In the Bedroom after the War
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September 29, 2008
i'm home... Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:46 AM it is good to be back & being able to see all of you first thing being back. it makes a whole lot of difference to me. i feel today like a fish in water. 2 weeks have passed and things have been really happening in church; i had a great meeting to find out. i finally got to be back in a place i call home and i don't know what that means to you. my platoon friends asked me a whole lot of times where i'm heading to after book out. well, they'll never understand where home is church and church is home. i finally got to meet Pastors after 2 weeks. it is just 2 weeks out of eternity but it felt like forever. i made alot of friends away from home. i've got myself 3 very close buddies whom we do everything together. we're quite bad too and got into some trouble. being away from home, inevitable you miss it alot. week 1 was quite easy to get by but when week 2 came along i felt my soul unrest. i have alot of time to read and i feel very close to God off home. sometimes He seem to me that He's right there beside me. friends at home mean a whole lot too. i really appreciate all of you guys who have been doing all that you've did and am doing. all this countdown thing, all those smses and those listening and encouragement. a whole lot of you have your own lives to run but it's very sweet to always switch on my phone and see your name appear. you don't know how much that means... it was quite an experience and it'd meant alot. thanks for all you've done (: and really... the reception over there is bad. i don't know what got to you and what didn't get to me. but whatever it is, thanks... the key battle was all internal. there's too much thrown at you and too much you've left behind. i can't explain it to you but it makes you new. i feel that my 2 weeks opened up my eyes to many things around me. i asked my platoon friends if they understand what it means to miss someone, something or some place dearly. i don't blame them for not knowing because there ain't anything worth missing. well for me, i'm the luckiest person around. i have everything to miss & i could die missing the things i left behind. i remember clearly this is just the beginning; a new beginning. beginnings are fresh and new and different. maybe this is a new paradigm. a shift maybe. this is my new beginning and i tell you i have everything to miss about my end last term. i remember too one night i couldn't really sleep because i was missing alot. i remember too one afternoon i couldn't walk off because i was frustrated missing alot. but it is all good now... i'm back to the place i belong with the people that i belong to. it means alot being able to wave and just smile as all of you walk passed. away from home, you're skin and bones. quite bear... needing alot of talk, love and attention... i never once thought i needed so much of that until they took me away... it feels like they robbed my entire being but then it feels like i've fallen into a conman's job... i can't explain it to you but i'm glad i'm home home sweet home
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