In the Bedroom after the War
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October 19, 2008
a description of a day Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:22 AM aha... on my way back to church today i made an interesting discovery about this blog that i have. okay now, firstly i'm quite sick of this entire layout and all that it represents. it's getting boring and when i have the time i'll definitely change it. it's too dark and too black and too yeah you can fill in the blanks. okay now... back to the discovery. the posts are getting super emo nowadays! oh my gosh... when i actually thought it was quite alright it was emo. argh crap. when i did think and feel it was, it wasn't. so that's about that much of a discovery i made. okay now i'm very tempted to lament about army but then aha i'll keep that to myself. i've got tons of time to read over at rocky hill and so far it's been all good. crap, when i thought my book was really christian, wondering why some of those stuff sounds alittle terrible and awkward, i realise that it's a psychology book so i pretty much read it with the wrong perspective. but nonetheless, it is 2 very good books. the year is coming to an end and just now the HS just spoke to me about year ends. i remembered reading something someone had on about year ends. i never really did remember the exact details but that impression i did. so here is comes again. and it will come around soon after. yeah well i love year ends. okay now, church was wild today with many people doing many things i'd thought hang out was good and we should have that more often but today's ordinary loose sit around was quite enjoyable too well i didn't really sit around, i saw ppl do that and it looks enjoyable to me agm was good and of course very fun ahahaha and right after that i had this superbly lengthy and elaborated talk with joanne yes it was one of those but it was very very beneficial even to myself erm... kind of like we concluded the topic and felt we could set off the gear and do all that we spoke about. so now we'll see if it works a couple of the drummers were playing around in the studio honestly, i miss that place. yeah alot like i've never missed something so much not even people sometimes. sometimes.... only when i do get a good posting, i guess i will be back so let me wait now and drool on the sidelines with many opinions and raging emotions i've got zero self control with regards to this certain area and this zero is beautiful graceful zero hmmm and what else? evelyn and i went looking for food and yes army cuts off your desire for good food i don't really care about what i consume now really after all it all really taste like food from tekong's cookhouse to me that stupid cookhouse did destroy my entire life you know... argh i cannot understand starving and desperate recruits running after expensive and delicious food. see now and understand this... there's only 5 tastes ain't it? i'm sick of all 5. i need 6th but it seem highly impossible for 6. well because whoever knows and has 6 will be a rich man in no time. everything taste either spicy or salty or sour or sweet or bitter! WHAT ELSE??? and what were the things we did? erm... ah oh... zone f service! and bugis with them! ARGH I DON'T HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT... IT WAS VERY GOOD and i'm guilty of being charge for not remembering names fast enough. i've so so so so many things on my mind and i really think some are excess just too kiasu to forgo them. muaha eh... but i do still think i'm better at remembering names now. i just wished i had more time to get to know everybody. i don't know what that means to you but not being able to engage people who knows all about me feels crappy. i'd booked out and meet a bunch of amazing ppl who knew all about me without even meeting me first... well i would like to know all about them too really. so in essence, this is it... it all revolves around one posting that some nsf like me will randomly throw and click on the computer one day during a warm warm warm afternoon sleepy as he is. MY NAME BETTER WAKE HIM UP MAN AND HE BETTER KNOW HE SHOULDN'T MESS AROUND THROWING MY NAME AROUND INTO DISADVANTAGE VOCATIONS i've got the angels ready to wake him up if he's half asleep. but really it's crappy... this whole procedure of posting. i had imagine it and dreamt about it... yes this entire procedure. my 4th dimension is so choked up with this procedure and a certain look on a certain clerk's face. and now in conclusion... i think it's all good now. oh yeah! when bad is bad and bad hasn't anything too bad to complain about i'll call it good it's all good right now. but seriously, yeah very good. i just had this and that done, that and there other settled, this one and that one over, those and these all flushed away. it really do feels very good. army has changed me... at least i think. maybe not to others to you to whoever. but to me i think it has changed me. or maybe i keep saying that i change me to be changed by what i say army changed me alamak... crap luh whatever it is... i have tons to say but very little ability to express it all to you. i look at my previous posts and i'm quite amazed i could describe some pretty crazy stuff but now (: hmmmm... when i have to i think i'll be able to. but off that now... i wonder how all of you guys are... how are you? how was your day and how are you bringing your year to a close? i could hear you rattle off reading this seriously. i could feel and hear you wherever you are. well it's all fantasy and all for the sake of the sake. ahaha... argh crap. evolution... evolution...... army just destroyed me or make me evolve into some sort of a creature. eeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkk.... gdnight now (: you know i'm kidding just a thought, the only thing God sees in us is Jesus Christ. So that shows how unworthy and in a way empty we are. that is all HE SEES man... it is really quite blessedly and amazingly disappointing it is so so so amazing if you understand this just like the army days, we're kind of like all recruits regardless of what background you come from argh just figure that out gdnight and gdbye
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