In the Bedroom after the War
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April 30, 2008
all english/rocking may/bored of skin Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:06 PM alright now... we are going to have an all english champions league final. that i dislike! awww.. barcelona should have been in there. they were petrifying with lionel messi and deco. but crap they just couldn't find a goal. i think they should just buy a out & out center forward. luca toni anyone? huntelaar? i guess new age prevail pretty much nowadays. those who stick to their philosophies missed out huge. but yet again it takes alot to stick to your philosophies. a unimportant thing i realized is that some clubs are quite stubborn. they stick to their style of play pretty much the entire time and i like it. jm was reading something that was sweet that sums up everything i've said. a vision can change but a cause cannot change. as a matter of fact, there is no vision without a cause. vision changes overtime, we would realize in our lives but the cause is still the same. if you lose your vision, well, it's still okay... just keep going on because you will get a fresh one as long as you keep to the cause. tired people frizzle out on they road to their vision. weakness causes you to lose the plot entire. so speaking about football (:p) beautiful football is a cause. winning trophies are a vision. yeah you are quite right in thinking what you're thinking now. if without trophies then why play football? but i think, if it's because of trophies you play football then you will not win trohphies in the long run. many people talk abou the love for the game and the adoration of the beautiful game; no long balls, no player destruction and anti-football. AHA! well for our christianity it's quite the same. vision come and go... but then they are really important because they take us on a progressing rout. but what's more important is the cause. without knowing, living the cause of Jesus Christ. having the revelation of that, all vision will be but an ambition. it will be shortlived. people go because they have no deep conviction of the cause of Jesus Christ. sometimes vision will stale, die and tarry. then only the cause keeps us going on. if we are in it too business then we will not understand the spiritual principle. well if you do, then awesome and a big smile to you. i'm devoted to the gospel and cause of Jesus Christ. i pray you are too (: Red Rain is coming up and we are going to have so much fun. it is going to be a different version of redrain concert you'll see for sometime now. :p well i was reading blogs and i'm quite stirred up by many people. just amazed and pleased that they are so amazing and pleasing now! muahaha difference... there's a huge load of difference... and like i've said... the difference last only when the cause is in place. so we'll see in 5, 10 years time (: i'm bored of my skin and i'm gonna put up some red rain thing up here!!! hahahahaha red rain fan club! muahaha.... too cool. if you haven't signed up... what are you waiting for? you don't know what's installed for you. :p we play the 'i hide a certain truth from you' game. awww well.. i'm kinda sad barcelona lost to manchester united. tonight, novotel, overlooking clarke quay and the city i will be with jordan, nicholas, jian ming, dominic just watching liverpool v.s. chelsea in our little room. and glory, i hope whoever you want to see win wins. i can't engage this 2. i'm sorry. arsenal & barcelona come on now. we're trailing far behind. alright i have to go pray and be in town at 330am. cause of vision? that's quite up to you April 29, 2008 minority (pun) report Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:30 AM there is always a reason for us to thank God. yesterday i thanked God for something and today i just did again. Ahaha... later i'll be again. Ernest & Sean, you should thank God too you know. Muahah more seriously now, nadine will never find out what we were talking about until maybe when i die. she will not know! no way (: after a long weekend sean came over to my place for a stayover. we prayed and prayed and time flew pass quite quickly. when you are gearing up to pray, you always not know what to pray about and even if you do, you think you don't really have much to do. man, then when you pray, a 1001 things the holy spirit brings to your mind. so yeah, we kept praying because of that. after that we had supper that we didn't finish up and then we decided we should watch Mr & Mrs Smith. it's a good show. monday, today.... we went for sushi buffet at Cathay. Nadine reached the earliest and she was quite sad that we weren't there. Chew says she will reach at 2pm to start eating! but i saw her on the train at 245pm. muahaha... they 2 are quite funny. ernest joined us and before we even started the buffet, he had 4 plates of sushi on his table. that is so uncool... we need to start grand. you messed it up! crap nadine doesn't seem to enjoy food in general. oh no... she enjoys junk food alot i think. she enjoys your mee, your mixed rice. once a while, like today we were at the buffet. the rest of b2 tried sashimi and me and ernest just wiped every other slice up. nadine refused to and just plainly not want to take one slice. i had to motivate and inspire her... this was how i did it, "nadine... a leader leads". almost straight away without even looking back at me, she picked up one slice. wait... we got the camera on and she downed one. i ain't satisfied for good. sashimi is so good come on take more. so i said,"i'm zs because i eat lots of sashimi... if you want to be cgl, you must take another". WOWOWOWO and she did in similiar fashion. she really does want to be cgl ah! in our 2.0 training, i should ask Charleston and Dominic to put in one of the criterias of being a cgl as liking sashimi. hey, after all Pastor How loves sashimi! when i order food, they come in large portions. when nadine orders food, it comes a stick at a time. i said 4 she said 4. came 4 plates and came 4 sticks in a plate. muahahahaha! she doesn't wanna eat sashimi, nor straw mushroom nor whatever until you convince her to. but yeah, that was our adventure today. even haoyue and jiawen ate more sashimi than nadine. argh... but nadine 1 China Members 1 because she ate more chicken wings than all of us. well done... great job... tsktsk after that... hmmm.... we said by that fountain and played the psp. we kept resetting the game because we kept drawing the team or losing. so we tried again and again. when we didn't notice, nadine took a picture of us... and say,"look like ah beng sia". then me,"never die before, call me ah beng!". and you know what happened next? it dearly saddens me. i'm so sad... she pointed her finger at my half chinese and whatsoever friend Ernest. i guess Ernest, it's quite unfair. your own went against you. aww my gosh. that was quite my day. i just watched america's dirtiest job with mike something. apparently it is his day off and his bosses took over his responsibilities. hahhs that's quite cool. tomorrow pass midnight man utd v.s. barcelona. 24 hours later liverpool v.s. chelsea at novotel! awesome... this is fun! i had a great day with amazing people. and i am in love. i'm so distracted i cannot go on. i need not anything but her.... my yahama electronic drums... that buffet was so good. that drum was good too. give a drum get a drum. that is so God. April 27, 2008 saviour of the world today, got on a tree just to set me free Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:08 PM some sort of direction comes after you get into His presence and just dwell there where you are for a little while. time still spins off and people's voices still ring in your mind. that bug and you are straight right, that bug in your heart and mind. it's been quite of an exhibition going on and doing things, cheering after success and embarking on yet another but then sooner or later or NOW it becomes some sort of a game that we all play. we're here all ready and with a bag of coins read to insert and hit the start button to continue the game each time we 'die'. soon enough those bag of coins run out and we lament why no one comes and top it up. then at that point, i thought i was fooled. yeah what you do starts becoming an exhibit. it was suppose to be in the first place. i guess pretty much now that it's all about exhibiting the art pieces right and well. so now, we must learn the art of surrendering. we can only that brilliant, driven, motivated, inspirational, captivating. and as i read some stuff, it just pretty much confirms all that i think. yeah you can take you somewhere and to very well to emptiness too. i get my direction, i get my scope and i know exactly what to do. And that has all to do with the Holy Spirit and connection with God. let's have the best exhibition so that God will be glorified. we do what we do for one sow purpose that is to glorify God. We change and He gets it. We go 2.0 and He gets it. Hahhs, yeah it's just Him (: Next, this is quite interesting: "Being responsible is something a lot of people don't seem to know much about. Too many people feel they are somehow entitled to have the right and privilege of success without doing anything. But we cannot obtain anything in life apart from our obedience to God. Being responsible means being intentional, and that means being active in what you're passionate about. Jesus encouraged people to stay active in things that would prepare them for their future. Being active in studying God's Word will help us to become more responsible. We cannot do what is right if we do not know what is right. If you have been doing nothing much to help yourself or other people, then get up and get going because the longer you do nothing the less you will want to do." - Joyce Meyer Amazing (: We know what to do now and we know it so well. April 25, 2008 echoing sentiments Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 4:28 PM i echo the same sentiments as what one guys said about nerdisin. in actual, it is nerd-is-in. he says that while people all look to be cool, he wants to portray a nerdy exterior. and my goodness what a thing to do... we are a little bit weird ain't it? and i just heard some people talking about brain and heart and God programming them and whatsoever. "yeah", i thought. "what a good argument!". we all should know the way it all works out but it was rather funny because i ain't think that person really wanted an answer. so argument for grabs & arguments for love. alright to more brilliant enthusiasm... i guess we are pretty much set now (: yesterday we had a worship session that was great. alright, i was comtemplating my stand and my approach to go for it or to leave it lovely, loving, love love. i think after too much lovely, loving, love love people get too emotional. yeah we do you know. when we are down sometimes, worship God, Yes! But we should Praise God, Pray and Go Against the feelings. So praise tears down lament and scrap off everything weak and crappy about us. it exalts God, attention goes to God and we put Him in the correct place. worship too should be like that (: so i guess we have to do the opposite of what we feel sometimes. alright now, we had this amazing meeting with dominic and there is 1001 things i have in my mind. i'll wait until monday to revisit them and plan and i'm so excited about that. f2 has so much to go through and we will surely touch a 100 soon... and i pray in june or july. then that will be all amazing and cool. a cg of 100. quite cool huh! and the key leaders in b zone had one great meeting too. there are just too many thoughts to content! we got some sort of direction from that meeting and i'm going to iron all that out on monday again... tomorrow at 10am and sunday at 10am it is so going to be good again. i cannot wait to meet f2 and b2 leaders. i have so much to tell them and so much to cover. it is going to be amazing. then after service, apart from meeting the cg i'm looking forward to talk to 4 other people. THERE IS A MILLION THINGS TO DO. AND THERE IS ONLY SO MUCH TIME. It is going to feel good after we finish all of that. as a matter of fact, we all are pretty much moving forward fast and furious. there are so many things on my mind i cannot entertain all the above first. monday i'll do all that then go find the people at cathay. it is going to be sweet. i thought coming home early today could get me some rest :p i reached home like 9plus and i haven't stopped working since! but i just did yeah. muahahaha it feels good doing all i do. i love it and i love it. today we had staff review meeting... now i know what world class is world class and how to get there. Pastors are so amazing. They really are and i always find myself in awe of them, what they thought of doing, to do and had done. it is amazing... i wouldn't have all this opportunity to serve God if not because of them. life is quite cool ain't it. that your destiny crosses your friends and theirs to yours? i cannot imagine a purposeless, less busy and crazy life. it will be so boring. semper fi now and today's srm is just so revelational. it was sweeettt. i am in love with what i do and so in love with it we're one thing. thank God i'm not going army in june or july. i have so much to do and this so many exciting thoughts in your mind thing is just so amazing. Pledge Day coming up soon! Red Rain!!! Look out for service tomorrow! We have something cool for you. yeah i sound like a kid but well... i'm just excited so pardon me won't you :) and i love you guys and definitely more than all this that i do. awww my gosh... this is Special K you can take away everything... but you cannot take away my time with God. crap i think i love Jesus. hahahahahahahahahahahaha yeah of course i do. April 21, 2008 all that i have... left Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:38 AM you see it's not very usual that i dream or fall into deep deep thought when i sleep and wake up remembering everything quite vividly. i want you to know that what i saw isn't something i really wanted to see but then i dreamt it and it was afterall quite funny, at least for me. few nights back, i had a great dream. i dreamt that i got into some kind of controversy with the press and people all over the world. by what nature could this ever be??? if you know i'm a diehard arsenal fc fan but the freaky thing was that i dreamt that though i was openly an arsenal fan, i took over from alex ferguson at the helm at old trafford. i became manager of man utd!!! i tell you, it must have been because of all my man utd friends torment and torture. i am really going mad. though i was openly an arsenal supported, i remember that the glazers still welcomed me to the club. i was in my 30s. 32 if i'm not wrong... and why so sure? i remember that my captain gary neville refuse to listen to me because i'm 3 years younger than him. so we got into a roll. i remembered during my first year i bought 2 players to the club. Franck Ribery & Sergio Aguero. i don't know why this 2... maybe man utd should really buy them and see where they progress to as a club. so that was it, i was complaining to my partner about gary neville and then i don't remember a single thing already. more crap coming up, euro 2008 soon and maybe i'll be manager of the portugese team? who knows you know... earlier this morning, we were down at chc for services with mrs cho. there was no one at the train station when i was there. i should have told the guy to drop us off at hall 8! so we walked there and i don't see one familiar face. then i got into the premise and i met d1. they were there since 8am and you know that is amazing. i just woke up at 8am and managed to hit there on time at 9am. well, it was quite cool being there with them. i had a surprise from ruoen who got me donuts. it was cool and unexpected. and yeah a few days ago i was just wondering how she and the other people in c3 are doing. i use to lead them and that was fun... i'll catch up soon. my malay friend arrived at chc like a queen in a chariot. she did park her chariot somewhere then walked in as if she owned the world. but that was sweet... really funny and i never had a malay friend like that before. fifi iskandar is quite funny and she reads chinese better than a chinese like me. today we celebrated Pastor Lia's birthday and it was AE---- MAY----SYNC----! we were so funny Pastor was laughing like crazy and it was a total joy seeing her smile on her face. alamak! i should have injured myself on another occasion, i was already doing my parts until i got into trouble and can't continue!!! but nonetheless... hehehe you don't know what we're up to. today was beautiful. then Pastor led us in worship and she shared with us what was lingering in her heart for some time now and that was amazing. matt redman & chris o brien - Pastor Lia's favourite worship leaders... so we did matt redman sensational right there in hoGc. never had that presence of God like the way we did for a long time. that was so henderson industrial park. that was what we lived on weekly. that sweetness, you know today was pure sweet tangible presence of God. you could swallow that presence with your gut. you could feel it hovering amidst your chest, face and palms. it was beautiful... and i miss that right now... my eyes are closing on me now. i could be stucked here for a trillion years. just spoke with dom and charleston and garrett. all 3 in 1 night. it can't be so coincidental. hahhs but it's sweet. all that i wanted just reappeared while i spoke with them... now it kind of sped away already but i know where and how and when... so that's no problem. i have some quite amazing friends in the 3 of them plus some quite amusing friends in another 3 that stayed at my house yesterday/weekly. well, both sets are amazing and amusing. i just watched man city play the crap out of portsmouth. tomorrow i'll rest in God... i'll read a new book i'll see some ppl at amk hub and i'll meet charleston at 8pm. that's very much what i felt like saying tonight. someone told me tonight that the outer was never quite the inner and it was quite interesting as i entertained that same thought before. this is the only time there should be a discrepancy. weakness on the inside turned around to be strength on the outer. crap character and value system gets changed and turned around to success on the outside. hahhs, we were never really quite who we are today. the good and bad thing is that we were once that wrecked kid and therefore will always be a wrecked kid in essence. but the more we were that way, the more we were not what that way portrays. that is also amazing. i suddenly remember an amazing person i just met on saturday who is leaving for canada for her studies tomorrow. she is amazing and i'm so blessed to meet her, get to know her name and the first thing she did that i heard about blew me away. she is amazing. we'll see her in december back in Singapore. i think she's gone real soon. i feel i need to fall dead on my bed right now. yeah, that's really all that i have left on a sunday night. April 20, 2008 clown wars Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:05 AM what's that? that's clown wars... a term i came up with since i cannot coin a word for the amusement i get doing some of the things i do at night. i don't know... i have not certain answer even face to face, just that it's hilarious and i cannot stop laughing as i type this. people are amazing... hahhs i'm as crazy as a clown tonight 3plus am now i suppose it is. but i can't sleep... sean and ernest is hardly seen in the dark. i don't know what they're doing... i feel intimidated because i see pearl white looking at my direction. i'll see what they're doing later. sean just told us a in-camp joke that is hilarious. that is truly funny. oh and lixing is quite funny too. lixing stucked in camp is like a kid stuck in cot. hahhs. we just smsed him telling him how funny he is. he smses us all the time i hardly even think he has army. maybe his sergeant is blind. hahhs!!! at this time, he still replies sms. my goodness... our country is properly defended. a few of us are enlisting soon and i doubt it adds any more security to the units. instead we'll jeopardize everyone's safety 2.0 hahhs... i have a sean here that can play trance music in camp and have the whole bunk dance to it. hahhs... what else can't we soon-to-enlist army men do? army men get quite out of this world sometimes. i want to be different. God i pray hard i will. hahahahahahahahaha... i just have to jab lixing here. we're watching soccer now and west ham united are sponsored by XL. i don't know what's so funny but then we can't stop laughing too. What in the world is XL??? somebody tell us man... contain our crap. ernest tried many clothes tonight. he obviously won't find what he wants from my wardrobe. for goodness sake i'll never be like that (: so bro, bad try... try somebody else's while now, we're all keeping ourselves entertained by waiting for lixing next sms and laughing away. we love lixing now, he's a poor guy in camp. be proud of you impact on us boy and certainly you're quite out of this world with the things you say. i cannot bring them home, i just can't bro... you are super funny and barney. you're one purple dinosaur. pierrot the clown. pierrot all of us now. well, that's very much what clown wars is all about. we'll stay tune for more junk alright? okay go have some concrete activity now. April 17, 2008 now... you're more than special. you're quite amusing Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:15 AM back in my bedroom staring at a neat empty bed a stone's throw away from me. i just got back not long ago from a meeting with charleston and dominic. it was fun and it was crazy. we ate tarts and cakes until we got sick of them. i do really hate cakes, brownies and whatever sort that has to do with that now. i chalks up my mouth with something so thick, dry and chocolatey that it stresses me. all i'd prefer sometimes are fruits, soups or noodles. but yeah whatever for now, i ate them already. we didn't have much variety at that time of the night. but yeah.... i don't like cakes and i hate brownies. i stared at the food mum bought home for me when i walked passed the diner's. i'm not anything like ready to fill my stomach but i want to because of the lasting cakey, brownie feeling on my taste buds. i dislike it and whoever made them, i pray for you. meeting was really quite amazing. plus amusing altogether. i haven't stopped meeting people since 5pm and that feeling actually feels good. i get to end the day with satisfaction, my ankle get to conclude one in worry and burden. but good luck to you, you're a sore spot that irritates and frustrates me. you consume too much of my attention and you ain't helping me a single bit. but i love you ankle, because of a perfect you, i had done many things. once you're back close to perfection, i will ride horses on the skies above and scream 'thank you, thank you my love'. anyway i was thinking and was really sleepy thinking. sometimes speed is the hardest thing we can all achieve. we live in a world so inclined to speed and that's all good just that we get a little impatient sometimes. in our christianity, in our personal lives, in our injuries :p, in our everything. you want speedy and you want speedy now. sometimes with speed you get alot more options. but sometimes with grind you get alot more quality. i learnt from a dislocated ankle. but it's really true. hoGc 2.0! So many trainings, processes and blah blah blah to put in place. i'm so excited and also challenged when i look at whatever we crafted just now. we have to go through the grind of the daily and the grind of tightness, supervision, hands-on and just there with everyone. in that way, we make sure it's just the way we imagined it to be in our minds then slowly the quality will stay. Steve Jobs is involved in everything to do with the cash cow Ipod to the designing of your glass spiral staircase @ silicon valley. He is so macro and micro. Well so are alot of christian leaders. Just that they're less 'whatever you coin' as Steve Jobs. Steve Jobs is awesome and i conclude that just by reading one article. He's really awesome. He's changing the world like we are not changing the world. He plays with the material world, we play with everything possibly tangible because we do the intangibles. I was quite shocked he actually challenged a guy to work for him - "i heard you're good at your work, but so far what you did is crap... come work for me and change the world" He interviews Apple staff on his own last time, at least the first 500. He is crazy... He says if the person would fall in love with Apple, then He/She is the right candidate to work for him. Lots of controversy because of his off tangent ideas but that's all cool. Too much is said about him and his mysterious ways. But yeah, all i know that this guy is the ceo of the most admired company in the world because he goes through the grind. the quality reaps later. we'll do that just right. hoGc 2.0 A Worldclass Church for a First World Nation. First Class Leaders. First Class Christians. it's quite fun to know... April 14, 2008 once upon a time i was king of the earth Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:53 AM once upon a time i was king of the earth when my team won game after game. however, those days are gone and i do think we need to get some things into place. we were like over zealous boys running and catching our own tails. we missed the plot together and it was lucky we got a controversial goal. it was clearly, even to me, a hand ball. justice after liverpool match? nah, still bad decision from referee. we were over zealous. we need some old heads to pull the passion and drive together into productivity and precision. we're obviously not doing that with gallas, an overgrown kid as our captain. but then, i still share my love and adoration for arsenal. born and bred and never quite intending to switch sides. barca and arsenal are doing so badly, a fan would feel intrigued by every thing and any thing the club does. alright now, soccer aside and i'd better stop talking so much about soccer because it's booming too much as a subject. but it is fun to have met more and know people more through this soccer 'you will win me and i will win you' thing. you only get that in hoGc friendly and funny not anywhere else. it was fun and i enjoyed it. smsing each other and teasing each other. that's what family is all about and then after that, we retreat to our holes and do our job. what a week it has been! it's been amazing because there wasn't many pit-stops, it was just action after another and we're moving on really quickly and only just that it all slowed down for a while, i get to come here to type an entry, watch a match and make myself sad for a moment and switch back the perspective. there is so many things to do and i so enjoy that pestering checklist. tomorrow it is going to be clean. and i have one thing that hit me so hard that it disturbed me up till right now. i've seen so many cut one another apart with dialouge and it is amusing and disturbing. i don't know, today i saw it all and felt it all and i just had to point my finger at it and confront it. and it was all down to trust. when that's in, another's out. when another's out, trust's in. so i think we pretty much have to decide what we pretty much have to decide. change is decision but discipline is the decision to make change the decision. yeah whatever now, it's all good and it will stay that way. tomorrow is monday and it will be day home with God. it is going to be good. i'll see what i'l do with that tomorrow. building fund is up and pledge day is here. i need to sit down and plan my finances. it is going to be so good and i cannot wait giving to God this year. like what Charleston shared, just feeling the same with him now. the youth church will break through when we breakthrough in our individual lives in the area of giving. there can be no simpler than that. we cannot be a youth church of 1000 without that pillar in place. it's a new ball game, we need to hold things up. anything 1000 has to have some quality. look G1 grew so much because their tithing rate is 100%! Everyone is strong. and there has been so many good news, miracles and supernatural prayer answering nowadays. you could just sense God moving in our midst. it seems like you should pray and wait for something to happen. a few people did and it has been all so God. people ask themselves to church nowadays and i have so much details only telling face to face is right and amazing! so what now for many of us? catch the wave and go with the momentum. building fund - building dreams. just sit down and be amazed by what building dreams is all about. we're all going to build the dreams of the next generation. there is nothing more we could do as the first batch. heart of God church is everything we've had for the last part of our youth. it is our everything. Pastor's sacrifice have captivated us. and now, we're very much the same, going and not stopping because we're captivated. we will only keep going until we break through. we will have a building on our own next time. so many times we talk about it and dream about it when we were 13 14 and lying all over the auditorium in henderson. Pastor's sacrifice will not come to waste because we will continue the sacrifice. The past generation's sacrifice only live as long as the ability for the following generation to continue sacrificing. it will not come to waste. we will build dreams together. this is my home. on day we will say with implication "this is my home!" a building to build dreams April 11, 2008 pretty amazed Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 7:53 PM i read proverbs 5 and i took that and shared with f2 key regulars during discipleship class. it was clean, simple, sweet and to the point and i know that this is the beginning of greatness for many of us. as i read proverbs 5 i remember what Mark DeMoss said, founder of The DeMoss Group; a consultation agency if i'm not wrong, i can't remember it now. But yeah he spoke about wisdom in the 'little red book of wisdom' and that he reads a proverb a day and meditates on it for that entire day. so one proverb a day, everyday. that he says is the way he acquires wisdom for his daily life and it's interesting to know and experience when you actually do that. increase in wisdom; is what we aim for and as i read proverbs and revisiting 'little red book of wisdom' in my mind, i see it all and it's pretty amazing. my week has been so fulfilling and really the joy of the Lord is my strength. the bible is never wrong, it's the word of God the only way of living. see i've been optimizing my living and increasing productivity and i absolutely love it. i like the fast pace life and i've pretty identified what keeps me happy. i really so think that joy will bring your strength. people achieve and get more results being happy in their core. jamie tells me so much about nadine and hahhs... i don't know what to say. it is just all good now. charleston called just now too and yes it's all good too. okay now, been doing so much and i missed doing those things for charleston suddenly. been growing the zone, doing the big things people may say. but it's never quite as enjoyable as doing one little thing to make the man of God's life easier. i'm so happy that way i am now and everyone too. this feels everytime like 'heaven'. sweettt alright off to do my stuff now and happy 11th April. and yeah God, You kinda took over and it's all pretty. April 10, 2008 AUGUST AUGUST AUGUST Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:53 AM just a shout out - if you have not watched August Rush yet, come on be cool and watch it. i watched it 3 times already in the course of 2 days and yeah at night when everyone sleeps. it is such a good show, you shouldn't miss it. alright now... sweetheart tell me what's wrong??? liverpool won arsenal! yes my sweetheart liverpool fans! tsk... tsk... calvin smsed me - hey bro, good match. ks - my condolences i didn't reply any of them. i'm sorry... i was too sad so how now? arsenal lost... ah crap! April 8, 2008 RUN as if you have a choice Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 10:40 PM i just got home not long ago and i realized the white shirt i was wearing got stained without my knowledge. apparently, there is no reason why it would be stained because i ain't did no sports after that or run around! i just drank my bottle of blue sprite ice and i did tell the shop owner that she is beautiful upon payment. she's some aunty in her 40s or 50s and i saw that smile come across her face as i walk out of the shop. sweet! today's soccer is one of the most exciting sessions we ever had. now we really got it up and running. we wearing kicking the ball and not the ball kicking us. it went wherever we wanted it to go. alot of goals and alot of style. muahaha. Pastor How, Me and Jiayang were in the same team with our Barcelona jerseys and i was really sweet being together. Pastor How scored loads today and all the defenders can go home wondering what they did wrong. All Hail Pastor How... when you have the anointing, what can't you do right? hahhs alright and suddenly it dawned upon me just now that tonight's ARSENAL v.s. LIVERPOOL 2nd Leg Champions League. Ernest is bathing now, Lixing is arriving soon and we will all catch the match together @ 230am. I anticipate ppl to sms me again and again and again at match intervals to provoke me! no, kidding they don't... they just say Liverpool's going to win. hahhs! what fun we have ain't it? okay now, i guess we're all up to many stuff recently. busy schedules is norm, meltdowns and shortbreaks is norm but never cracking under the pressure. i was in office today settling stuff for Redrain and gosh, everyone else have many other things to do other than Redrain. yeah and me too... a moment later i was doing cg stuff, zone stuff, looking through tithing, looking through whatever, ya, replying my emails and looking through all the workplans of people. feels good huh being 20, young and tender and doing so much. Sometimes you feel like a pro in what you do. You feel busy and you feel good... like the childhood times where you hope you carried a briefcase around, wore a suit to work daily! hahhs... it's quite going to come to past. okay i just got back from doing something i was supposed to do. i realized i always blog halfway and then get going with other things and then come back and do this thing over and over again. there is a pasa malam near home and i so long to be there but somehow i can't. i just can't... i'm so deprived because i want to be deprived. i'm too lazy to walk that big round home so yeah, we'll give it a skip. However! if i feel my soul tugging i may give it a shot. and i realized why i'm so tired. i was having a short short dance with Ee Loo and Zachary and Ee Loo said i can dance! SURE OR NOT! Jamie was there too and we were all taking private lessons. Not bad huh, we learnt 2 steps today. anyway we all watched august rush yesterday. alot of people came over and we cramped up in my small room for viewership. after they left, i watched it one more time and now, lixing just beside me, placed the cd into the player and we're on for one more round. okay next monday we're going cathay for sushi buffet and it will be SO FUN. lastly, before i left church just now, i was talking to jamie. it was a really long long long talk. she followed me where we were up to where my bag was, down to the same location, out the church, down the lift and out the white gate, down to KFC and even up to the traffic light. i must tell you, side track, she really is very observant. that i'm quite amazed about. we were just talking about people and how people are people and what people will do what people will do and even what people will not do! we talk about pressure and people handling pressure and helping them and making them handle pressure. hmmm... i think it is inside of us. not borned with it but we can acquire that and put it inside us. i don't know, i think it's the person, it is you and me. how much we treasure our destiny. i see some people and they are tough with themselves, because they like many of us know that they shouldn't be fooling around with their destiny. see, i won't be cracking under pressure, feeling stressed up or giving up because i cannot afford to (: this is my destiny and i'm not giving up because of one hurdle! to myself a heart of steel! and when we do that, we become like angels (: we start walking into our destiny... we do what is takes to move forward, we read the Word, we change, we do adjustments to our lives so we grow. there is a way and i so believe there is. we have role models all around us and we've got to learn from them! hahhs so whatever you are up to now. grit your teeth! gird your loins! run and keeping running don't give up on me now! we've just got to live a great life. we have to craft it out with the influence in our lives. we should all do it. hahhs April 7, 2008 the solitary dance Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:36 PM it is monday 240pm and i've just embarked on whatever work i need to do before the people comes over later at 430pm. there is not alot to finish so it's okay and i had some time browsing through blogs and reading up about everyone of you guys out there and i feel so excited for all of you! So excited for you guys who are studying, those who are working, those who are victorious and high up there, those who are ever persistent and running their race, it was a whole lot and wide variety of people, confusing but nonetheless sweet... and oh, there are so many people blogging nowadays! i haven't been on msn for a long time and 2 days back when i got on just for the sake of getting on to break the routine, oh yeah, i did just signed out after that, i saw all the links of people's blogs on msn! That is so amazing and exciting and i hope i'll be able to link everyone soon. Yeah somehow, not now i'll get all those links... and if you would help me type your link down, it's going to help me loads! so thanks and im going to keep reading about you because it's just a click away. Muahhs. last week was a relatively long week but this week is cooler. I look at my slip of paper and i tremble! KIDDING. It is going to be so fun this week and we're going to get many more things done. yesterday night i packed my room a little bit, wiped the table tops and arranged stuff - something that i had no time to do. Yesterday night, i entered my room and a sudden energy came to me. I just had to get things into place. There's still some stuff out of the way but we'll get that sorted out really soon. Pastor Kevin Loo's message was amazing. I missed sunday being in zone f but nevermind, sinfei is getting every sermon preached in the church for me up till date this year. Financial Management Pie - that is interesting! I never knew how to run my finances. Saved but never quite know how much was the norm thus making you feel insecure alittle bit! hahhs You know that feeling luh. But now i know and i'm doing it already so that's going to be cool. argh no zone f service for 1 month... how miserable oh my soul. how can i live 1 week without that? hahhs well, we've something tons better in the form of building fund, AI conference, Pledge Day. all that will be tremendously important to me. afterwhich the zone f people will have their own service in the main auditorium! and then Red Rain and we're going to fill zone f service up with that. hahhs how i feel privileged all the time being where i am and doing what i do. i'll not say it's demanding but it's stretching. look, you serve a God that holds the universe in His palms. will His plans not stretch you? They surely will. when you're stretched, that just shows that you're normal and progressing. that's why you have the Holy Spirit because we will never be up to it. We're speaking at 2 wavelengths here. God and Ours. you see the difference? and we need to so much depend on the Holy Spirit in whatever we do. the holy spirit is the one that bridges our abilities to God's ultimate potential and destiny for us. that is so amazing. slowly we are stretched, pulled apart and moving towards our destiny. alright... i'm playing some song again and again and my playlist keeps switching back to another boring boring song. mondays! i feel like dancing. let me go and do my quiet time. God, here i come like what Dominic said, "you can remove everything from my life but nothing can take away the time i have with my God". alright, start now they're coming soon. i'll be reading all your blogs again soon. rock on, sweat and be very sweaty. awwww my goodnes.. have some good time ahed and i hope to link many of you guys up gdbye for now April 5, 2008 just about asleep then i thought... Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:02 AM i've just finished whatever i need to settle for dominic and i honestly feel very excited about it we'll wait and see how things go from here... we will see luh alright today was a great day for me. i ain't feeling too well so i slept in a little woke up rested and got into shape, after that i went to causeway point for follow up. follow up was as usual very very very good! it is so encouraging to see someone change and grow under your mentorship. it was satisfying and i cannot enough express my joy about this. i just pray those 2 with me saw how significant it was. then i dropped by B1's basketball outing and we had loads of fun! they are seriously quite funny xinchi really really super funny. okay after that i rushed home for a shower and quickly left for chomp chomp. woot... chomp chomp was superb. the food was superb. we dumb all our money on the table and we went ordering the value's worth. we were food already and there was still 5 dollars left. hahhs! we decided we should take a walk and grab some ice cream so we went to haato. the ice cream there is seriously nice... just pleasing to the taste buds. alright then i got dad to fetch me and i was tired and bloated from all that food moreover, krisnan and andrew were super funny with such a combination for supper you hardly want to do anything else afterwards it has been quite a busy week. never too busy nevertheless... next week is going to be tighter and more fun. 5 or 6 cgs to preach in. follow ups to do. supervision to ensure. pastoral stuff to monitor. outings to personally run. meetings to hold and meetings to go. so it's quite fun. i remember last time how i will feel so stress at the prospect of these things. but now.... nah too fun... this is my life. speaking about life... i had a good talk with samantha and being a english lit student she summarized what i shared with her in that 45mins very very well! i think many of us hungry for God. we will chase ourselves to read our bible, pray, read books, etc. so much so that now this isn't a problem. everyone who is in heart of God church to a certain extent has hunger for God. we are a church that hungers for God so much more than many other people. to us hunger is norm to others it's a rarity. we look to progress all the time and we look to grow all the time. nothing stops us from wanting more of God. so that's not the point. well the point and cutting edge and differentiating factor is whether we are hungry for life. we will reach a point we will have a insatiable hunger for God but find ourselves stuck at a point still. that is when we need to hunger for life. the things about life. not secular living, carousing. but exploring and knowing God's creation a little bit more. what is the difference between eccentric people and albert einstein? he too is very eccentric. just that he had a good shot that life because he tried and he tried and he tried and he got some product at the end. that made him different from the rest of the eccentric people. that's when he became more significant in people's eyes, more established, more respectable. whatever you call that. i think we all need to keep trying and attacking life like what Pastor How said. we just have to keep giving our shots in life. not once but keep giving it. it's like soccer, you attack until there's an opening and you score. you keep trying, you keep acquiring and you keep replicating what you've acquired for yourself. sometimes we may feel we're in a limbo, direction-revert, going the wrong way, going back to the old way or not moving anywhere... that is normal well at least for normal human beings like all of us. so what do we do? we attack... we keep on moving on... we need to move on when we feel most like we need not move on. so hunger for God isn't a problem. what will take us further? hunger for life... Pastors are Pastor because they are hungry for life. they try, they experience, they learn, they discern, they go through stuff. they acquire principles, they keep acquire they become a powerful buzz. i want to be like that. progressive... always moving forward. got to keep reading, got to keep finding out, got to keep doing what i need to do so that i acquire and i acquire much. we shouldn't think that we've all arrived sometimes. yeah, it's normal because we all always have the hunger for God. We have good Pastors who always stir up our hunger. it never fails... but sometimes unknowingly we think that is it. after 1 to 2 years in church, church because overly mundane. well, that's our time, that's our show. whether or not we write a good script, play a good cast or we mess up is up to us. this is the crucial time where we need to be alot more hungry for life. i want to be hungry for life. i'm hungry for God! well God is Life. and i will be hungry for life. His creations.... the tangible and intangible. and when i acquire i will be strong (: with a good godly core and whatever we acquire and learn, we will revolutionize dry secular topics and make them spiritual yet pragmatic. i hunger for life. April 3, 2008 awww... post april fool's day Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:14 AM i guess i missed out loads on april fool's day. i heard many people playing pranks on each other. i was working and brainstorming my brains out for some stuff. i had tried reminding myself to participate in mayhem but then i didn't even catch Man Utd vs Roma and i fell asleep quite nicely on my bed. awww... i've to wait until next year but looking on the bright side, i have 1 year to think of an ultimate prank. it will be so cool. okay as a matter of fact, ceo just checked in and checked out this morning. we were supposed to be watching soccer but half hour before the game our bodies gave up on us. it wasn't me... honestly. if i'd watched, there would be more roma spirit and i think man utd would have lost. hahhhs... man utd fans will meet me in church and kill me again... haiyar. okay i don't care now, i'm staying up for ARSENAL v.s. liverpool. Alonso says it's his showdown with Fabregas??? What showdown? His meltdown la. You are not even in the spanish first team, you got the cheek to face off with a first team spanish regular??? Keegan cannot la! Liverpool really talk to too much eh! Benitez also! Promise this promise that! tsk tsk But then, Adebayor also talk too much. Logically, i think Arsenal will not win the league and he'll have to eat his hat and quit soccer. He said that... alamak.... adebayor, that was one unprofessional comment to the press. monday i caught the empress and a warrior. it is actually quite alright but just a little bit senseless. august rush is out of the theaters! come, 'chiong' dvd! i wonder what the guys will have in line for us this coming monday... but i am going to watch Dance of the Dragon. Amay--- SING.......ZINC... today i had dinner with jomain and it was quite fun. she asked me some stuff no one else who have asked or asked before. no wonder she is who she is. the dream will surely come to past. she is so not caught up in her school work, family and all. i got her to just do that but then i'm 100% sure she is not caught up their. priorities have not switched... just schedule... just management tactics. she is getting good results for 1 purpose. she is pulling family together for that same purpose. hahhs... sec 3 and so reliable and focussed on the bigger dream. what a girl! jianming is superstar cgl of the month luh... what can i say. every thing he touched turned into gold. hands down, jm's the man and we better clap! **CLAP!** nadine is perpetually on her email and i found out her gmail is on forever. just be careful don't get hacked. she preaches so well... i am really quite shocked. and she sleeps so little i am really quite shocked too. charleston and i got to tell her to sleep then she will sleep. capacity... superb.. live superb... i came back from a jog quite pumped up today. i jogged from yishun to sembawang and back again and i think i heard creatures yelling my name... no i'm kidding. then i tried to train pull ups for army... FAILED and FAILED THOROUGHLY. at 12am would thought they would be people around! so embarrassing i just packed my stuff and go home. ernest is happily asleep now. i'm going to wake them all up at 330am to watch soccer with me :p he is super funny. he tried plugging his laptop adapter to the extension. he kept it on and off and on and off again but there wasn't power. he yelled, "racist luh!" alamak... he didn't turn on the other switch. my extension is no respected of man ernest and definitely not racist. okay i think we can have so many things happening to us at one time all the time or at one particular time. it is crazy and that pressure and demand though frustrating and irritating is actually quite pleasing too. i dread to fight off those pressure and demand because i know it's a time thing. i will be able to do it and do it so well but i just prefer using that time to progress on in life u see. but we all just have to know that sometimes, we have to entertain the old pillars in our lives and revisit them for a while. well, we may not exactly progress because of constraints but i really think it is not an excuse not to. logically you don't progress but i don't care logical. i will have every thing happening to you and yet you doing everything you do well if not better. to me it is a refocus and channelling of energy. when pressure comes, i thrive on it and many of you guys do too. this is why jomain and nadine and jianming are who they are. more pressure more output. failure doesn't kill them. it just spurs them on like crazy. i believe and so do they that it is very pragmatic. i will deal with my life, the issues, and i will study, i will do this, i will do that and i will do everything well. look at nadine and that is one great example. jomain... another. if it requires you to sacrifice, you work it out. if it requires you to re manage, you work it out. i think maturity is being able to live well and do well what you're require to do. maturity is seeing more than the burden but the motivation why people want to hold up that burden. somehow you can work it out. i don't believe that it cannot be done. you will only breakthrough in the most inconvenient times. so if it's inconvenient and hard now then it's your time to rise. to wait for a sweet honey mood, pressureless realm is not exactly what you'll find. maybe in retirement? hahhs your ministry your team your family your spiritual life your whatever and ever you want to carry the burden... know the motivation behind carrying the burden then i think you'll work it out very well... it will be strong at all fronts. it will and i'm so sure about it. it is about jm - touching anything and everything and turning it into gold. it is about effectiveness and efficiency and what nadine talked about - half hour rule. half hour is the golden time. you read all your books they tell you that. i'm TRYING to live on half hours. proud of everybody kick off real soon. kick off real soon (:
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