of the year (: let's invite some friends for some of those events that are coming up we are going to have a lot of fun let's see each other on the street soccer court in church perhaps some of you would prefer CS? Candy weekend 80s 90s weekend and our very cool Talentime I am dead excited I hope you guys are doing as well as i think you are (: i'll catch up on blogging soon till then, gdnight and gdbye and thousands and thousands to come in our church (: amen...
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