In the Bedroom after the War
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May 20, 2008
hey jude where's the law Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:40 AM ah huh... we nailed it!!! red rain is in 5 days time and we ain't no going to have no excitement! check out the submergent during red rain. it is the best feeling on planet earth. and don't be crap to miss that (: recent i have been operating on a cranky brain. somehow i do too much crazy stuff. oh no... i think too much crazy stuff. out of this world. but yet this is the period of time i feel so so spiritual. ah nah... ah god... ah whatever and whyever and why so. i'm just kidding i'm perfectly normal & i am an active exploding uranium inside me. this week is going to be awesome. alright now... i had a rest rest rest rest day. there was nothing much to do. i woke up & i prayed for my Pastors and then i rested! i did what i love most to do - read my soccer news. i went to buy new boots because adidas cracked after 4 years. then i ate this super duper nice dumpling soup. oh and grandma visited us today & bought more food so yeah it was a food and rest day. b2 was supposed to come to my house to have Jay Chou movie marathon but some things happened that was absolutely hilarious. i am going to deal with it soon. hahhs & no hahhs! hahhs Plus... i met leonard at mcs and had a great talk with him. with so much food & rest, no wonder i was dying when i went to play basketball! i felt like & infact i was a headless chicken running about the court. i am excited about red rain plus many things because there is so so much to be excited about. i am excited about stories that Pastors will tell when they are back. Excited about my family, my dream, my wednesday dinner. Excited about the music i listen too. Excited about who barcelona will buy & so too who arsenal will sign in the next couple of weeks. Mr. Wenger said we'll have 2 or 3 signings and the first in 1 or 2 weeks now. Surprise me Senor Wenger! Ahahhs. Barcelona is clearing out the squad! All the stars are leaving! hahhs... all their stars pon training sia... Good good all should go and die now! Laporta & Guardiola will put discipline in. Tsk... so here i am anticipating who arsenal & barcelona will sign & haven't even watch my 'Secret' yet. but then many good things happened today & they are so so so so good. i just want to say a couple of things... 1) Take the focus off ourselves & put it on God Anyway i wasn't doing much of pushing for Red Rain for F2 because: - they are a dream team - we have telepatic understanding - we have such a oneness about us - we just know how to catch the wave - we just know how to fit into the picture sunday i got an update for the first time.. actually i didn't. Joanne came and tell me. as of sunday we have 121 new friends confirmed for red rain already. ahahahahaha... that is amazing & we are going to hit 200 during Red Rain. God is good. I did nothing but pray and encourage. It was really just encourage. Don't expect anything more! hahhs... Then i prayed like mad. 2) I believe for a spiritual wave where alot of leaders will rise up suddenly. i think if i don't think it it will never happen so i guess i will think it and pray it. as a matter of fact, there are some already so we are seeing how things go. throughout the church! there will be! 3) d1 & f2 are good friends. hahhs i was thinking about my cg and how i can make it first class. i mean association to f2 is something honorable. i think we have it now. people are proud to be in f2. we are amazing :p but let's make it more powerful... and i thought and thought and i started thinking about myself. i am so not a person who 'chiong'. i never will go sentosa, i will not go wild wild wet, i will not go escape, i will not go hiking, don't ask me to bukit timah reserves or the nature park. i will not go to the zoo nor will i even sit by the singapore river and have activities there. woah... that is so hard and my absolute nightmare. i started thinking... f2 has nothing really exciting about it but then pretty very exciting. So i concluded got alot of substance :p hahahahhahahahahahha but to make it first class cg, it must be so hospitable, so genuine, so class, so real, so amazing. and i know what to do now. let's see f2 6 months from now. i'm learning from d1 to do that and do this. it is actually quite cool. i think joanne is a great assistant to have. she always say things that i never think off and it rings and rings in my mind. we are such a team la. she doesn't even know how much she affects her leader her hahaha she comes to me all the time filled with excitement and telling me many exciting things and all her endeavours, quest, achievements & want-to-dos. i really really am very excited man... but then i just cannot identify with that "I AM GOING TO SINGAPORE FLYER!" To me, singapore flyer is singapore flyer. i am not going to fly there. i am going to be on a ferris wheel on marina bay, chilling out with love ones, taking a breather. i kind of like to attack life with the soft approach ah! So we are so different and she forces me to be all that i am not. so i need to be what i am not and learn to be if not we will not be first class. let's have some activities soon. dear home & music i am going to miss you. :p kidding. let's just do this huh. not very hard what... i don't want to limit God's act with one stupid vocab called HARD. Charleston & Dominic hahhs. Dom is so 'chiong'. Let me get both & balance the art. 4) there are many things we should have said better i think what we say ultimately determines how much God will work in our situation. if i say hard, then i limit my being to revolving around whatever then i think is not hard. God is the same powerful but then i crap up His plans. so i'm making it an effort to exalt God to the right place because He really deserves to man. actually, human vocabulary is limit. our mind is limit. God cannot be described in a few words by a few people. He is that big and we are that small. so i'm just thinking, God's move in lives cannot be just limited into some integration plans whatsoever. nah too small. we have room for that practically but then just have to engage God the way He wants us to engage Him. Faith & only Faith. So yeah... have faith. F2 hit 200. It is done in my spirit. Just time to take it's cause! lastly, say you are great. tell yourself how goodlooking you are. tell yourself how brilliant you are. not in a narcissistic way but in faith. you cannot help it la... words is the gauge of our faith the vocabulary of our faith. what comes out of our mouths reflects our inside. I LOVE MY LIFE SO SO MUCH MAN.
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