In the Bedroom after the War
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March 31, 2008
so tell me what's up... i ain't stopping... no way Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:41 PM mondays are a good time to wake up fall asleep and wake up again. at irregular intervals or at whatever your alarm clock was set on, the snoozing definitely feels good. never had so much liberty snoozing before. well mondays, you get that on mondays. Pastor How shared about attacking life and having faith and i think that is really cool. i woke up having quite alot of things on my mind, things i need to do, things i need to contemplate about and when i felt i was sinking i remembered what Pastor preached about. It is absolutely cool, you feel your thoughts move higher like a ball bearing in your heart. It's so on skin you can feel the sensation of that 'ball bearing' moving up through the volatile liquid in your mind. i think we all ought to exercise what we are being taught by this great man! hahhs it always works like it always works. so that means from now on.... muahaha it's going to be quite fun. on saturday, nicholas tan, ernest, sean and lixing stayed over and it was particularly funny with nicholas tan around. Man Utd vs Aston Villa, lixing asked me how long is a half time break. i said,"15mins". Nicholas Tan said,"the players hungry, they got time to eat chicken rice." hahhs this sounds quite cool man. now we have an idea to provide chicken rice for EPL players. it's a sure rich opportunity. Come on who is in??? and when we taught everyone was asleep, we nicholas and lixing began talking about those who are asleep. well, they were like zombies rising from the dead at the sound of their names. ernest slept with a smile on his face. must be some fairytale he was dreaming about. well, we all had expression on our faces when we slept. I guess only God would have known how we looked like. Crappy but definitely very cool. :p this week, leona and benny is coming over. muahahahahahahaha leona and BENNY! SURE FUNNY. Benny went to Jeremy and told him that He is the new Head of Dragon Clan. Ancient term i know... And he accompanied it with a huge slap. So you can imagine a little guy smacking a bigger guy. Luckily, Jeremy didn't slap his back back, if not Benny would miss the rapture. But i can imagine.... if he was resurrected he will give us that face... super funny, and keep taunting Jeremy while they are up there in mid air. It will be funny.. Yesterday, Benny came to me and told me, He didn't tell Pastor How he is the new Senior Pastor. I told him, GOOD! PLEASE DON'T TELL. I think we cannot joke too much already, people take it seriously. I was actually teaching him not to do that, and can he imagine he go do that to Pastor How? Cannot right? So don't do it. I guess he didn't get the point. But it's sweet (: and very funny oh my gosh.. i really do wonder how many more things of this sort is out there without our knowledge. it would be crazy if i found out all about them!!! so tell me what's up.... i won't stop!!! gonna wait for benny to tell me more now... something i wore, nadine wore and sinfei wore made up everything charleston wore on sunday. we are so connected to our leader we hardly miss a single thing :p it was my top, nadine's jeans and sinfei's shoes. that is funny and only something that will get into sinfei's brain. i wonder what is in there sometimes. maybe we have laughing gems of mischief! they plot and plot and joke all the time in mind's classroom with these sort of lameness! and as a woman think, so she is. sinfei - product of lame thoughts arnold's chicken is fantastic. this is by far the best chicken i've eaten so far. oh my goodness, i can't wait to go to church so i can drop by and get a half spring chicken. if you haven't tried arnold's chicken, you ought to! it is amazing... as i type this now, i've been half day through without any food and i crave arnold's chicken. arsenal ALMOST embarrassed themselves with Bolton! the man utd fans in church came telling me we almost lost. YES IT'S TRUE! I WATCHED THE REPLAYS. What kind of defending is that? Arsene knows and no wonder he said we must buck up defensively, i think as a result of this, he may purchase a top class defender. Somehow you think Evra, Neville, Ferdinard and Vidic you get an assurance. you think sagna (but now eboue), gallas, toure and clichy... hmmm not very assured yet. and i think we need some steel in the team. So we sent diaby in and he got sent off. but i still love arsenal. later at 430pm, i'll be watching an empress and the warrior or something like that. i have no idea what show is that but just that i think chew theng decided on it. it definitely sound like a chinese movie and war bloody kind but maybe i'm wrong. we'll see... it feels good having a few hours before the movie and not knowing what movie you are bathing, dressing up and leaving house to watch. it is fun. alright, i love my life with all these things happening. i love it the way it is even more now. i loved it in the past. i love it at anyone point and i love it at any future points. so Father tell me what's up next, i ain't stopping what i do... no way i will i'd just hope this and that ended a bit more spectacularly but sometimes a old school neighborhood ending is quite cool and that's the point of everything that is funny! benny, sinfei, leona, joanne, nadine, keegan, blah blah blah. it's good and it's really funny. contact lenses kill me all the time while specs make me look too serious and sharp a guy. i still love my pathetic eyes. March 29, 2008 my dices, too precious to throw Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:47 AM little is known about what will happen in the near future and that little knowledge is that excitement that i've been living by for some time now. oh let me clarify that it isn't just that excitement, though it plays a huge part, it's just one of the reasons. ha! next week we start bible school and it is the best thing that happened to a few of us this year so far. that is one whole load of intangible gigabyte that we are adding on. i know it's going to be fun. today i was in church for a while. i joined huishan for some basketball show that is really quite interesting. the chinese can only do what the chinese do in these serials. hands down, though it was pretty funny watching it, after a while you enjoy it. But i still can't stand hebe acting cute and the male cast stratting their stuff. i can't help it, it does send chills down my spine. perhaps the accent made plain simple words sound really mushy. i don't know. but it definitely sounds mushy even the confrontation. yeah right, it's the accent. hahhs after that i had a meeting and then i caught step up 2. it was awesome. a few of us actually clap and cheered during the movie. well, it's really quite good. next up is august rush! alright... easter is over and the work starts now (: okay as if work hasn't started yet :p yeah it can't be like dice throws and test of luck. we've got to have precision and effectiveness in everything we do. argh... now this is how to be alive a sweet mix of boldness and wisdom... not a throw of dice just concrete no way! i'm actually grasping the situation in my palm... nice! well, Doctor Jesus is wrestling all these circumstances for our pride. time to grow now. woot. March 26, 2008 you've done that and so much more Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:59 AM this is attempt number 1 dated and timed whatever and whatever i am doing this for the sake of doing this i don't feel a bit about this entry but i am just going to do this (: hahhs it's been funny recently, i don't feel like blogging at all! argh crap... i said it i will when i want to but that besides the point we were all very much looking forward to tuesday 3pm we were like little children over excited about soccer. i haven't touched a ball in 2 to 3 weeks now and today feeling it was good for me, at least it triggers my health up beat. i did have a good exercise honestly but more than that i had so much fun we're becoming better at it as a team, we did what we could never do and it all looked beautiful from few metres out the cage. well, today was alot of rockets and dipping, blazing shots. Everyone was blasting everything at the goal and whoever got in the way suffered a smacking sensation all too well to remember. it was really funny today. okay... we got back to church and it was quite awkward seeing a few people around it was far too big for just a few people and every move they made was amplified and noticeable the huge space was deafening and there wasn't very much of a hang out today i hope tomorrow gets better because i am surely going to hang out! it was quite satisfying having to practice drums for a long time today it was really undisturbed and interrupted silence and peace it was good for me (: well this is not very much of a topic to talk about because not all of us identify with it and know what it's all about... we'll not talk about this for some time we had an eleventh hour dinner before the eatery closes. 4 dishes and plenty of rice after which stole away my sharpness and clouded my mind i was sleepy and i just had to have my IPod on to congregate that cloudiness even more because it will facilitate my sleep. but then, funny things happen... like after a soft instrument, a crap rock song plays. then you jump up from your comfortable position into what i called just--awake-reality argh crap i'm not home yet! argh crap stupid song! argh crap the cushion it not comfortable! hahhs and i had it all over and over again hahhs i am sick and i'll get better tomorrow that feeling totally robbed my pleasant instrumental piece sensation alright, i'm playing and replaying that same song that put me to sleep in the car just now just that now it had a reverse effect i don't seem like i'm going to sleep but yet again, i think if i usher myself to, somehow i will i've been good and very happy i deserve some good sleep tonight when you thought you have done what you dreamt in your conscious of doing to a particular person though realistically you haven't i do think that somehow you've done well i think they feel it happening in some funny human sensitivity dimension when you thought you've done that, you actually did much more well good and bad the good being that those people around you are sane, spiritual and mature with depth the not so good being that those people susceptibly think too much the bad being they are totally not grained to this have you ever thought something to happen... yeah, you think it and crafted it to happen in your mind well those are your most personal of all thoughts... all the best to you for those endeavors. most of the time, they are either fantasy or... i don't know? well when you do see the real medium, like that person or situation you can't shun that embarrassment, laughter or whatever feeling you get out of the nature of that fantasy don't you think that people somehow know all these things going through your mind? especially that few people you do think about in those private thoughts? when you meet them, you can't help it, it comes through vividly in your memory hahhs... i do have this and i think it's normal. well i think we've all as a 2nd person thought too much when such a thing happens to us. not us developing them, but when people develop us in their minds. i really think we think too much sometimes. hahhs i really really do eh! now there is no normal speech and dialogue. proper smiles and actions. realness is arrested and what we have here is quite a boo-boo thing. this is just what i feel sometimes. i hope people can return the favor and be real and normal sometimes (: hahhhs i bet you feel this way too. okay, somehow i ended up not doing this because i had to. and crap, i haven't got over Arsenal's defeat to Chelsea. it disturbs me... We are by far the most entertaining squad around. Chelsea who? Boring Boring Chelsea! Man Utd is alright luh... Liverpool is too predictable all the time. Barcelona closed the gap on top to Real Madrid to just 4 points. Come On Real, Slip up!!! I feel sad for Henry... he got displaced by 17 year old Serb Bojan Arsenal please bid for Quaresma Chelsea go bid for every and any tom dick and harry that play well for 1 game and ruin their careers. My bitter bitter get back at Chelsea.... I hope the Little Horn is a Chelsea fan... then muahaha i will have every reason to dislike him March 25, 2008 never there, came in, there and gone again Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:21 AM so we were never there with the rest and very much isolated laughing at our own jokes however we never fail to drop by to get what we needed and then move along again i think this clearly describes us. it's like getting gas and driving away some distance more. i guess f2 didn't saw themselves as team leaders which was why they didn't fail (: 95 was what i saw at the end of that sheet and my heart skipped when i exaggerated my cool and confident expression. i was overjoyed. i was freaked out. it was alien and i was proud of them. i think you don't get a lot of these things happening in cg all the time but then who says they are big things too complicated we cannot tear part? i love this game because i love this team. if there ain't a great team i think people won't love the game as much. i think we have a great team that's why i think all these ppl on the team live life like no other peer would live. they ain't lead like team leaders because they would have failed. they led like a team. leaders of a cg. it's quite different representing your department compared to the company. i guess no one really say that marketing department of so and so pte ltd is so amazing. i think we pretty much have company names raving all the time. i don't know how this works but they just seem to see the purpose, burden and that deeper reason to things we do all the time. and this is depth. with this i enjoy every second interacting with them. without that i tell you we will be canceling each other out. i had only said let's really grow this easter and here we have 95. now i feel like i've did nothing but talked. we are a dream team... there's no doubt about it. they know every dna behind this and they will build dream teams around and as a matter of fact it's coming to past already. this was our subtle revelation and i think we all sewn it to our hearts really. okay now, we've been really peculiar about somethings here a few alphabets down we're morphing and we're becoming that dream team soon one after another, barriers after barriers and also victory after another i think a dream team is addicted to winning and from the way i see it, we're addicted to winning because we're hating to lose. that euphoria when we move from faith to faith and glory to glory. hahhs! b1 is happening with JM and Wei Ling. trailblazing in front of us, they're the ones with every piece of good news now. major school revival and that feeling feels familiar. it amazing to be able to do and keep on doing whatever i am doing. few weeks ago i would have told you we're not up against 'it'. but few days back we were. and right now we're cruising. i feel we're back high, up and running. revival mode and feeling. hahhs so much of returning to memory lane and so much of familiarity finding our way. this is the worse time to get out and the most stupid to end. that is why, here and there, this and that happens to rock you so you will fear and now thinking logically to get out. nah... you don't get out... you stay because you have too much destiny marked over your life. you stay as long as everyone else stays. you will not go anywhere because no one is going anywhere. surely there will be wisdom, there will be a way. but surely there will also be a fist in the air. a statement victory. a war cry. muahahahahaha.... i've got to admit this. i'm high up there and really everything else just follows. when i was low down, it was low down and they were low down confused. alright now... sometimes when i do see a few people around, i wonder how things have been for them. you see, people have fought some good fights in this relative short period and won fights. people have moved on and grown and i just wonder if those few people had done the same. i wish you hear me screaming inside me when i look at you. when the team comes telling me and we've been through doing what we're supposed to do, i hope you get it that you really just have 1 youth to live and 1 chance to live the most fulfilling youth in your 1 life. hahhs well actually, we'll never know what is more fulfilling and less fulfilling a life because we'll never have the chance to compare our lives because we only have one shot. right or wrong... hmmm. good or bad.... hmmm if it's so simple then we'll all be champions in this game. precisely it's not so. so see me screaming inside when i look at you. hear my unsaid words and read my un-communicated thoughts. and hopefully you draw some depth and be a person of one. hahhs yeah just wanted to confirm that it wasn't so simple. we're a dream team. we hate to lose. we have that depth that brings the flame in our eyes, that traction and grip when we maneuver. i think these people can grit their teeth, gird their hearts and go through some serious grind in work and character. that is what i love about these people - depth after i talk to them i feel happy. they are bubbly, they make me happy they are so lame and funny, they lift my spirit. they are swift and fast and they astonish me. this is the finding of destiny... pst phil says your destiny is not just made up of yourself but the people around you. there is nothing, zero in oneness because except God there is no oneness that potentiates we are a team and i love this so much teams are not built just on inspiration that we have in the beginning after that it is pure hardwork, grind, struggle, tireless building and changing, convictions, discipline. very much the opposite of the feeling that inspiration brings to you we do not live from inspiration to inspiration we live from grind to grind there is just a fine line and differences between those who obtain inspiration and those who obtain the grind. at the end of the day, we want to hear someone speaking in faith not out of fresh feelings of possibility we want to hear those speaking in faith out of the grind that is why words of man and woman only have weight when it comes to past. i read 'speeches that changed the world' and yeah it's so true. the scary thing about inspiration sometimes is that we get too much we lose sight of where we want to go what we want to be. we will go through the mundane, routine, boredom, grind and all of this in love. inspiration will be the undergirding drive but more specifically a secondary one. destiny is first and always shall be we broke through (: now yeah! we just have re org! hogc 2.0 we're inspired by our destiny. but more with the hardwork that will take us there. hands to the plow... dirt off your shoulders. March 24, 2008 you...you're really quite special Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:50 AM awww my gosh... i can't fall asleep and it is 3am already. i am really sad.. my hopes are dashed and i feel crappy now! crap... arsenal lost to chelsea and man united trashed liverpool. awww my gosh.... i can't believe this Avrant Grant got it right this time out of all the times he trailed and error. crap luh.. chelsea are lucky but i admit man united was a class act today. goodbye title, we missed you this season! what is sagna wasn't injured? it would have been different! sian... kinonn is happy... so is jiayang... so is wilfred... so is gabriel... roy is sad and i am sad. we're melting down and we need a little bit of attention... awwww kidding. BUT, REALLY LUH... EBOUE SHOULD GO AND DIE! Hahhs you know this year's going to be a year of increase... forget about arsenal, i'm talking about hoGc. HAHHS easter had been great. water baptism was fun and it was exceptional with my grandparents here. good to know gabriel and rachel had a great time and good to know too that we're doing well during easter! muahaha tomorrow's hq and i cannot wait to get my hands and heart on the job there will be new names in my ephod's pocket and faces in my mindframe it is going to be beautiful i had a great meeting with some of people in b zone on saturday morning i don't know, it was compact, powerful and anointed. it was sweet i had just got some enlightenment when i thought i had already been somehow i saw things a little bit different from how i should see them yeah but now i do see them the way i need to see them the 4th dimension says i need to be so clear about my objectives i've concluded sometimes we skip that clarity and specifying because we can't summon faith to sculpt those words into a prayer and then only after this do we have to vision it and be pregnant with it. it's really quite special; that principle these days have been quite interesting, it was roller-coaster and i'd never quite settled down okay bible school starts 7th April and at first we thought it was tomorrow on monday! i can't wait to enroll and i can't wait to finish my 5 months. i just can't wait to come full time and do what i do and do it well and this is really quite special as well there was one thing i heard today that brought a smile to my face it was that thing i heard that excited and jump start my heart and what you said to me was really quite special nadine had so much discoveries about people that you know i only realize when you tell me thinking i've realized. hahhs and what she thinks about these discoveries about people like cheryl and lsf is quite special nicholas luo and wayne stayed over at my place a night after lixing and sean routinely crashed my place okay... it was honestly quite special too. lx and sean, we hardly did a thing. we caught fellowship of the ring and when it was down 3/4 i was left hearing my own echo responding to myself; they had gone to sleep answering my questions. hahhs! nicholas and wayne's was a little bit different and boxue was supposed to join us but he was down with flu. we chatted, we ate, we watched stupid shows and we listened to all sort of music on my playlist. after a while they died too and i was left alone staring at my screen and doing what i was supposed to do. hahhs i had went to bed deep in thoughts thinking about baptism the next day. alright today i came in and i had 1 amazing meeting. and btw when you run a meeting you really are the most encouraged of all. and all these were quite special too. i'd taken out all my old playlist and resync it into the Ipod. sometimes you see freshness in old and it offers something a little different. and this was special because i loved it. something Pastor How said is special too. we didn't really have as much nfs compared to easter last year and this is what he says. don't worry... this year i know we're going to grow because my team is back ivan has no school charleston has 8 to 5pm lynette has no a levels dominic is out of army so on and so forth cool... 'my team is back' and this is special why would i not run and build this having a Pastor like that? hahhs i think, we all have to come to a point in our christianity that no matter what happens we won't leave God then life will be special. what was normal is now extraordinary subnormal. the mundane is beautiful the grind is infatuation i hope we all get there one day then you're really quite special (: some people make me think about them all the time while some people make me want to forget about them all the time for now, i want to forget about the man united fans in church! kidding (: oh well they're really quite special alright done and dusted March 21, 2008 try piping this down Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:25 AM F2 EASTER 105 B2 DOUBLED and this is what keeps me going on and on; the people are excited and they are happy doing what their doing. just got a piece of good news from joanne and it really excites me. i've never had this feeling for a long time. things are a little paranormal now, this is God at work and i'd better step aside. i had a wonderful prayer meeting today. it was compact, short and very powerful. people were ministered and there were tears and you see their pumped up countenance. it was pretty... we needed that, we just needed faith and alot of it. i think we will grow and grow rapidly after this because then God is glorified. ain't it His will that men and women come to know Him? then i'm right, i just have to do my job and do it well. it's also His will that people come to the knowledge of Christ. and definitely He builds His House therefore i really think we're going to grow rapidly. church in Acts had people added daily to their congregation. i think we just stepped into that. there is no second mindedness nor second guesses. it's as simple as that... we will grow and the growth rests on how much faith we have. you cannot shake me off and you cannot convince me that we're not. who will stop God in His ways? who will stop God being glorified? hahhs therefore.... here we go and here we go fast. i'm shocked at the 3 digit figure for F2 and this weekend's meeting will be yet another amazing time. we'll do what we need to do and what we have to do. B Zone is even higher than time and it's sweet. we're not stopping now. we're right back and running. the team is right where they should be. i feel that same feeling before F2 entered averaging 50s each week. here B Zone and F2 take a bow and time to do what we do. the gates of hell shall not prevail no weapon formed against us shall prosper the 2 horns anticipate his perilous times we're very much a team of fools, not knowing what we're talking about and what we're doing. we blog all the time trying to inspire ourselves. but that drive comes from inside. it's intrinsic... i've been through that capturing of drive way too many times. it's easy summoning it anytime i need it. it's familiar taking it and putting it into people... and now some people are experts doing it themselves. hahhs it's back to perspective. it's lifting hands and pointing fingers above. come on Mate, be glorified... that's very much it for now this is paranormal i've obligated myself to blog everyday because i cannot lose :p March 20, 2008 minutes or no minutes to spare Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:16 PM i had some time to spare and right away i went reading up on a few things and people. i didn't know many stuff like there's an island timor until i read the papers today. i found out about Bear Stearns, Lewis Hamilton; our new rising sports icon. Tiger Woods is the only or first sportsman to earn over 100million a year and that is amazing. Even Beckham is a quarter that. Jordan in retirement earns 15million a year. That is crazy. Then of course you have everything local and then your tibetan riot and you dalai lama. quite funny and interesting too to know that China is spent 40 billion to build and upgrade the stadiums for olympics and they forgot about toilet bowls. It's funny, don't expect the ang moh to squat for you! Last night i was doing my attendance and Nadine told me that we're having a new friend by the name - CHEN LEI. I thought hokkien pop star wanted a salvation experience! Then just, she smsed me and told me it's WANG LEI. Funny.. I was so wanting to meet that Chen Lei. Okay, i was reading alot and then i concluded with a little bit of blog reading. hahhs... i have no comments. some blogs make me happy while some deeply troubles me. i can't help it because i'm human (: and well, i guess i'll keep my mind to myself (: I read too about the Marine Corps Plus the Israel Defense Force Woah... 2 of the toughest army you can go against I'm into techy mode and filling my head with information Tomorrow morning i'll go borders and get new books! Hahhs and i totally abandoned my Sai Baba book already. After a while it makes no sense. Gd friday is tomorrow and tomorrow is 9 and a half hours from now. Sunday is baptism and that's 57 and a half from now. When i get into that water, i'l have a list with me. After i come out, those ink will smerge And all that will submerge in the power of God Hahhs... You got to know who this Lewis Hamilton is. Also the newpaper had some funny story of a teenage couple making out. that's not funny but what's funny is this. the guy swallowed the girl's fake tooth and had to undergo surgery because of awful pain. so much for love huh? get a grip man... don't lose yourself.... it's not cool u know... :p i speak as if i know so much... but actually i don't when we think we've arrived, we subtly close the window of wisdom into our lives. when we think that we're too veteran and around for long and know our scope inside out. We subsconciously close that window. so fools think that they have arrived. i've yet a thousandth things to find out and learn. and wisdom is teachability teachability is humility humility is a baby step to wisdom so we just have to keep learning - from those above, around and beneath you Nadine, you haven't tell me that chem answer And i still owe you your pop start answer it is good to know that the people around me are doing good it is real good to feel good and i hope you are too. not too senior, not too old, not too there, not too familiar that you close the window of wisdom i fancy reading MY STORY: LEWIS HAMILTON we're see how it goes tonight, grandma is doing curry chicken and i'll be there after prayer meeting. hahhs i miss you (: i really do! i hope to have all of you around me all the time. saturday you will stay over at my place (: monday we will watch our movies. we will do this together and forever March 19, 2008 blacken finger prints! Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 6:10 PM bala bala bah bah bala bah bah bala bah bah! all of a sudden i remember one of the songs my pal kept singing in class a year ago hmmph.. i wonder how he's doing let me check soon because he's someone that i like :p not that i don't care about whoever i don't like. please you know :p my grandparents opened a bank i think and they ain't stop giving me money i wonder where they get all their money from but wondering will remain wondering they don't want to disclose their means and ways sly grandparents forever sly when i have so much money, i'll give back to you and you will don't know why! hahhs then i'll be the sly one i will win you sly 70 yr olds tsk.. i never lose :p i am so excited about easter if you are not then come talk to me call me up or sms me hahhs i will tell you why oh crap, i'm dirtying my keyboard i wonder why all these newspaper are so dirty i don't need an answer though... nadine and chew theng are attempting to blog everyday i think it is impossible but possible if you blog hi and bye so why not you 2 try and see who lasts the battle winner takes all surrender your blogs! hahhs i watched leap years on monday and it's that kind of thing you shouldn't watch on mondays hahhs it's nice though and i liked it something i will watch again and again like the village and movies like that but well, i want to watch will ferrell's slam dunk movie - looks funny and i'll definitely watch that august rush next monday and soon mondays will be meetings and movies day come join us on at 'Movies after Meetings' on mondays 2 for the price of 1! Meet LSF, Chewy Cat and Yaya L all at one time! Call us now and reserve your place please give us 3 to 4 days to return your interview date so what are you waiting for? call while 'stock' lasts. crap... this week we have f2! my goodness God save me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! time to grow fellas winner takes all :p kidding let me wash my hands and start replying some emails until i come back, please... just invite your friends won't you? hahhs and it's soul meets body and it's soul meets body that song, my pal's favourite song. death cab for cutie arsenal is so going to beat liverpool 3 times! they are also so going to win the league! man utd wait and see chelsea stop being so buoyant over our 2 pt slip liverpool you haven't met sagna, gallas, toure and clichy yet and torres you should have came to arsenal. Tottenham!!! you will never be referred to as one of the big clubs in england. big 4? dream on! big 0! i only hate one thing... and you guessed it... tottenham... forever you will dream of being in the champions league hahhs March 18, 2008 and all this is....? Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:19 PM february i graduated from polytechnic. it was not something i would celebrate about nor something i was sad about. just maybe another thing that do it's time on me. as i prayed yesterday, it occured to me that it has been hardly a month from graduation and i had so many significant activities happening all around me. God is good and He revealed 10 in 2 secs and if i go on thinking, i think there'll be more. my heart is steadfast in the next 5 to 6 months, it is going to be amazing everything will be tight, packed, back to back and i'll enlist into army for a different game altogether and hahhs, i know i will get what i want out of that army game just signed up for bible school with a couple of other people baptism this sunday and i'm still trying to get my parents to come BUT if they don't nevermind (: my grandparents are coming! argh... the pride of my youth... i loved showing them off to people! i am and i am so proud of them and i love them dearly (: i would be just as happy because they are coming. i'm going to so laugh at my grandma during praise and peep at my grandpa during worship my once wonderwoman will be prasing God my once Mr. Cool will have tears in His eyes you will figure out where we get our good genes from too (: muahaha well... my heart is steadfast and all this shall come to past for YOUR GLORY "Get your grandma saved..." Pastor Lia, it's almost done just sharing my joy gdbye March 17, 2008 they stole our hearts Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:13 AM they stole our hearts and they run away with a degree and portion of it that's when i realized that i've had something amiss i was leaning against the door on the train home staring into space, circulating pupils and blurry visions when it was climax i caught on the noises around me and awoke again it was terrible but it was really funny and i was lucky not toppling over today's zone f service was awesome actually this weekend was special and sweet dominic said something so powerful i had it recurring in my mind until now unknowingly as i lead and shepherd, those people i do lead and shepherd stole my heart unknowingly sometimes we've started to worship at their altar it was all the mundane work and suddenly a different environment altogether ain't it funny that we're so de-compartmentalized sometimes? hahhs i hardly can understand why too just that i know when we sow, we sow our lives and without any expectation of a return it would be a blessing having been loved in return but if not, not then (: they took it and they ran away with it i felt the lag and the tussle but i had no means to stop it it is the way it is it is leadership hahhs i hope i'm making sense to people but if not, nvm. yesterday night was crazy ernest, xing and sean stayed over again and we watched arsenal's match i was screaming at the television and it was satisfying my only sadness and grief was that they could not get a second goal they deserved it and i'm super sad LUH! then we entered into some short of a rattling off our hearts i hope i made sense to ernest, xing and sean. they listened and they listened and of course they spoke too. muahaha and today, i found out i suddenly kept quiet and the next thing, ernest checked me and i was asleep. but it was really some rattling off over there but well, people won't understand but some will i felt caught in the lag of time and dragged out of space and moment just to know that person isn't here anymore, and that person isn't here anymore pulls me apart yet i know that the vision is yet of a ripe time it will tarry but it shall surely come to past. and i'd just keep running with a lit torch amazing.. pastor lia is amazing i look at koon yew on the train just now and i thank God he opened that door and talked to me years back i look at jiaxin and i thank God she opened up her heart and shared with us she's a little sad today... and it's really crap hey, mine's really crap too (: we'll keep running... and running and running and we'll not falter you keep doing that! hahhs hahhs i'd better go won't rattle anymore it shall surely come to past if you read this, know that we just have to put our hands to the plow again sam, nadine, joanne, and everyone... fe, chew, whoever... cheryl, sf... whatever we'll do this and we'll do this together we'll forget about every other thing for the time being every other thing and i mean it we will do this together and only this now i love what i'm doing and i love it so much and this will be it all for the time being build build and build gdnight and gdbye March 14, 2008 a sudden return and eclipse of my dreams Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 6:39 PM out of the blue i felt like playing soccer in the english premier league i guess it came after reading newpaper on my way home it is quite funny though... really... that this childhood fantasy come back to haunt me now muahaha... i was reading about thierry henry and about him struggling at barca. i didn't know soccer players have personal problems or perhaps i forgo their humanity for a moment because they looked so amazing on screen. i like thierry henry and i wish he come back to arsenal and be part of the coaching staff (: hahhs... random but yeah. i just got home from chalet that started on tuesday noon. i had 3 rounds of bbq and alot of rounds of fun. hahhs. i really had fun and knowing the people had fun made me feel the fun returning to me again. we celebrated Samantha's and Chew Theng's birthday over there as well i hope they enjoyed themselves today at KTV (: seeing f2 people get their hands dirty with charcoal is really funny i can now still remember leona running the pit for us it was funny and really entertaining to see them each do one thing. the butter, the food, the flipping overs... they were all so servant hearted and YES we now are ready to go further into 240. Ooooh... and when we taught we were having fun, we just had to look left or right and walk a few steps to our neighbors e zone and d zone and realize that they are having as much fun as us (: it was a church union at costa sands and really really funny one with security guards trying to keep us low oh man, i remember that we might have forgotten to remove jacky's wanted picture. bless whoever goes in there, call his name 3 times and you feel lucky hahhs. army medical was crap. so we'll not talk about it. i've been thinking about it and there is a difference between love and loyalty. i'd prefered loyalty to love and this i learnt from Pastors. Love extends to one person Loyalty extends to one person's circle Love works in soulish grounds Loyalty functions in spiritual grounds Love stops at one person and reconsiders going to another Loyalty doesn't, it is spiritual and it transcends differences and persons. Love comes easy when we get close to that one person. When there was one no love, there is now love after period together. Loyalty is a decision regardless of closeness or not. It rests on spiritual sight, spiritual picture and destiny. One can love and not be loyal. But one cannot be loyal and not love. I love those i'm loyal to I'm loyal to those i love Love is very much a feeling Circumstances stirs it up more than we realize it does. It's more unreal sometimes than real we think it is. Loyal is a decision Circumstances will threaten to play it down more than we realize it does. It's more real sometimes than unreal we think it is. Same heart and similar spirit doesn't birth through a soulish love it comes through a spiritual principle of living; loyalty David and Jonathan Paul and Timothy Jesus and John It was loyalty more than love Love sweetens the taste of the relationship Loyalty locks in and makes us remember the aftertaste When we have loyalty, we know how to navigate back to that sweet aftertaste While love will always be a lottery of heads and tails We get a sweet taste, well good if not too bad. this is why it troubles us when someone comes so close and than the nex thing we know, is not in sight at all. was it just an emotional love? or was it a loyalty? love and love all we can but it will run out then we have to replenish our tank before we love again. loyalty doesn't have any sort to do with this. argh it troubles me deeply (: up till today. but the chalet was amazing. God is amazing. a new generation in F Zone. a new generation in B Zone. A new texture in the spirit A similar heartedness with our Pastors. A loyalty and a love. Not a soulish - you love me i love you Actions... yet not just actions all the time we will have a new batch of ...... hahhs (: March 10, 2008 same old feeling same old song Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:46 AM i just got home not very long ago, my time shows 1249am and i hardly feel like sleeping and oh yeah, it isn't really a time many people sleep so i thought i'll drop by here and type a little, crap a little and i'll go i got on msn and yeah chatting and talking to a people or few all sorts of things, all sorts of content it's sunday night and we're all combed, tucked in and resting so then i was here, and i remembered this old song by delirious? summer of love and it's such a real song to me not a christianist song type but relevant and real and identifiable this is the kind of songs one should hear and i gladly will repeat it on my playlist today we had cms pulling out some old impression slips and looking over them again it was funny, many people gathered and many people took and ran and laughed and i guessed they all enjoyed themselves very much it was so encouraging seeing my own impression slip, old and yellowish but then still relatively neat and tidy and more surprisingly having Jamie take it down to me it was funny seeing what that messed up topsy turvy thought boy had to say my impression of the people here was descriptive enough. how much i enjoyed the service was dearest enough. next i saw what that will hit and keep in my heart for tonight with smiles and laughters and that kind that will warm your heart, my cousin came and placed their 2 impression slips into my hands it was quite abrupt but that was beautiful indeed and now just speaking to my cousin made me see the transformation God brought to the people around me and in my family we had a little bit of monkey chasing basketball game today it was quite cool having to play like little kids with no agenda whatsoever and it helped that not many people were around we lost ourselves we totally enjoyed it it was cranky and korny and really funny between the legs or over the heads, it was cool and we didn't mind whoever was looking lynette preached in zone f today and it was so significant she rocked the service but more than that something happened something spiritual was addressed and we stood up like a fist in his face, the evil devil. hahhs it was awesome joanne is next and i am so excited about this all 4 of us are different and i cannot imagine zone f having 4 preachers, different touch we are so different but very much a dream team i love zone f so much and i hope all of you can feel this joy i have for a long time church within a church a generation that will grow up together, attack life, share life, give birth to babies and learn to buy cars and change nappies. that is so cool rinnah is the most adorable preschool kid i ever met in my entire life she beat those on the ads and those in the magazines when i thought she was beautiful, rinnah taught me the real meaning of beauty amazing man and i'm going to see you tomorrow (: to once think that a caucasian kid would be cutest, now i change my mind :p i'm in love with a feeling and this feeling pulls me over and it empowers me this is the feeling of faith faith that overcomes the world and i have had many days feeling it pumping right up inside me loving the everything and anything of my life treasuring it and that's a whole different thing altogether in my mind's collage there you stand and there you smile when you want to overcome you prick yourself up in faith by hearing the word of God reading and devouring it and doing the word of God and the more you do it, the more faith stuff-les in i am estactic looking at things from where i am looking at i had only so closely fall into pride! HAHA i really think B2 is awesome. F2 is awesome. the team of tls of a cg. not the leaders of their teams. we function and we will do that as leaders of a cg and never as team leaders. the cg is built around you and you matter most you encouraged me today Nadine this is a whole lot different and the paradise of leadership we should remember this feeling, and fall in love with it and that's when we enter into different seasons and lose, that our love will lead us back searching for it that paradise, that revival and that's truly what we run towards Joanne has always been there and in my face enough not to be missed. hahhs i didn't like missing her out because she does everything :[] hahhs i love the team and i love building it around these people just got an sms from Pst Lia signing off as General Lia i will continue fighting alongside you, behind, infront of you, give the command and i will go my battalion will follow and i will be in that 6 times extra push for new grounds at our final salute we will realize we got that ground the thousands, here we come those who weren't here and left us over the years they i will remember... their names i will remember hogc 2.0 they will come back one day and i believe it so much in my heart but they will miss out and they will sob and they will sob and we here will meet them, we here will minister to them we will here their regrets and we will hear the 'if only's and we will be sad but we will also smile... because my God is Great My God is My Judge hogc 2.0 hogc 2.0 i run towards you with flames and with a hate so sweet like wine and i harbor the drives that will lead us together to victory My General Pastor Lia and Pastor How hahhs... i remember you saw us as fighters planes on a hangar. this will not be our maiden flight very much instead, the first of many conquest I LOVE YOU and thanks! My God is My Judge March 8, 2008 frogs tasted good Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:54 AM got home like some time ago now i had frogs for supper and now i totally feel like closing my eyes i know when i do, i'll see pictures, i'll see imageries, and they will flood my mind they'll be right swimming behind my eyes and it'll be some time before it dashes and flashes and go down my memory's archive so many things happened in a day and you get those images locked into your mind you pull that picture out and a feeling accompanies and i usually remember what happened because of a feeling i felt it's like morphine that slows and pauses time for you to look back then it's also like a sugar rush that takes you through all of that really quick but then, i still have to sleep. Muahaha today's bible study was unbelievably amazing. it was a gripping conviction and a tugging presence of God. you lift your hands and you worship... and what you get is the presence of God permeating it's way through. it circulates and it stirs and you had to shallow with your gut the strong presence of God. it just convicts and it grips. and it was mindset changing... i love those people i interact with and to me, they are the the most lovely and amazing the things they say makes up alot of my reflective humor when i'm alone that thing you do in famous fashion preoccupies me and i have to love my way until it's numb if not it's too distracting i enjoy all of you and i absolutely love you guys being the way you are they don't know about us... because to everyone we seem to be in a secret play we're having fun... we hide and we seek and out of this will come something greater that only time can reveal but then today was great and it is the beginning of all that.. we've gone running in the fields, we've gone repairing and rebuilding the walls. and it's very much a godly affair now. i see and i look and when i examine it, there is laughter but more seriously i feel very determined and driven. i see whatever it is not and i craze seeing it come to past. i see disorganization and i thrive on it. it pushes me even more to turn it around (: and with you, i intend to. we will look back and we will rejoice. we will rejoice. i want to do this! time is not the factor... how much we do is and we'll do until we get it that is why i see all our faces and now to sleep not alone March 6, 2008 the deeper meaning Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:51 AM i just finished typing a long report to psts and i enjoyed it totally. it was great having to complete one section and embarking on another topic. you know that satisfaction you get... you cannot but scroll up and down your report to admire it's structure and wealth of information! i know you have that. i do too and i absolutely love scrolling up and down. also just to make sure the important things are at the right place, highlighted, not missing out any other details. there's a joy after you type your report. good bad whatever the content it is fun. sometimes you type quick precise reports. sometimes you need verbal diarrhoea. today was the latter. i had this wonderful meeting with Pastor Lia today. it did something to me. i am very sure it did. it had no reason whatsoever to have done anything to me. it was a practical teaching session. but it filled something in my heart. now it looks all good... been in this for so long, doing the routine and missed out on the sweetness of life. i did see it but i didn't saw it coming so quickly. the understanding of deeper principles i had but it caught me by surprise today in Pastor's sharing. It good to feel this way, it shows i'm still real. Muahaha Not some machine. argh... been to MRI scan today laid there for 20mins for everything to be done. tomorrow meeting my doctor for the analysis. it determines my downgrade or not and i'm seriously quite nervious and anxious. see, i cannot not get 8 to 5pm because i have a calling on my life. see i cannot go up the rank in army even if they path the way for me to because i have a calling on my life. there's so many things i want to do but i can't because of God's calling on my life. you may want to get that position in some commitee in school but you have a calling on your life. you may want to get together with this guy or girl but hey stop, you have a calling on your life. this is such a beautiful thing to me. i'm waiting and even thinking about post army and studies now, when i'm free and i can dive right into the center of my calling. there's so many things you want and i want. we're not dumb to give up what we have so tangibly brought us happiness for some intangible destiny we haven't had an idea about. you somehow need a confirmation, a sign and that's all good. i don't know how to put it. but i'm privileged. hey, i have a calling on my life. you guys too. that's God's calling. And i will never allow myself to fall short of that calling. whatever it takes for me to walk into that, i will. I JUST CANNOT NOT HAVE 8 TO 5PM. Even if it fails tomorrow, i will get an 8 to 5pm. i'm not called to be some officer in there. i'm not called to stay in to experience those stuff. it's plain simple, i need to get out. And it's pure God stuff. therefore i will focus, i will pray, i will break my heart, i will gird my loins, i will keep my probity because i have a calling in life. you have a calling in life. that's the deeper meaning. you sort this out yourself because only you can. it drives you forward, keeps you on the age... be tough on yourself, to ourselves a heart of steel. oh... who would i be without my pastors. the opportunities in life that i'll never have. the scenes of movie life i'll never comprehend. i came in as a stupid little idiota boy tanned short and very charming :p couldn't communicate at all the most fragile person i met in my life i was sporting though and my pastors were like the scouts that saw a blooming talent. raw but blooming. too predictable too explosive. thank you for harness that sportsman into a sportsman. now i run life's marathon with a flame in my eyes! to think that in the past, the glory in my eyes. only you know the fire turned into ashes. and the straining climax of pain. i don't know who i'll become today yes without God but without Pastors i guess there weren't alot of things you can be proud of in me. what did you see about me? just perhaps a guy waiting to bet his life on a form of conviction and purpose... that's all i really had and am worth i was nothing... thank you Pastor Lia and Pastor How. it's been 7 going 8 years and i remember every thing you did for me. sending me to the army will tear me up. but i know i have a place i call Home in both of you (: you taught me how to speak how to think how i shouldn't wear trousers, long sleeves with sports shoes! hahhs how as i grow older i got to cover up my legs you taught me how to love; the abcs in life. you taught me integrity and you crafted my essence. you showed me what a great family is you showed me what a dad i should be what a husband i have to be you also showed me how to charm the wife to bes how to match heart to keys in 20 years time i'm gonna look back and i remember clearly that a couple who had no reason whatsoever to love this malay looking guy loved him and saw him grow up. what would it be like Pastors, when then i have a family and i hear and see my kids serve you, that people i serve in my life? (: i can't wait for that day hahhs... hahhs... don't throw away your calling. March 5, 2008 one hocus pocus, two passes, 3 stepovers and... MISS! Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:19 AM today's soccer game was FUN! the simplicity of the word says it all, just FUN. we are getting used to each other, used to the way of play, the teamwork, the teamspirit.. it's all superb and today was really enjoyable for everyone else as well. can't wait for the next soccer outing and i tell you, we'll be better. it was some slick and sick passing today. just had a slight problem in terms of finishing. hahhs! can you imagine the night before i was watching youtube clips of cristiano ronaldo and ronaldinho to inspire myself to play. hahhs! it helped really! really! :p now i feel fit and on top, up there, physically. everything is going so well, i'm tuned in to revival mode. hahhs! i'm loving every single thing i do. i've said it many times, sorry i've stop! (: had drums lesson today too! friday there's another one. and tomorrow dropping by yamaha to sign up and i'll have 2 prong crash course which i'm so excited about. and there's Arsenal vs Milan later! @ the San Siro! FINISH la. Kaka and Pato are back! Wah... FINISH. But go for the crunch man, i still think we'll win (: All Hail Arsenal. i had jay chou playing throughout the night... my goodness, it randomizes and shuffles and i realized on my WMP it's only all Jay. Itunes got other stuff! But really Jay Chou is good luh. and i really want to meet his lyricist. cheryl and joanne just told me something really amazing about F2... WHICH, i've been thinking about in the bottom most less pit of my heart! hahhs how did they even think of that? but well, we'll wait and see! hahaahahahahahahhhss. they are awesome, they say how much we need to grow too and i just stress. i love f2, it's such a dream team. By God's Grace and Mercy, we are what we are today (: Zai, i think i stumbled upon leading a dream team. I was lucky! hahhs we had msn conference just tonight and b2 was crazy. it was mayhem, free for all. all all out to lame but we had to finish out 2 short points of details first. then Nadine took it away... like a beige horse (: speaks of efficiency and effectiveness. play to fullest and work utmost. hahhs! Nadine + Sinfei + Gonghua = Sleepless Night you keep thinking of what they say man. lame lame lame lame lame. add Sam to the equation you are finished. BR and I just kept quiet and laugh. i love my life. lots of hardwork. lots of things that i've to get through. but thank God for the simplicity of life. i thank God i have a bed that i can sleep on and just go somewhere. without sleep, life won't be too simple. sometimes you just got to sleep and by tomorrow you totally think what you did the day/night before is insane. then you realize you finish... "don't feel just do" - Pastor Lia formula to success :p after you do then you feel the repercussions the results. before that, just think how and do it. i JUST love my life (: so glad you love yours too and keep loving your life people gdnight and gdbye. crap i stayed up for arsenal vs milan @ san siro and now i'm seriously sleepy i hope i survive March 3, 2008 very interesting 10am meeting with my doctor Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:31 PM i had an hour long medical appointment at Mt E just now and it was quite an experience for me. the doctor and i started talking and we were way off the check up. he's a sai baba devotee and he's in for really long. he shared with me about his family, late wife, children and his philosophies. it was quite interesting... and he wrote a book. he gave one to me and it was only my first visit. so i just a read a little bit on my way home, about his life, about his beliefs... he wrote this whole section about 'WHO AM I?' it's an essay talking about his very self proclaimed unworthy lecture on who we are as humans. hahhs. it's quite interesting to know stuff like that. Sai Baba is quite a smart guy afterall but he remains a smart guy. on the doctor's pilgrimage he actually saw many things Sai did that busted human understanding. i don't know what stuff but yeah it's what it's said there in the book. then i'm thinking, who can't float objects with their mind and all??? it's quite normal now adays... and we won't talk about that! today, as i travel Pst Joakim's words kept ringing in my head. "Pastor Ulf is one of the most curious man i've known" "We'll be at a restaurant and he'll be asking what bread this and that is..." That's all i remembered and it's enough to alter my axis as a person. back to that doctor and his sai baba beliefs... as i read the book, i realized it was just so one dimensional and one plane. it was another argument, another 'i have the big picture' and i need my facts to support my point. in the end, it sounded so real but then, it's just a man's thoughts and ideas. i'm in no position to say anything man but that's just what i think. it's his prerogative. he has all means to write a book so he wins (: he by basic training is a scientist so yeah you get the picture. the text said something quite interested. bohm (scientist) said that there is a worldness that everything we see and touch now comes from. he refers to it as the 'that-which-is'. quite smart ah this guy, make it sound so profound with 3 simple words... haiyar, these scientists ah, cheat our feelings one. he says 'that-which-is' is a Godhead that life comes from. then he said the next 'sian' thing, that this Godhead is I. Not my psychological self. Not my emotional or intellectual self. But the understanding of this SELF which they call Nirvana. i think humans still are confused people and that includes me! i think i'm more confused. hahhs i don't agree with what they say, but when everything seem to be going in some direction they twig it all back to some plain crazy argument at Godhead is SELF. If i am God then i won't be here. If i am God won't it mean that all forms of life, materials, came out of me? Partially true but that's not totally true... so not true. We created science.. the study of material things. But then if Godhead is SELF then who created this 'Godhead' of SELF? He also said everything came into place by the explosion of this primordial atom. i don't understand also la.... primitive something la. long before time. big bang stuff i don't know much also. let's not get too deep into this.... just quite disgusted... everyone ends up putting up a political correct solution, 'world peace' ideology. the book says - respect all religions and follow them, don't switch from one to another. just know that religion teaches us all to do good. have peace, love... serve all man. don't have war. We also know right? so the most 'i don't have a stand' people are seen as holy and godlike now. if you are neutral, you are wise and you are divine. wah piang eh... like that also can??? at the end of the day, it's just a confusion. you never fully grasp all this things, it just confuses you. that confusion becomes your conclusion that whatever this is is real. under the influence of demons. oopps. But hor, nevertheless, i like the Doctor. he treats me really well and that's good man. hahhs... i had a great week and another great one ahead.i hope things are good for you too (: f zone and b zone chalet up soon man... it's going to be so so fun i'll make them watch war movies in the night! hahhs and i want to watch the LOTR Trilogy i'll find a way to get it i find myself loving the thing i do even more. i love these people i love you and we're all going to be people running with our Pastors. Same heart, same vision, same essence. this i pray hard, that we be known not as a big cg or zone, or any other thing but one that runs with our Pastors in the spirit. one that loves our Pastors. the most! people who are awestruck by our Pastors! while we build, while we grow up, the love affair remains sons are similar in essence, in mind, in heart, in soul.. and argh let's be sons and daughters in the faith (: i love and trust my Pastors like no one else. it's insane not to. at least to me... who do i turn to except them? I love them and more than this church, I want to serve them my entire life. I Love You! My Pastors, My Heroes
patch download available - hogc v2.0 - estimated time unknown Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:37 AM we're looking at jumping numbers. we're guessing numbers and we're chasing numbers. time to move to v2.0 for the church and for every single one of us. between 1 to 2 lies a million other possibilities. ha and it ain't not going to be stuff that God will take us through. i'm excited and we must keep up with Pastors. muahahaha i love what is installed for us. i'm a sportsman and i can't change that. okay i should stop reading everybook i'm reading now and read the bible even more. cannot already i better know my bible well!!! but i'll buy books and leave them on the shelf! muahaha i was just on msn a while ago and talking to people from b2 and b4 is so fun. Nelson wants the POLICE T-Shirt now and my goodness it is crazy. but truefully speaking, it is VERY comfortable. beat nike hands down i believe. Oh... and Nelson is SUPER EXCITED ABOUT IT. Look at this: Live, Learn, Lead says (12:30 AM): ya ok wow i happy sia i got the poilce shirt!! Hao Yue is amazing (: plain simple. Basically, Nadine's team is amazing. I was talking to her and she told me 'remember isaiah 40? we're changing now' yeah... now is isaiah 40. we're game for the next thing in line... Jian Ming says if we'd ever capture Mat Selamat, we'll hold him hostage and get him to call the police and bankbust like 20million for us instead. CRAP but funny. He added that since he cannot live much longer, He should strike a deal with mama back home. Be a fillial son and let your mum turn you in, she has 10million for retirement. Then again, this MS jokes are getting abit boring and out of hand. We should stop it now (: Gabriel don't understand hogc terminology. knocked out is the hogc word fall asleep. today i asked him again and he still didn't get it... he replied, "you mean get wack or fall asleep? i guess there's only 1. No 2. Oh and i read some interesting stuff over here. http://www.littlespeck.com/content/people/CTrendsPeople-071013.htm http://www.littlespeck.com/content/people/CTrendsPeople-071124.htm Read this second one... MUST READ! xenophobic tension? Widening income gap? Wah... u conclude what you just read man... But ah, it's relevant for our context. and after today we all learnt in zone f that integrity is everything. if we cannot have integrity with one small thing, then logically i think we'll struggle in our marriages next time. we think it's a different story because it's marriage! come on pls! but precisely, we thought wrongly. as a little boy Pastors shared this with me and it changed my life. i can't be faithful now, don't think about next time - finances, wife, etc. hahhs so christianity isn't just a big wooohoooo thing... you have the presence of God. then you have the doctrinal stuff. then you have the principles. and we were just talking about pre-made decisions again. discipline is easy when there's pre-made decisions. if not we're at the mercy of our emotions. to think of being ruled by my emotions sounds so loser. something that would not exist without me ruling me. Wah! Cannot ah! hahhs to think about it... you guys like i shared with you today are entering work, jc, poly, uni and secondary school. diff phrase of life for all of us. and yeah, this speaks for itself. new ball game. faithful till the end... we'll not lose the clutch. really, if i'm mat selamat i will hide in the cemetery. i will sleep partially submerged. i will live near a water supply. Live on plants. But like what Jian Ming said, He has survivor skills but that will last him 1 month. If he's not out of Singapore, he will come out or be found dead by starvation or suicide. Whatever la huh... Mat Tappered & Skinnies appeals more to me. muahaha I so love my life. and i really mean it each time i say it. read the word of God now! gdnight & gdbye March 2, 2008 5 guys with the word 'POLICE' on their T Shirt Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:26 AM i wonder what has it all become. it was funny walking around, 5 of us in the similiar 'POLICE' T-Shirt. we got alot of attention and it was funny. but come to think about it, no 5 police guys will be taking a break devouring their pratas and murtabaks. so whoever thought we were policemen, i honor their common sense. but... i seriously think many people did think we were policemen. one actually said in mandarin. "policemen are here" hahhs... what do you expect? us looking for a terrorist at a pratahouse? gone deal people. right now, we're watching ZERO HOUR. 1 JUNE 2001 Nepal crazy crown prince shot his entire family. He's obssessed about guns and he picks different guns to finish off different family members. crap... all because they disapprove him of marrying some girl. haiyo... you know... we can discuss brudddddeeeeerrrrr. this guy is sick... anyway people are blogging loads these days (: everyone is in this now. because it's really quite fun. look at cheryl's, nadine's and joanne's blog. it's quite funny. argh. tomorrow we'll have another great zone f service. March 1, 2008 a simple hi and goodbye Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:29 AM i see many people caught in infatuation. i'm wondering why and i'm wondering so much. it must be you. it must be me. it must be her. it must be him. hmmm... i think i'll never figure that out. actually, i met some people infatuated with MANGO. MANGO seem to me to be a nice guy. or girl or whatever... or fruit. hahhs. i really don't know man. jomain says she's dating MANGO cheryl says she loves MANGO hmmm... being the smart me :p i got it right in seconds.. muahahaha :p they are actually 'dating'. jomain's sugar name is MANGO cheryl's honey name is MANGO and i think they make a good pair right now because this way i think F2 will grow into the hundreds! hahahahahahahahahaha so go on ah 2 of you.... hahahahahaha oh man, it'll be such a heartbreak for many this is the best kept secret. when i thought terror activities drifted to sinfei's house... lyn called me and told me that it's actually right there near my house... okay... sinfei says back home there's alot of terrorist she says singapore is so much a better place and i told her to get her citizenship... but her dad refused. i mean her, not her dad! if she knows how to make a bomb she'll bomb singpost according to her. haiz... tsk why like that. i was having zinger meal and wayne had this bbq rice thing that looks really good. it was packed and all high class then when he opened his mouth, i found out that he took it from home.... some bbq. i was about to decide having that for dinner but haiz... sad luh. nadine used to go around telling people they are the anti-christ. what nonsense right??? so today i called her the anti-christ. she replied,"ivan, you're saying that i'm attractive?" i lose... hands down darren was activated to nab that stupid terrorist guess what? he is like unfit! on mc i think! we are desperate and it's embarrassing. a limping soldier chasing a limping terrorist? this is your island wide operation slow down when everything seemed to be have gone a little bit bonkers. *i hope you know i'm joking above i think today's seminar brought back our perspective. it was just amazing. 4 years ago, that one and this one is so different. it got me thinking and i felt like exploding on the inside. the anointing was so strong. tomorrow is going to be so much better and for those people who missed out you've got to catch up and get tuned in. it's so good you should drop everything to come for this new worship team today too. fresh touch and spirit. just different but very similar they debut at such a high level today. awesome (: i can remember how we were like debutting last time. it was funny okay i'm tired now (: i'm gonna sleep with a smile you too keep that smile. with or without the shine in your eyes. with looks alot better. get it back just being simple. pst said, character and spirituality. then you can look straight at me at someone and not veil your eyes character and spirituality can't go through this now, not going through what is installed for us next time. sounds good to me (: gdnight & gdbye
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