In the Bedroom after the War
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June 28, 2008
i'm so eeeck-ed Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:10 AM i think Wimbledon is on. everynight when i turn on the tv there is tennis going on. there is a distinct difference between the women's & the men's game yet alot of similiarities. okay let's go about the similiarities first - they all yell so loud when they strike the ball. now the difference - the men shout like they are going to strike the ball! the women yell as if the ball is too heavy for them. or maybe i'm wrong about them in general. it may just be serena williams. yeah all great players have a 'yell' about them. so let's all yell huh... crap today was quite fun having drums lesson with hong hwee. after that i just did what i needed to do on my laptop the whole day. i haven't been doing that for a long time. so many things to do. really really exciting. then came jordan and nicholas & they told me leona was absent from school today. and the loudness and entertainment begins. we kicked the ball around, of course they went to disturb ernest & tried to do the same with dominic but failed. so all those things... after all that we went to bugis for steamboat. haven't ate like that for some time. it was good very comfortable and very nice. it was some restaurant by dhl balloon & for goodness sake i thought we screamed and yelled too loudly. jordan could be heard very clearly... yeah very clearly. the rest of our laughters following too. so you guessed we had a great time. we had winning eleven challenge and some pronunciation thing going on. some of us couldn't pronounce some words... it's quite funny. nicholas corrected all of us saying our th-ank yous were wrongly pronounced. he says it as,"fff-ank you". hilarious! but that's one secure guy who can laugh at himself. noni is super funny. i didn't know the extend of how hilarious he can be until recently. yeah he's quite funny quite funny quite funny quite funny. we cleared all of that at abt 9 plus and decided to go for beancurd again. this time we didn't go to the upper storey like we did. the guys, we were battling winning eleven out and screaming at each other a metre or less than that away. now my head is spinning and i am going to crash soon. cheryl, you'll hear the crack soon... i suppose (: it'll be stupid for me to do it just for you to hear. one day you'll notice. oh crap... my back is killing me. it makes me sleepy, tired and sluggish. it's a sore and everything that is that substracts from all that i need to be. so, crappy back. on the train we left sinfei in the deep. there were jokes and plenty of one earphone music. awww sinfei, you must promote! loads of crap today. nadine says nadine is pronounced ner-dine. well i just did,"nerd-dine" which is 1000 times cooler nadine. hahhs last thing, jordan talks really loudly. really loudly. i've never heard anyone with such pitch and volume. but then he's a sweet guy. surprise parents with beancurd. quite cool huh. just maybe a little softer would help jordan? June 25, 2008 was soccer today a microcosm of the euro 08 final? ahhh i'm just crapping Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 11:15 PM shini said something really interesting that i have to talk about it. german machines against come back kings turkey. you decide the outcome for yourself but none plays really good football. so boo! then the next thing is this; that spain or that russia? spain & russia are the only 2 teams now playing some briliant football. i'm really undecided because my portugal is out so yeah crap. at the end of the day, just know, you'll have one team either spain or russia who plays good football v.s. a tactical team in germany of turkey. hmmm... russia anybody? i have a gut feeling they will win the Euros (: Arshavin man... first thing in the morning i received an sms from nicholas and he asked me what i was doing for the rest of the day. i told him. he was then with me the entire day because he had no school. we travelled together, we did everything together. it was fun & enjoyable. alright now, i had a very interesting drum lesson today with hong hwee. it was fabulous i tell you. i was so good. tomorrow yamaha and then friday with hong hwee again. it is amazing it is amazing. afterwhich i went over to compasspoint wo meet the nan chiau people and we just hung out. the food at compasspoint is really quite nice - foodcourt. we met kesia & her juniors jamie & rachel that came for red rain & 1 zone f service. soon after, sinfei & nadine came! i had no idea or prior knowledge that they were coming & i was so so so so happy to see them! i got some crappy news from them about their studies & we were debating whether sinfei needs braces or not. at the end of the day, she already confirmed it already. yeah i know but it's still quite fun to discuss and talk nonsense about it. nadine finishes her exams tomorrow & she'll be very happy i bet. after paper go home, friday no school & the whole of next week is e-learning oh crap... speaking of e-learning, jordan, nicholas & leona had e-learning today & tomorrow. what crap luh... when did i have anything called e-learning during my time in school? hearing what nicholas said about his assignments online, come on... it's not even homework, it's like the teachers are putting something up there so they meet the mark and don't get into trouble okay? hahhs see the true meaning of e-learning is to jump start the students engine again for school. at least i suppose. (: going back to us at foodcourt compasspoint. me and nicholas went head to head in winning eleven which i never lose. i have only lost to 3 people before because of complacency & i used some stupid team & really lost to 1 hands down. so that funny guy nicholas come challenge me - ahem... so 1st game got going brazil vs russia(me)... nothing. second half he scored the first goal. awesome! full time 2 - 5 (: hahhs! nicholas! russia eh! 2nd game after our chicken chop and it was man utd vs argentina(me).... he said best team v.s. best team! final score 0 - 5 (: muahahahaha and a fantastic lob over the keeper ;) aright... let me not get proud here though i really think i am very good. i played this stupid game since primary 5 alright. whenever i had a break, study break, whatever i was on winning eleven. i saw them evolve into ps3 and psp okay! hahahahhahahaha. crap i talk like i own the world. but yeah... nicholas, we should have another round! alright humility.. humility... it was so good to see sinfei & nadine i tell you. maybe it was because i haven't seen them & over the weekend never really talk to them. same too for chew theng & i just did sms her. we were sick of compasspoint and we left for soccer. we were at the interchange waiting for nadine and sinfei to make up their mind what bus and where to take but really it did not have anything to do with us! we were going to hougang to play soccer while they were going church. we had a fun time playing soccer i tell you. as usual kicks and knocks and goals. when everyone slowed down and was just hanging around. i had sort of a goalkeeping challenge with benny and gabriel. it was funny. 2 goalkeepers for 1 goalpost and all i did was to kick the ball. they were super funny... they stood there like they were forming some kungfu array or something but well cool. then some really really really funny malay guys came. really loud, really rowdy, really irritating. shouted for a next team and then you know the story... 1 kicked wayne to the floor, 1 pushed me to the wall. hahhs good for them... we won in the end 9 - 7. hahhs... they were quite unhappy with us really but then we just had to do the right thing. i scolded that 1 guy who kicked wayne but he was so harden he answered back like a hooligan! in fact sorry he is one. after that i decided since raising my voice won't help so i just walked away and after that i marked him DEAD & just love him! stupid guy luh :p he was okay in the end because we won! what could he have said? but good thing was that he responded well to love. hahhs just that another guy did not. he was limping for goodness sake after the game and i asked him, "is your leg okay?". he replied, "keep quiet luh". hahhs that pretty much was my day. i hate is so much when people come intimidating young people. we were a young group playing soccer today but that doesn't mean you can intimidate and bully them man. as long as i live, i will not let anyone bully young people... and that means anyone in f zone. stupid guy luh! when i thought that guy who kicked wayne was bad... then joker was more. how in the world would you reject love? hahhs unless you are an alien. but really this is how it is... you get rejected, people don't respond to you at first but slowly they will & they will. the more they don't, the more we are going to love them until they respond to us. yeah i understand, ppl are not used to attention, love & assurance after so long having not have them. so hopefully we see those guys again & it will be awesome (: it takes 2 hands to clap & 2 hands it is, to build a beautiful world.
let's make it a point not to.... Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:49 AM so let's just take it that samir nasri is already a gunner. let's just take it that way & we will avoid much redundant discussions! i will hardly be able to convince myself whether anything's real or not now! but it's not as serious as it sounds... it is close but not close enough. if i can meet his agent, i will gladly meet him and kill him for every arsenal fan out there. so this is it huh... 2am & my day's gonna end! i visited my grandparents today & had a great time having lunch with them. i am again all of a sudden super close to my uncle like the childhood days. i feel a sudden rush of filial piety these days. gotta take care of them man... well that's pretty much it i don't know what to say & my fingers ain't going to run. i am almost closed & shut down now. i have lost the day's inspiration to get things done so i need to sleep soon. horng yu: radiohead is a british band! rock band. famous, best of their time. revolutionized music when they recently launched their new album 'in rainbows' online, electronic music and got fans to pay whatever amount they want to for the songs. nadine & ee loo: numbers game huh? or what is that? confusion? alan: YES. Yishun. Very Yishun. In the middle of Yishun and Khatib. AISS? Just right beside that school. xing: help me again soon. jordan: yeah he's good and you are good at being random. you don't need too good a goalkeeper luh. or i would say too prolific a goalkeeper. romania's lobont is no one's problem but he's good. russia's akinfeev is nobody's problem too but he's brilliant. i'd rather go with this few. Turkey's Volkran! good.... June 24, 2008 ahaha what is this? Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 5:35 AM Nadine: It's not longer. I've not extended it. hahhs. Your eyes really can trick. They fooled you totally. How Teng: Yes. I saw your tag like now at 537am. I'm having ice-cream deals because i have ice-cream craze suddenly. Jo: Jeremy Ong??? Weijie: Yeah! Get ppl to go sleep! Exams period guys! Shini: Thanks! Alvin Low: I can't wait for 3000 too you know!!! I've calculated... i'll be out of army then. Nick: Your mutt bag too small to put home clothes. Jordan: Yeah addicted to ice-cream as much as you to viva la vida. You need to tell me the lyrics for ALL I NEED by CCC eh. I've not forgotten about it Xing: I hardly understand what you're saying but cool (: Thanks for helping me today. !!! well to the real thing...it is of greatest pleasure that i present to you the thing that made me so excited today. arsenal signed signed signed signed signed Samir Nasri. oh i am a soccer fan so please understand.  15.8 million dollars for a 20 year old. That is so cool! Arsene Wenger knows (: Well he really knows. This is who the football world calls "New Zizou". for some of us who DO NOT know Zizou, he is that voted Best Footballer of the Century Zinedine Zidane. okay now... alex hleb has been in much speculation that he'll leave the Emirates but then there is NOTHING concrete. Senor Wenger is also looking at Andrei Arshavin who starred for Russia this Euro man. Oh crap... because of him Holland are out! He's 27 which makes him exactly like Alex Hleb but who knows man... who knows... Wenger does crazy stuff. now we need another worldclass center back and a solid replacement for mathieu flamini. arsenal, come get me! hahhs kidding (: i am on a life time contract with Jesus. Muahahhs! i slept alot today. woke up and prayed the first thing. sought God and prayed. later prepared something really cool. then did stuff called many people and settled stuff, laughed, disturbed them. read my bible, played some psp, listened to good music, went out to jog with lixing my fitness trainer! hahhs. jogged from my house to my secondary school which is QUITE far. muahhs. then did pull ups - i overestimated myself man. i am so lousy at pull ups i just crashed onto the ground after doing it. later we fell to temptation. i apologise. we went to eat murtabak & some mee kuay tiao(i know this is wrong) goreng. SUPER NICE. when some of you come to my house to crash again, i'll bring you! then we walked across whole of yishun back to my mrt. met lynette to take my bible commentary and now i'm home. well cool thing is, i'd stayed up tonight to get some very exciting things done. I'M DONE WITH IT! YES! Russia beat Holland for goodness sake... oh my gosh man.... Portugal's out too! Crap Germany crap is in... haiz... now i hope Spain wins. beautiful football is the way. Russia too, i don't mind... Ernie is going army 9th July. You are a great bro. it is 537am and i just finished all that i needed to do. it is so good i tell you. i loved it so much (: alright good morning students & happy exams. gdnight ivan & see you in a few hours time now. remember to wake up and visit your ah gong. seriously, gdnight & gdbye
June 22, 2008 you will break loose & return Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 11:20 AM in the morning i woke up & went back to sleep just a little bit more about. then in my little bit of consciousness i decided i should go pray and do my qt! so i pulled myself outta bed, went to wash up, threw out whatever's on my mind & just approached God & began to worship & pray. there is official a prayer corner in my room. i even have a prayer carpet which is cool and a prayer stool which i can sit on, lean on, clasp my hands on. it is cool. so it was the way it was, just praying and seeking God and praying for this, that, this & that person. even as you start to do that, you feel the love of God coming into your heart. right at that instance, i began to realize once again that the love of God will come upon your life when you intercede for people. praying for others in the secret of your privacy is such a beautiful thing. to pray for them is to serve them well & that is to love them. yeah, it was pretty amazing (: i'd prayed for so many people i feel the love of God brooding over my heart. i am enlisting into the army soon! oh crap... i'l have a good posting. it is not a problem. yesterday the fact that it is now 2.5 months away dawned on me! that is so fast. a moment of time ago i was saying 4 months. today is one of those sunday mornings i need not go to church early & it was beautiful just gazing at God. Romans 8:38&39 38For I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from his love. Death can’t, and life can’t. The angels won’t, and all the powers of hell itself cannot keep God’s love away. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow, 39or where we are—high above the sky, or in the deepest ocean—nothing will ever be able to separate us from the love of God demonstrated by our Lord Jesus Christ when he died for us. in today's terms it would mean... Paul says no discouragement, no failures, no guilt, no mistake too big, no doubts, no tiredness, no stress, no confusion, no whatever can separate us from the love of God. not even the fears for today & our worries about tomorrow (: no angel, no heavenly creatures, not satan, not his demons can keep us away from the love of God. we may all be pretty messed up sometimes or even really flying in life. well NOTHING will ever be able to separate us from the love of God. it is something that we have entered into at the moment God conceived us in His mind. there are times we feel we don't need the love of God. while there are also times we feel we are running away from the love of God or anything that represents it... hahaha just know one thing... we may be ignorant for a moment, proud for 5 seconds, lose our footing, lose ourselves on the spur of the minute, you may even physically, emotionally have already 'separated' yourself from the love of God... BUT GOD'S LOVE WILL COME & IT WILL COME TO YOU FAST TO THE PLACE YOU ARE & YOU WILL BREAK LOOSE, YOU WILL GIVE UP YOUR GUILTY ESCAPE, YOU WILL FEEL THE LOVE OF GOD. now i see it all happening! no one will reject me & you as people preaching the love of God because they cannot bear to! last week i told one guy the same thing, that he'll come without me asking him, he'll be here, he'll realize the goodness of life in Christ, i got him to wait and see. yeah... wait & see. oh and can i saw that i love all of you so much? (: when school starts i will see you guys so much lesser... we'll have wayne in nan chiau uniform, jomain in st nicholas', the saint andrews' uniform, the vjc uniform, innova, cjc, ajc, gan eng send, clementi town, hougang sec, anglo-chinese, there are so many.... i miss you guys in nice proper home clothes already...
don't crumble and burn... Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:13 AM it was a great day today & i'm thrilled to just be able to be here seated down and having known i've spent a good day. it was very fun meeting the f2 leaders today & tremendously exciting to see people like xiaojiao & qiaohui a little bit stressed up (: that is amazing! i was talking to xiao jiao's sister xiaoyu's after f2's mtg and she was telling me xiaojiao was really stressed up the night before!!! i am so shocked and so surprised & touched. it reminds me of how we were towards Pastors last time. We really just looked forward to every mtg we had with them & always a big discussion will start on what Pastor was going to talk to us about. It was really cute & funny thinking about it now but hahhs can you believe it it was like 7 years ago? i thought i was really quite fierce today meeting them but then oh man i love them!!! let's take away all that we do and fall in love and just love Jesus together. Wayne is amazing, Jomain is, Xiao Jiao, Qiao Hui, Kevin, Shawn is awesome & so are Gwyneth, Nicholas & Jordan. it was cool, we had discipleship 2 days back & it was AMAZING. i had shawn, sinfei & weile that would wear home clothes and say they were going out to buy something and just come to meet me! they are so so amazing. i really respect them (: alright, zone f service was awesome today!!! Elevate was phenomena (oh no!) it was Ernie's maiden's service so it was surely memorable for him (: it was special. very special. everything about zone f service today was good. people were coming up to us and saying how they felt the presence of God. it was simply amazing. we're going to take it and bring it further. dominic is the man luh! & lynette preached 'wooooooo!!!' today. an added dimension brings alot of excitement (: just hearing what Pastor How say today was so so so so cool. I've heard it before but just being able to receive again was good. I am so excited about the next few years. i really have to run and keep up with the pace man! if not like all gamers they say 'GG'. AIN'T IT SO COOL. We're going to adopt a family man. How cool is that??? you just really have to be there to get the picture man. a couple of the guys got me something i was looking to buy real soon & it's way cool. they are so sweet. and i was doing and praying with nelsis just now and had andy and alan around looking for koon yew. hahhs. quite funny but then they didn't know. ahahaha i heard from joanne, dom & other ppl that they are super funny people. hahhs we'll see to that yeah... got to know angeline a few days back. had some deal going on that i'll get her an icecream. and i extra pushed it and asked for a sausage too. i was pretty amazed, she came to me on friday and gave me a cheese sausage. awwww.... so funny & sweet. she's just 10 years old. she came looking for me for ice cream today but i didnt know. met her at mcs and she told me i looked busy meeting someone so didn't come. well, that is so sweet. tomorrow we'll have ice cream together. so we'll see how that works out. i was supposed to have ice cream with someone else too. but then i had to go meet some other people so yeah... maybe another time how teng. ahahaha she's quite funny. popping out of nowhere suddenly again & making the other crew and some of us laugh like crap. sky can imitate her. i guess you'll only be able to speak to 2 out of 3 of the people!!! tomorrow i have meeting with Pastor How. (: it is going to be a powerful meeting (: ah well, that's all. joanne said something pretty amazing today that i remembered until now. ain't it good to have a good team? hahhs. zai! the horlicks ice cream you bought me melted like crap sia. we need to go there for more soon. oh man, i love everybit of my life. why are the people so beautiful? they are just amazing... wayne is super funny. leona is forever the yakuza he is. jordan shared testimony like some big boss. nicholas is forever following me everywhere even the toilet. sinfei is forever THERE & i feel it when she's not THERE. nadine is arguing with me that she has no curfew! chew theng is chew theng. bing rong is ruling the world now. weichao is just a machine waiting to be unleashed. gong hua is so flexi. maeann is zai, she hears from God before i have to tell her, joanne is ms popular, jomain is so quiet and smart in the background. oh man... there are so many... i've just missed out so many people. ahh crap! oh yeah man, it is so amazing to know these people and have them beside you all the time. muahaha... school starts on monday. everything is going to slow down. well, still we'll build and conquer new grounds. i love my life & the kid that i am. hahahahahhaha oh crap... yeah i am quite a kid. why have i just typed all this like a kid? June 21, 2008 looks, tastes like the real thing Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:46 AM i'm gonna reply to all of you! Roy: Hey there! Yes i remember you. How could i not? I met you in the lift today & you are one cool guy. It was so good that you waited for us to come. Thanks so much & glad to have met you man!!! Nadine: Alamak... nadine, your paper's on monday, i rather you spend more time studying there alright! what are the rest of you doing here when there are exams!!!??? Rebec: i hope you find a big tree. Ziling: help your sis find a good tree Ernest: 1 2 5? What talking you??? Jordan: Stop viva la vidaing, tomorrow i'm asking you for the lyrics of the other song i told you. you better be able to tell me! Nicholas: Yeah don't use age if not Ernest sure win. He's so old Ruly: Study luh! When you take a break, go wash your shoes (: Shini: What kind of a show is that? Be cool, watch soccer! :p Gong Hua & Weichao: You are brainwashed by Nadine already! Sinfei: You too... Horng Yu: Oh oh... let me tell you something... radiohead rocks more :p okay now, i just think our people are amazing. you guys can find entertainment out of nothing. just simple, love & attack life, make the best of it, live it to the fullest. it's quite cool being around you. siiirrrrrwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeettttt! Pastors just came back. We were at the airport to receive them just now. In fact i just got home not long ago. It is going to be an amazing and exciting weekend ahead and i'm excited already... tomorrow is saturday, tomorrow is service. I am thrilled. I've got to be in church a 9am tomorrow & it's 3am now (: I love how this sounds... My uncle smsed me today saying - "sissy ronaldo" Ahhh, well said. I am so Portugal but not very Ronaldo. We should have played Quaresma. Now we are out of the Euros. Crap luh... When i saw the score today i was so sad... argh! hahahaha Now i owe my Uncle lunch. But he's right what he said. muahaha Reign of love I can’t let go To the sea I offer This heavy load Locusts will Lift me up I’m just a prisoner In a reign of love Locusts will Let us stop I wish I’d spoken To the reign of love Reign of love By the church, we’re waiting Reign of love My knees go praying How I wish I’d spoken up Or we’d be carried In the reign of love. beautiful... just a beautiful beautiful song. i've never heard something so uplifting before. this is beautiful. June 19, 2008 first time having a urge to blog Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:05 AM i just posted few hours ago & got some things down and i'm back to post again. there are so many things to do & it is fun just getting them down one by one. incredible hulk was all about love & anger. yeah pretty much 2 extremes. it (movie) just shows that in all anger, love can overcome. some people are just so angry on the inside. well maybe not, just unrest that you can feel it standing near them. there is strife. there is whatsoever. they feel like cranking gears that absolutely missed some oil. it is just so hard to relate or draw out of a person like that! i bet you would have felt that way. you say a thousand words and you get a major disappointment after that. there is just no connection. it is dry. it smells rust. well there are always those that are so soothing to the eye, ears & everything else. to have a gd relationship is one of the most important thing according to the bible. i bet you have spoken to someone filled with love before! you can feel the difference from miles away. you enter into a room & you can feel those burning passionately with love and those totally withdrawn. like mighty hulk, you can't get ride of that anger. you need to keep in under control and make it work for you. perhaps anger is the wrong word after all? maybe drive? excitement? purpose? spiritual defiance? whatever. you get the idea. hahhs guess what? the hulk pretty much changed the world in the end. with doing it the right way (: mr hulk after all is the most loving person in the show. watch that part he jumped off the helicopter & gave it one last shot. watch that part he protected his girl from the crashing helicopter. that 'passion', i would call it, he used and channeled it to the right areas; save people, fight evil. quite cool huh. he is no repulsive hulk. just one rejecting his gifting until he was touched by love to finally embrace his gifting and make it work for himself. just pretty much like many of us. as a matter of fact, we were all like that once. maybe some. sorry :p just wanting to be someone else, until we were loved and accepted. then we start to embrace ourselves and God's workmanship in us and craft a life out on our own. hulk is the example to many what a balanced person is all about. muahahahahahahahah! let's be hulk-like :p love is powerful. even the hulk was transformed by love. June 18, 2008 1 in 3 or 4 Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 11:24 PM it rained today & goodness we were only about to leave church! it was so sad not being able to cycle today. yeah... so we went with plan b; that was to catch Incredible Hulk. alright, it was very good. i totally had fun & enjoyed myself today. the plus point was that the people were hilarious. we spoke about jap names for everyone of us we each carried and umbrella and larry shot the umbrella into jordan's eye jordan zarakinichi leona ferkado larry yamashita nicholas tomato potato it was super funny when we said it just now these guys really can crap and joke! i met my uncle for the first time in 3 to 4 years today he changed so much & he is my favourite uncle he's good & i really think i'll grow up to be like him, same kind of personality. he really went for it and was bachelor. finally getting married next year. he's way cool. i remembered i was a kid, he brought me to toy'r'us. he said, word for word, "choose anything you want!" being a very good kid :p i didn't want to be greedy so i only thought of getting 1. for the longest time i was choosing what i wanted and it came to the crunch. i was standing at the power rangers megazord section for such a long time deciding between two robots. suddenly my uncle came & asked,"what are you thinking about?" "which one i want, because it's really expensive" he replied,"take both... i am paying for it" as a young kid, that was beautiful. i remember what he said until today. Unknowingly his actions touched my heart. today he gave me money. oh crap... and we talked and talked and talked & he was really funny. he plays soccer regularly now & supports liverpool. he encouraged me to go to church more often and learn from the bible studies. went to my parents and told them to do so too. well, he is a free-thinker. been to church in his childhood days. it would be nice to have him saved. he's so supportive and understanding i'm quite shocked. oh and tonight elgin is bringing back arsenal merchandize! my uncle went to emirates, old trafford & anfield and got some stuff. well i see what he bought. muahahaha yeah that's uncle burt for you. cool guy, a gentleman & really nice. it was a cold day today. i was freezing to death in the morning & when i left church. it was so so so so cold. alright i'm just waiting for dad to bring food home then i can enjoy. i've got to prepare for my day tomorrow & pray a little bit soon. schools going to start for the secondary school people! exams for the jc students! so irritating but then they better do well. for now... food is here! OUT for now.
just some pretty idealistic statements Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:00 AM i just got home not long ago & i'm listening to good music now. mum bought tonic chicken from somewhere & it spells nice; especially with that tonic and herby smell. i am going to savour it later. we went to sentosa today & it was fun. we did alot of dunking in water. and then sun-tanning on the lighter sands. they were throwing sand bombs around & it was painful & very disgusting. Jordan was comical in water. Nicholas just went for me the first thing we hit palawan. Leona was as usual pushing Jordan around. Benny joined us later and when he came it was funny. A kodak moment. He smiled at me; that wide big smell he has. yeah that one. then all of a sudden i see his countenance fall and he started running away. i didn't have to do much but stand still and see leona, jordan & nicholas run forward at and enter into my vision. it was so funny. i thought what in the world was he running away for. they dipped him into water, up again and in once again. he was screaming but it was very sweeeet to have him screaming! hahhs they had their 'pepsi cola' showdown & jordan + sinfei won. hahhs ahhh crap. we went to eat after that and we all fell asleep on the table after our meal. i woke up feeling the numbness eating up my leg. i hate that feeling. but then it's quite ironic you want to force your leg against something so that numbness soothens. hahhs... quite amazing. WE HAD A GREAT TIME. tomorrow east coast @ cycling! yup so i was saying i have been thinking alot of people and why they do what they do. seeing them love each other and not love each other. in the form of nadine & co + jordan & co it is beautiful. but then there are always other things that are not the way you want them to be. what is love to you? well it is everything to me. like i've said before. God is love. If everything is possible with God. Then everything is quite possible too with love. if everyone would just be that little bit more others centric it would be beautiful. it everyone would just put themselves a little bit more in the other person's shoes it would be a pretty picture. sometimes anger comes, complication arises, doubt flashes through your mind but then when you react in love and be loving, it is not very hard to simply erase all that's jammed up. love is a cleansing agent. she just delete things & at will she deletes it. to love people is very simple - just decide too. just a few more words. just a few more steps. just a few more smses. just a few more touches. just a few more here and there. it is so easy to love. we already have Jesus showing us the ultimate that is Agape. what we express ain't even close and it ain't whatever is require. like someone once told me, "just have to put in that effort to put a few more !!! & (: in my smses" and it changed me forever. love is about connecting. love is trust... we have to love people. people are perhaps the most important thing. ambition yes, destiny yes, whatsoever yes... but i come to realize and am still realizing that people are the most important. i will bring them to heaven with me. they are the only 'things' i can carry on my back. if your world & my world is just filled with the A1s we want to get, the money we can earn, the fame we all can have or whatever that is then A1s, money & fame are obsolete. it was because of people that's why all this has that value it offers you. so yeah... we have to engage the people around us & love them. to me love is really exciting. i can't begin to tell you how i would plan to love someone. how to encourage them, make them feel good, do things that throws them off. it is so exciting & fun to love people. people, they are everything. everything else is equally important if with the existence of love for people. if not there is no value in whatever we do. we can then imagine that we are the only ones on planet earth doing what we do. i said doing what we do because no one will coin your success, failures, etc. nothing matters after all. awesome now (: i choose to love today, everyone, everywhere, everytime. there are a thousand things i know more than many about people but i will love. it is the same thing for me, i have a thousand things i know lesser than others about people. just have to react & respond in love. people being people, they know people. like how you know them, they know you. whether you love them, whether you are genuine, whether whatever. just love. we will be a force (: like northbrooks oh crap! we were powerful! like the inner circle of us now! genuine, in each other's face & very loving (: we all whipped each other into shape long ago.hahha yeah what were you thinking? love means lovey lovey? sometimes... but love is strong & steel. love is iron sharpen iron. savour my tonic chicken!!! i had a great day. 235am Holland vs Romania! Attacking football at it's greatest! so yeah... goodnight & goodbye now. i have nothing to say anymore. June 17, 2008 oh wait another post!!! Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:36 AM WE ARE GOING TO SENTOSA TOMORROW!!! CRAP! In Cheryl's, Jordan's & Nadine's blog... you can see the very much anticipated showdown. well i'll be sun-tanning. the best for the last! they will all go down tomorrow! :p hahahahahhaa!!!!! oh crap... look what i have done. oh yes i have the videos of the stayover! hahhs happy orientation to nicholas. he got beat up man. hahhs jordan and benny was super funny. leona and his stupid towel. ernest and sean just finishing the job up. well i look and laugh. we'll see how to go about putting on the video here June 16, 2008 viva la vida craze Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 11:44 PM i will tell you why viva la vida craze and what it is all about... *real soon* today was quite a different day altogether for me. i've never spent mondays out with people nor out of house for a long period of time. well, there is always the first time & hahhs today was my first time just staying out and getting a rest. we slept in and woke up at noon today. nicholas lee, boxue & wayne came over to stay over. it was quite funny, we didn't do anything. i felt a little bad because i was totally tired and i'd went to sleep before wayne came. when wayne stepped into my room, i greeted him then i fell right back to sleep. so that was it... a stayover or a hotel stay! (: we did nothing... we woke up and nicholas and boxue went off first. i went for my haircut and wayne followed me first because his soccer outing was later in the day. i got to victoria hotel & was late for my appointment but then my friend hairstylist was really cool as usual. caught up with him a little bit and he is finally in a relationship. he taught me some usual things i need to do when i am young and 'advised' me in the area of relationships. it was quite funny because i had nicholas luo & wayne over there with me listening. also, all the things he said, i've heard it a thousand times having been cutting my hair there for a thousand times. he keeps telling me that when i'm still young, okay looking i better enjoy my life and play all the relationships i want before i grow old and fat. hahhs. that's quite his theory which is really interesting. yes it amuses me. but well, all of us know that THAT is not true right? it is about commitment, character, calling & chemistry of course. well, i will keep listening to what he has to say because i want to get him saved! alright... going back, my initial plan was national library but nadine & sinfei went over to mos burger at parco because there weren't tables. it's sad, tables ain't want us on them. so we went to mos & yeah THEY STUDIED. awesome... i planned my week and it was fast and easy because sinfei was there (: then nicholas luo challenged me to winning eleven! after which i played with jordan & then justin leong... it was quite fun... i won't tell you the outcome of those games!!! hahhs but just know i'm really good (: (: (: muahahaha jordan ate before all of us and wanted to treat himself to a highclass icecream but we stopped him. in the end he treated me to a sundae @ macs. so that's quite funny. afterwards jordan did SOME homework & nicholas read 4th Dimension. Nadine and Sinfei continued studying. Chew Theng read her Time magazine. We were doing all this for an hour or 2. soon, we got hungry and went to the foodcourt for dinner. it was super fun. i tell you it's fun, it's fun... Nadine & Sinfei wanted to eat from this jap stall but they irritated them with too much 'mashi mashi mashi' or whatever they were saying... afterwards we sat there for a LONG time just talking crap and playing 'guessing numbers'. jordan was on GTA & i soon snatched it and play too. well, quite okay game... not cool enough though. soccer better (: we had a next crazy idea. we decided to go eat dessert. so we walked from bugis all the way to selegie and had went to rochor soya bean. we walked passed close to china town and it was funny we saw 'SIN CHEW' Cultural blah blah blah. some stupid shop selling crap. so we took pictures of it because it resembles Sinfei's & Chew Theng's very good relationship. muahaha we got to rochor and i didn't know there's a 2nd storey to that thing. we went there and we turned it upside down. we laughed and joked so much the tables moved out of position. we talked crap and it was really funny. i can't being to tell you what we said and all. you should hear Jordan describe the difference between TNG & DENG. everyone of us think that he is super close to Huimin but he keeps denying so yeah. He said TNG with a acute sharpness of tone and a BIG short T resembling the sound of a church bell. then he went on to say DENG. It was mellow... dead long ddddddddDDDDDDD like a flat note on your piano or rather like smashing something unto your head. He is quite dead now. we then walked back to cathay just so jordan can use the toilet. the rest of us took a tour around gramaphone. then we went Adidas! oh man... that thing is very nice. so we went back, went home and lixing followed me home and hang out here for a while. today was quite funny. it was never ending laughter after 2pm. yeah until now as i type this. i've been thinkin about love & what people say about love. God's version of love is so not known. different people love differently & it's all ups and downs. all different all very here nor there. we'll see to it. today i and jordan did something funny. we are so similiar. having heard a song we like, we never switch to any other track on any other album! so we were all listening to viva la vida. on his mp3 player and on my ipod. we took each others earphones and tried playing the song together and listen to it through 2 players. it was funny... we couldn't match the time then we just let the song go on. then we played chasing beats for a while until we finally nailed it. on both earphones it was the same timing, the same singing! and we went, "yyyyyyyyyyyyyyYYyYyYyYyYyyyYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" that's about the crap we did (: i love them all June 14, 2008 phonoholics Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:20 AM reply to the most beautiful people is the first thing on my mind. - ah hahhs, you guys are amazing & really funny. only you would be so thick skin to say what you've said. but that is really cool because as always you guys are so in my face (: bold, confident yet very genuine and i love hanging out with all of you because you guys are so in my face. you make me cannot run away & that is brilliant. i like it so much when you are IN MY FACE and BOLD! you are precious and very important (: (: (: i don't know what to say over here you know? this is the first time i am really thinking what i am wanting to post. yeah which is quite crap. then blogging takes forever .... eeeekkkk... that is so no love. so many things are happening and happening at an amazing speed. we are on the brim of revival. Pastor says we are just about hit boiling point. it is going to be amazing REAL SOON. whatever my 'amazing' plays out to be for you, i hope you would still rock hard. Pastor said something else which makes so much sense to me. Though there are feelings about things, we need facts about them too. so give facts always and not just feelings. that would be cool. sunday is FATHER'S DAY. it is going to be fun muahahahaha alright Euro 08 is happening right now. this is the first time i am not following a major soccer tournament. well, portugal are winning like crazy! yeah! take cristiano ronaldo out luh! put Ricardo Quaresma! tsk... and let's envision a portugese out and out striker! we have lost Pauleta to age. But yet again, he's not really that out and out anyway. Holland trashed Italy. Romania drew Italy. 'YOU ARE NO WORLD CHAMPIONS' Boring Italy... Play soccer like Holland please.... total football. only know total football. yucks to the rest hahaha Hahhs Muahhs where's the 3 Lions playing in Euro 08? they just won't ever make it luh. not a cup at all. overrated! I am watching tennis now and David Nalbandian is good. I thought Gasquet was quite good you know... Just shows that everythign Argentinian is good. The next World Cup, Argentina should just win luh. okay seriously now, i have nothing other than commentary. just have been really good recently. i love my life and i love it so much. hahhs i am listening to Mr Jay Chou now. honestly, he is good. Pastor Lia was saying, he used to can't even sing but now he's so good! hahhs really, anything can happen man. Yakuza is back and he is very very funny. I miss him so much and it was just cool seeing him. First thing after coming back, he smsed me, he tagged me, he blogged, he went to tag other people saying, "THE YAKUZA IS BACK!" Oh now we all know (: Next day, i just saw him hanging out in church. how beautiful is that. Miracles after miracles have been happening. just just now, i heard 2 of them. so now you wonder why i have so many things to say and tell you all the time! one from jian ming and one from nicholas luo... it is beautiful. oh crap... my sister just came into the room and asked me match her clothes again. oh man... i hate doing that man! because i really don't know what to say man... hello... i am a guy... who know what a girl should be dressing like and who knows what is okay or not okay? hahhs i have a very funny family. my mum is our competition and rival. we just have to win each other all the time. oh and my grandma has been calling me like crazy (: my grandpa is mr cool & totally quiet. my grandma is the total opposite. justin is forever on the phone... i am going to smash that phone. hahahahahaha... who am i to do so.. elgin is also forever on the phone... my handphone bill is $400 but i was never on the phone so much like them... so what now? i love everybit of my family. Just not everybit about the usage of the phone. we have something for phones man. crap.... me and my dad are quite different. i just realized even i do.... just for my IPod and earphones my dad just keep quiet, work and pay for their phone bills. deliver my family oh God. gdnight & gdbye and i am looking forward to seeing alot of people tomorrow and sunday. just starting to miss church, miss the people, miss my Pastor. just miss standing infront and looking at people come in for church. miss getting to know people and matching names to faces. i miss church. June 11, 2008 took my heart away Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 11:22 PM i was preparing some stuff yesterday, way way late, something quite cool. showed garrett today and we had plans so it's amazing. well, that made me feel really amazed about things that are going on. way cool way cool. something Pastor How shared that was so powerful i must tell everybody. Culture v.s. Convictions. to the point, we have a strong culture in church, you will be spiritual, love God, read bible, pray because you are in the culture you are spiritual and everything else. true convictions only show when you are removed from the culture. for example i am taken away and put in malaysia or something. do i continue the way i am? or do i not? that's the clear distinct difference in culture and convictions. i see men as chameleons. some of them are whatever good they are being in the strong culture but whatever foolish being out of it. it becomes a little bit of a joke to me. i'm sorry but it's quite a joke. i used to be one popular chameleon last time so i guess i have the right to call what i used to be a joke? hahahahah yeah that's what i think. seriously, ain't it sad when one is plucked out of that strong cultured environment into a foreign land and loses all that he or she has built in his/her foundation for all that time in the cultured? people have been coming to ask me how to stay connected. ahaha it's quite a question to ask in the first place. honestly i don't know... i just do. just do what Pastor says, get into what the church is into and that solves the problem i guess (: but i wasn't mean la, i told them how to and i hope it helped them (: (: (: love them so much. well that's about it (: we have to be strong if not it gets a little irritating sometimes :p hahhahahahahahahah forgive me but yeah... put some steel into our being. gdnight & gdbye! zone stayover is going to be fun! yeah i'm dying now. slept 2 hours yesterday night! hahahaha i am crapped up today. June 10, 2008 21st Century Most Amazing Feats Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 6:43 PM there are a few most amazing feats around in the 21st century. but this is my version Re-Pronunciation: For a act cute twist to things, we call Jordan by the pronunciation of JAWWW-Den Hahhs... it's quite cool. He's quite eck by it but it is cool. Chronicles of Narnia: I watched it 3 times in 4 days. I don't know what to make of it. I'm quite bored & i can even tell you some cinemas had some scenes skipped. Lousy quality! hahhs I know it so well by now i can quote you what so and so said and when. Chronicles of Narnia Epic. GXT should do one like that. 1001 Phonecalls: Hahhs... it's quite cool to have alot of phonecalls but it's quite scary to have it regularly at the different intervals of the day. it is quite scary especially coming from my grandma. i just ended a conversation with her! i so need to go eat, bathe, and get my brother home & when he's home scold him. i am told a million times now and the same old thing! hahhs! it is hilarious. i don't know why i need to scold my brother for you know? but i have a cool family with a very animated tyrant kind of grandma that is almost extinct now. i have that which is very rare and i'm so blessed :p :p ahahaha... she is cool... try meeting her. and for an introduction don't call her 'auntie', you'll die. i hope she doesn't call me later at night because i am going to be doing so much stuff! alright i will scold my brother when he's home & ask him to feel bad that i've scolded him (: grandmas are the best around. no grandmas no nothing man. my live is filled with amusement and entertainment from various sources & my grandma is one. there are a lot more but maybe that's all for now. i better go eat the food grandma left on the table if not you won't see me at BMT tomorrow. yeah have a gd day ahead.
maybe i should curtail connections with nextro Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:33 AM Joshy - hahhs you must have downloaded it. torrent! but being a coldplay fan i have to have the record itself. so i'm waiting... it's a good album as reviewed in Time. So let's see what music we get out of Viva La Vida. The album is themed death for goodness sake. DEATH! Chris Martin is changing his style a bit man. Less ooohs & aaarrrhs. but then, he has such a way of putting across the true meaning of romantic love with those O&A. hahhs! well let's see where this goes.. Li Xing - yeah had a great time too. will have more of those junk happening. we've grown up man. no longer the crappy youths we were with no dress sense we used to be. there is no PO, there is no nothing. this is what Pastors have been waiting for all these years. Remember they always say - "can't wait for you guys to grow up!" grown up we are man... hahahaha there will come a time in our peak, we shall serve God and define what is serve by our standards and quality. we will be revolutionary. hahahahah... from a small church in an industrial park to today (: (: (: what is this? hahhs it is so funny... those who have left us, i feel for them (: i really do. Esther - linking soon!!!! one shot with whoever else (: today was absolutely fun. there was food there was music there was company. the trinity got us really happy for the whole of the evening. it was so fun i don't know how to put it across to you. buffet, 80s rock going on and many people doing many things. it was way cool, way out of the box, way something we 19 20 year olds will not do. now i am on a mission because of retro night. i have a million little buggy things i want to do after that. trust me, i will get it done real soon & yes without the knowledge of anyone (: hehehe. i will thoroughly enjoy what i am about to do. wanted to start today but hahhs something and someone else caught my attention. i am passionately in love with the holy spirit. Pastor How got all the leaders to read The 4th Dimension. i read that months ago so it was cool, now i've just continued with volume 2 & volume 2 is really what Dr Cho says as 'MORE SECRETS TO A FAITHFILLED LIFE'. it is so amazing; the book. i am intrigued by every little thing that print says. i was just reading at about 2 to 230am. everything seemed to have come jumping out at me. it's that feeling everything was written in the book just for you. guess praying helps alot. the more you pray the more engaged you are and when you do God's work or even read a simple book, because you are engaged, more life comes through to you. more revelation more renewing of the mind. more of everything small that we get reading it in the natural. i read the book and i was planning to sleep. but it was just so compelling. i just had to go to the living room and pray. so i did and i prayed prayed and prayed. God reminded me to pray for F2 so i did. prayed my usual prayers, that few points, that same few people (: yeah! but this time felt so different as i applied what i've learnt about incubation, the HS is with us, in us & upon us, need to have fellowship with HS. So many of these concepts and principles. i prayed my slogan prayer again and it makes so much more sense to me & because of revelation elaboration was simply easy. it was perfect it was good. i want the anointing. i want it and i want it. God has given us the Holy Spirit & with it we have judgement, wisdom, fear of God & understanding. I will not fail because i partner with the HS who cannot fail. It is not in His nature to fail therefore i will surely succeed. But if we don't grasp this enough, we will miss one of the most important things God wants to communicate to us. we will not fail. we will surely grow because our partner who is with us, in us and upon us does not know how to fail. woo.. a mental picture is all that is. but more than a mental picture now, it is about meditation. daily we need to meditate on the prayers we have prayed. we need to be preoccupied with it because when we do, the HS is us do too. the HS is the transporter of our prayers and of God's love. He is the middle man and He is so important. My prayers will have no power if i don't pray with the HS. My prayers are only answered because of the HS not my nobility. He is the transporter of our prayers to God and the transporter of God's love to us. without Him there is nothing.. that is how important having communion with the HS is!!! alright now b zone has grow tremendously & it is the HS at work. He is Lord of the Harvest so He has control. If we allow Him to do His thing, then awesome we get. The HS is the Lord. We are just supposed to carry out what He says to us. Actually leadership is easy. Just follow the HS. We were not meant to be engineers. We were meant for execution style (: we hit 90 as a zone! and that is fabulous. i don't know what the others thing of it many thoughts but i will not speak about it because my words have creative power. yours too. what i say in the presence of the HS will happen & therefore all i say is faith. we shall go to 130. we shall because when God judges, God judges us as a finished article. He sees the 130. So if we are 5 short, He judges us for that 5 short. He's an END PRODUCT God. Not a 'let's hope for the best in the future' one. when i say 130, or whatever number you say, thing you ask, to Him it is there. quite cool to see how God judges things huh? so what does all this mean? God is justice. Therefore is we have a seed of whatever we want in our hearts, it shall surely come to past because being a just God, He will not anyhow judge us if we're short because He said that as long as we have the seed and faith it shall surely come to past! So no worries... hehehe there is just too many things in my mind. i am so excited. i can't sleep now because i just had a great prayer time. argh... what do i do now? just kidding. oh precious f2, watch yourself turn and grow. 'do not despise your youth but be an example....' if the rest of the zone grow.... we will surely grow because we are supposed to be examples. examples don't run after everyone else. they chase their own. so i'm just happy the b & c zone is growing again. happy that the rest of the zones are growing as well. just shows that zone f will grow. the word of God will be tested and made true through this for the glory of God. watch and see... f zone will grow. we will be an example to everyone in how it is like being a huge zone, a massive one, a strong one, a giving one, a grateful one, one that fears God, one that loves God, a competent one, a capable one, a radical one & a spiritual one. read 4th dimension if you haven't. i am passionately in love with the holy spirit. gdnight & gdbye & gdnight too Holy Spirit June 9, 2008 odd night & old songs Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:44 AM we all had a long day, each and everyone of us at bmt & service. today was awesome especially with Pastor Joakim around. i managed to catch up a little bit with Pastor after the service and he was sharing so much about new generation & of course his personal life. Somehow when this man comes, i feel something rattle and rumble inside me all the time. It has to be the anointing. I remembered clearly how it had something to do with him, i mean he doesn't know, that i discovered many issues about myself. Today when i saw him, all those stuff started coming into my mind! It is the anointing & it really is. Yeah meeting him and the family tomorrow and it'll be fun. International Donut Day today and we did so many things for the first time. It was like what Pastor How said, a milestone. hahhs. I love my Pastor because everytime i talk to him i feel so empowered. He was speaking to some of us in the office while the rest was having BMT. He shared how we are a strong church, big on character, big on discipleship. Pastor How said how we'll be stronger if we add FAITH and SPIRITUALITY into it. We're in the season of FAITH so that is quite understandable. Then Pastor shared how sometimes we need to get out of our comfort zone into the spiritual if not we'll be too natural! He added, we need to be very spiritual but yet very relevant and cool. Plus being heart of God church and all the discipleship, training blah blah we'll be so strong. Pastor How is amazing. He went on to talk about BMT & stuff and just listening to him is so good. Half the time i really don't know how to react and what to say so yeah... i just want to listen! hahhs Few things we need to learn and adapt into our leadership. Just came home from supper with some of the people including Charleston, etc. He drove us so that is way cool. We've grown up and no longer young anymore. Too many times i still think and feel like we're that young bunch of crazy youths growing up still but hahhs we've grown up. It was so cool to see so many things happening, we're really old now. 20 this year and entering into the coolest few years of our lives. Can't wait for me to be at my peak serving God. It will be so cool. Crap.. we've grown up. grown man now. Charleston was saying... like how Jordan, Benny, Leona and Nicholas is to us nowadays. How we sit around talking about them and laugh away at God's goodness in their lives is the same thing with Pastors last time. Imagine with me, we were like that to Pastors (: It was cool... Now i understand how Pastors might have felt. Yeah, how to turn away and drop out the race? No way. well so many thoughts for an odd night with an old song repeating on the playlist. simple hearted not naive. never complicated at heart and simple minded. just have to get this right... i am who i am because of all my thoughts, the content (books) i expose myself to & the people i associate with. As a man thinks so he is... your thoughts are important to you. they determine who you are. 1 dimension person or whatever that is. life is not a line. nor a plane but a 4 dimensional game. to be simple minded is to be like a hard working fool losing all because of the lack of understanding of times. nevertheless your thoughts must go through the phillipians 4:8 test. capture your thoughts and examine them a little pls. it has to be godly & holy. it determines how you act out your time on earth around many precious people. speaking to someone who has no depth is the most frustrating thing to me. i used to don't care about many things until Charleston told me i have to get myself more involved in the things so i widen the spectrum through i see things, analyze and sort them out. so true. while it was never my personality to, i had to i had to. i was just focussing on my cg and zone and quite self centered and sucked in. that is so small. i like it the way now. ahahaha. thank God for Charleston, Dominic & Pastors. seek understanding about the church, why your leaders do what they do, why they say what they say and it puts some depth into us. same value system, same thoughts and feelings. one kind. at least this is what i think worked for me. oh thank you Jesus, my zone is growing (: imitate Charleston as He imitate Pastors. imitate Pastors as They imitate Christ. It's a fun game. 100% Jackpot & Success rate. MUAHAHAHA just kidding... i mean you'll never go wrong that way. yeah that's it. aww crap. looking forward to tomorrow hanging out with Pastors, Pastor Joakim & the family. it's time i go now. Viva La Vida will be out mid June and i'm looking forward to that. gdnight & gdbye June 8, 2008 amusement; part and parcel of my everyday life Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:38 AM today was great. i met with every CG from 10am onwards and i felt as if i know everything already. it was good. after that we had zone f service & woah... i am just so blown away by dominic. i guess i was a little distracted listening because i just kept thinking how amazing he was man. he has been preaching like crazy recently and doing so many things. just now he told me, "i haven't been leaving church before 11pm for a long time" yeah that sums up all. he is the man. i had a short 1 minute talk with him just now & it was awesome. i guess there is chemistry in our working relationship luh. me him and jianming. we just connect and understand each other. after a long talk and just wondering about many things i went to him and just told him how i felt. hahhs and i've got it settled and dusted. that is how strong our relationship is and i love it. i can just go to him and get it out. it was so simple... guess all of us need to have this type of relationship with people around us. hahhs i love this team and i love it so much. simple & in my face & in the way we all want it to be (: no wonder we can run so fast! we had quite a funny lunch cum dinner today. brought larry and the other people like dilan and co to dad's place for a good meal. we had black pepper crab! wheat prawns! tofu! blah blah kang kong! we just whacked everything down luh.. i got Jordan to say grace & this is what i thought the most amusing grace ever "Dear Jesus i thank you for the food.... i thank you for all the animals sacrificed for this meal... Amen" Oh man... and Jordan was genuine! He wasn't joking and that was really funny. We laughed half way through saying grace because of that! Super duper funny huh! Benny was super funny too along with Larry muahahah i can't remember what they said man but it was really funny! Pastor Che Ahn was fabulous. So good we went into that flow. Not used to it but Charleston says it is like that one (: So yeah! He is amazing. It was so anointed... Tomorrow is service with Pastor Joakim! Can't wait to meet him... The family is here as well. BMT starts at 8am and i've got to be in church at 7am! i feel like playing soccer all of a sudden. well love you all and that was very much today. it is at this time you miss your Pastors. I suddenly thought of my Boss too. i love the inner circle so much man. oh crap... benny and boxue is staying over tonight at my place & we are starving. no food for the first time. benny just told me - "ivan... i was late for zone f service today..." "wah! what happened" "i was late by 1 second" and he's genuine! my goodness i love my life. gdnight & gdbye! June 5, 2008 how can we comprehend it Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 4:01 PM God says in the Bible that he has placed eternity inside of us that means we have each the potential to connect to what's eternal outside our 3 dimensional world but whether we tap on that potential is a different story all together then there are some very funny creations like us who debate & try to comprehend eternity that is inside of us since God said eternity is inside of us, then won't it also mean that we are bigger than eternity; that i can actually comprehend eternity? isn't eternity so small? isn't this Jesus thing that we've been talking about for centuries just a myth that is engineered by men? good way to think (: because doubts will only lead you to the truth. i opened up my bible & if you have a bible like mine, the introduction gives you a historical recap about the entire account. it tells you what happened, who wrote, timeline, etc. the bible is a historical book too. my bible says, "He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end." - Ecc 3:11 we were just given the potential to connect to the One who is Eternity Himself. Eternity placed in our hearts = a sense of the existence of God placed inside our hearts. that is why when you fail in your exams, you are stress, you put your hands together and pray. to what i don't know but you pray. you were given the capacity to connect to the One who is Eternity Himself (: no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end because creation cannot know the mind of creator. even if we have a super powerful robot that is exactly like a human. it will not rule over us... in fact it exist only out of a percentage of humanity that the manufacturing or engineer gives to it. so we always wonder whether God is real. i am enjoying all the fruits of it. that is one way to see whether He is real or not. Good tree bears good fruits. No tree no fruits. So existence of fruits means there is a tree. now what about us trying to understand God. i have tried too you know? the older i get the more i want to. seem like it does something to us if we can comprehend God right??? but ah crap, we cannot. i prayed and i asked God to show me what the Fear of God is in depth. i mean i know it, there are few things you do that shows you Fear God, etc but i need a conviction about that. Something which we all need too. back, i prayed and i cannot really comprehend man. See... fear of God can only be a revelation. revelation is a spiritual imprint. like i've mentioned we have the capacity for the spiritual. i can have knowledge but without imprint i will not experience God. to understand God is not something that will happen if we don't experience God. my friends can talk about how fun this and that is but i will not IDENTIFY with it if i don't experience it myself. i understand where they are coming from, i know facts about it, this and that happened, this was how it was like but only when i EXPERIENCE it that i truly IDENTIFY with it. this experience will bring you a larger than fact identification just like ice-cream is genuinely good only if you have tasted it. No one else can then tell you ice-cream is not good. crap, you tasted it yourself! so many of us, and i include myself. stand afar sometimes and observe and look to see how things work out. we want value for money. it is innate in us! our $1 must return $1 if not $1.50 worth of entertain and value. argh... that is really funny but it shows our nature. it is like you will not have a lifetime experience if you don't give a once in a lifetime risk. if we can get out of that $1 for $1's return mindset then we can truly experience the greater life that we can have with Jesus Christ. what profit is there in our own doings? there is no profit you know? success this and that. eh please have that, but then there is no real profit that can bring us. look, there is no remembrance of former things, nor things that will happen in the future by those people who will come in the future - your future family. no one really remembers 1990's richest man right? blah blah... God has given us a burdensome task so that we all are occupied by it. that task is LIFE. LIFE is a task in God's term. while to us LIFE is everything. that's why you see, there is nothing out of our own hands that can profit this task that God has given us. Nothing can be added to what God has done & nothing can be taken away from what God has done. Whatever God does is eternal because that is His nature. He does it out of His own resources. yeah that's right! you know why people turn to religions & seek 4th dimensional help? pray, worship? because what is crooked can make a crooked line straight. if you struggle, you can't help me too because you don't understand what it is like not to struggle. that is why it is quite funny especially for myself. i had all those things i did last time. logically is will be what everyone of us will do to get some form of love and importance. but now you understand, there is no point getting that love and importance too because i got the love and importance from people who need love and importance. so the more love i got, the more hatred i got in the end. more wisdom, the more grief. the more knowledge the more worries and sorrows. all because humans being humans cannot add a lasting effect to change the world. so we must understand & give ourselves a chance. that is all i know because i gave myself a chance & i am playing that chance out now. i can only tell you what happened before i gave myself my chance which is all that i've said. lastly "nothing is better for a man than that he should eat and drink, and that his soul should enjoy good in his labor. This also, I saw, was from the hand of God" I hope you see the irony of life. we get what we want for the satisfaction we get when we get what we want. if life is supposed to me like that than this is a loser's game my friends. we will surely lose. everything came from the Hand of God. Life is a task that He occupied us with. We need to be grateful, we need to know how big He is. There is a time under heaven for everything. Don't be engineers because He is. We should get our resources from Him and live His instructions out. For those of us who doesn't know Jesus. He has placed eternity in our hearts. We all have that lifeline to connect to Him. well we cannot lose this game right? and to win in a loser's game is pathetic. so get revelation... not facts... facts will make sense only after you have revelation. give yourself a chance... know Jesus Christ today. i see you in church this weekend. have a good day ahead.
June 4, 2008 larry the joker Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 11:24 PM argh i am quite very quite tired now. i looked at my post yesterday as if i am a frequent reader of ivan's blog. it was funny i am so stone now i stoned to say i am a frequent reader. which, doesn't make any sense right? yeah so you see how stone i am now. i have DCFC playing on windows media player & it is actually quite nice luh. just that 'Narrow Stairs' is a little bit different from the rest of the albums. every band seem to change their sound from album to album but we can't blame them. i guess musicians stumble upon songs. no one sits down and proclaims, "here... i am going to write a song" i was on my way home i almost miss my stop because i was sleeping. the beep was going & i awoke suddenly and jumped out of the train. yeah candid camera moment. okay i am doing alot of crap on msn. larry showed me his blog which is quite funny. i am going to show the world. HERE he is one funny guy. saturday we will be craBBing together so yeah we'll see how. i had a great day. got to get some things done now. see ya! gdnight & gdbye!
quite a night Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:54 AM i spent morning with mum. for the longest time we haven't had a meal together so we actually went BK & ate. it was a feast. we had chicken tenders? fries, onion rings & our burgers. it was quite crazy. i was filled before i started on my chicken sandwich. in the end i just ate the chicken & left the bread out. i stepped into church and i was thrown off. i saw Benny giving his BF! Envelop and alot of coins. That just shows he really plans and save his pocket money. I AM SO HAPPY AND NO WONDER GARRETT SAID I WAS DIFFERENT TODAY LIKE VERY VERY HAPPY. Yes i am! BENNY!!! GIVING BF!!! WOAH! Later he went for outing!!! OH MY GOSH... our dream for zone f is coming to past! went church for a short while & was did a little bit of sing along with the SOW guitar students. settle some administration & then went play soccer with Pastor How. it was fun! Pastor haven't played for a month & it was great playing with him again. well, the next one 2 weeks time. hail our one touch football. there was only about 10 of us today & we were dying. so we had plenty of time in the end to take penalty shots. oh man... at the cage (: abit dumb but it was really fun. afterwards i went back to church & it was cool singing Elevate getting ready. They did very well for Zone D event today. Dominic preached his heart out & it was so good. i just pray the people catch his heart. it is not something he usually shares if they think it is. so i just pray they really feel privileged. it was anointed, i was behind just eavedropping. deciding when i should walk down the stairs & only did when he progressed on to point 2. well b & c zone will have ours next week & i can't wait for charleston to preach. haven't heard him for the longest time. and i'm quite excited about preaching in zone f service too man. must have enough anointing to minister to 200 if not we will not grow. awww! then all the interesting happenings happened. i had a last minute leaders meeting with b2 because some other outing they were all supposed to go was cancelled. so they met me & it was great. faith & success & we are all on the same page now. just shared with them how much God did for me over the last one week. it was one significant week. i am a different man. just want all the leaders to know how important you are. Pastor Lia has been talking about this alot & it just hit me! "you will play out in your public life what is inside of you" if you see yourself as important, you will play it out. if you don't, you will play it out as well. i just hope you guys in b2 see yourself as important. as well as every single person in b zone especially you who are in discipleship class with me. same for f zone. if you see yourself as insignificant on the team then you really will play it out. that is how then we will relate to you because as a man thinks so he is. we are a team, and team players are all significant & important. i play so much team sports i know! Better get this right in our lives! I was with Pastor Lia for 3 occasions and on each she mentioned the same thing! What does it mean to flow & catch what is on their hearts? THIS! thursday will be exciting because i'll stay home & pray pray pray pray & pray and do whatever i need to do. it will be fun! pure obedience to Pastor!!! i will stay home for 1 day & i will pray & grow. i love my Pastors man. just want sinfei to know that you are amazing. you make me able to run at the speed i want to. today during meeting i just dump so much ideas on the table & got her to prepare all the tangibles for me to piece together! she is amazing. fast, clever, thinking, swift & she always puts me before herself. i am so loved & touched & yeah she says she really wants to help me, so yeah i am just getting her to help me more (: thanks, you are amazing. so reliable, so dependable. remain humble & be a daughter in the house. love Pastors, serve them & take their words from the pulpit very seriously. awesome. i met a girl from b2 & went deep with chew around. met nadine afterwards and made sinfei walk around with me and caught up with her. God i pray both nadine & sinfei does well for exams. crap man. i practiced drums for a while in the studio. got KS to show me here and there & i'm quite ready for test tomorrow. i was practicing and i had some funny interference. not disturbance but interference. it was actually quite cool & funny. i heard the glass panel behind me & someone was just knocking away. i mean, come on if i look what will happen? nothing. if i don't look what will happen? nothing. so? don't look. then this amazing person who was that person who was knocking pop right infront of me! yes right infront of the drums. how teng says hi & we just start talking alittle bit. after around 40 seconds she was out. next thing i knew i received an sms from her & it was quite sweet. wished me all the best for drums test for tomorrow & asked that i teach her once i pass. it was quite funny because it's no DRUMS TEST. i just need to play a song. DRUMS TEST is overstatement but then it's serious so yeah i'm serious :p what am i talking about man? hahaha i thought she was staying over in church man. i left church, rushed for the last train & i saw How Teng alone at the marble seat at the platform. oh my goodness... it will be quite a wild trip home. She is just 14 turning 15 man & she is so cool. everytime i meet her she subtly mentions zone f amid all the crap. we talked & i showed her videos on my phone of how zone f first launched. the videos of dom, me and jian ming playing the wethead & setting up the room for zone f launch 2 years back. how it was good for her. yeah then alot of crap that i cannot type out here because it was ALOT. and she still owes me a POINT. crap man... the cyber How Teng is so much more comprehendable then the real thing. one sweet sms & the next thing i saw her & i wanted to vomit blood. so yeah quite a journey. went to the 7Eleven near my house & bumped into my old friend. he has tattoos all over until up to his neck. abit crazy la. he looks fierce but then he's just one big joker. my mum was talking to him & can you imagine a gangster complaining about PUB bills. how he needs to find an alternative and save on his bills. quite funny man! then i didn't know that MC delivery delivers to void decks. he was sitting around and his MCs came. hahhs! super funny. let's try ordering MCs to the grass field beside yishun street 11 near the temple across 7Eleven beside the basketball court under the tree & i think MCs will deliver it there. MCs is quite amazing. then yeah here i am. just blogging and laughing to everything i did today. just finished reading some funny quotes on TIME. BK with mum - quite a funny experience Soccer - super funny we wanted to one touch all the way to goal then what are dribbles for man! Elevate - i'm am so surprised really Meeting - quite cool and spiritual one then quite funny too Hanging out here and there - caught up with a few people Drums - quite fun and unusual interference Trip Home - with How Teng & it was super funny Gangster friend - but really joker. said i'm a 'sua gu' for not knowing MCs deliver to void decks and weird places. he's an idiot la! pray he gets saved. Crap quotes from TIME magazine - really crap. we have russian politicians angry with makers of Indiana Jones because they had one stupid female KGB agent. alamak... how to change the world like that??? Media shapes people but then chill man. life is quite exciting with ludicrous crap like this you know? i am loving my life. i am a different man. talk more to some of my pals another time. arsenal hasn't made a signing yet. CRAP LA. must wait for euro to end so nasri will sign.. hello! his value will go up please... crap chairmans from madrid and milan will come and hang money on their ears and noses can? but if nasri plays for money then he's crap too la. oh actually i may be wrong. we made 1 signing. a physio or a scout. hmmm arsene really knows how to bring us on a emotional roller coaster ride. well that's it. faith & success pray pray pray envision envision 4th dimension get into the flow people. thank God for helpers (: i appreciate you sinfei thanks & well done. enjoy doing what you need to do. it has been quite a night ain't it? hahhs monkey on the train that was really amusing. how teng had a dream she lost a marathon and she cried like crazy. then the next night she dreamt she came in 3rd but organizers said she won the race then she was shocked. whatever dream that is it is quite funny. now you know why i love the 12 13 14 15 year olds. they are so funny. they are leaders of today not just tomorrow. they are precious & like gems. and i saw nicholas luo today so not that bad! i miss leona already. YAKUZA IS IN PERTH! i miss JORDAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well that one that really touched my heart was seeing Benny giving his BF. (: (: (: young people will be givers. they will they will they will they will! zone f will be a zone of givers. YOU be a giver. If Benny can give, you can give! He sold his cards to give to BF!!! So sweet (: Fabian brought him to church through that card game you know? Now he is selling those cards to build the kingdom of God! i love whatever i do and i love it so much because of little things like this. how can Jesus Christ be not real? well, let's take it as if this whole church thing is a scam. if it really is fake you win, but nevermind man, i see beautiful things like Benny, Jordan... i see budding musicians coming together maturing as a team, i see happy people like how teng. i see their lives change & i understand the sweetness of life by looking at them. come on from everything i've typed. you can see that sweetness & purpose about life. listen! ALL THIS WILL BE even if you say this church thing is fake. so real thing or fake you decide? i'm not drawn into that for now. you can debate while i just be absorbed by the fruits of it. gdnight & gdbye June 3, 2008 yeah that video Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:14 AM i'm sorry. blogger keeps having this error when i upload the video. so instead i put it up on facebook so check it out there. hahhs. goodnight now (: just planned my week & it is going to be fun!
must awaited you & me Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:19 AM LOOK UP MY FACEBOOK & THE PHOTOS ARE ALL THERE! add me as friend or something & it will all be there. search 'Ivan Poh' & you'll see my picture & there it wil be i honestly am having loads of problem trying to upload the photos here. even so in facebook i'm struggling so what crap is this man!!! i can't upload all the photos man so i chose some to tell you a story. pls pardon me... you can approach me & i can give them all to you (: i've just ended a meeting since 7pm with Pastors & some of the other leaders! i am still in church. i haven't plan my week. i don't know what's going to happen. i am super hungry. i am very tired. i am in need of a shower. i just need to get home. tomorrow will be a great day. bringing mum out for shopping. alright man! OH YES! When i get home later i will upload this amazing video (internet speed faster!) about something we did in camp! Check out more soon. I assure you you will laugh like crap. gdnight & gdbye FOR NOW (: June 1, 2008 check out the picture yo Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 10:46 PM i was so wry because i was sick hahhs! jianming was so cool because he resurfaced the secondary school days dom had it all that way all along we are so funny i look like a character in King of Fighters. Jian Ming looks like the real stuff. Dominic looks out of this world! Don't mess with him man i love this team and i love this people.  more of the unglam shots. crap we look animated...
Lyn just walked pass & she says HI everybody! MORE PICTURES FOR CAMP COMING SOON!
for some reasons i can't explain Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:40 AM for some reasons i can't explain, i feel good about what i heard. it is so clear like crystal. i see the blueprint of things and the paradigm shift. this week has been many confirmations for me & there should be no more; i need to start acting! 30th May i said: I prayed,"God increase my tent. Expand it north, south, east & west!" As i prayed this God spoke clearly. "Lengthen the cords that hold down the tent" well this was all before service with Pastor Tan. He spoke the exact same words during the altar call & God just revealed so so much to me. He reminded me, He described it to me. The zone is really going to grow now. The church is going to grow & THE KINGDOM OF GOD WILL GROW. word for word like it has never been for a long time. so God so God. i am intrigued & i am thrilled. I am very excited for Pastors! Schools Nations Generations. We are at part 2 now. It is going to be amazing (: i wonder how our journey of a dream video will be like in 50 years. it's going to be like national day tv man... we had a great secondary schools camp. i left the pictures with wenqian. i'll get it tomorrow and post it on here. talk more about it tomorrow (: it was amazing. loads of fun, very little sleep, plenty of food, ridiculous amount of laughter & quite a number of sleepy sick heads now :p had a great zone f service today. had a great service with Pastor Lia! It was amazing... so many thoughts about it, this way, that way & every way. we'll put them all down again on monday. i am so stoning out and tired. i am going to sleep. Elgin still can watch tennis. I see no point in that. He just switched the channel and i see SOCCER. Portugal v.s. Georgia LIVE. there is energy now... really... you should see me now! I had a great few days that just passed me by. I have more great days ahead in my life and i'm counting down one by one. Living for God's Cause. God's cause. My Pastor's cause. Their cause. My cause & my everything. gdnight & gdbye
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