In the Bedroom after the War
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April 5, 2008
just about asleep then i thought... Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 3:02 AM i've just finished whatever i need to settle for dominic and i honestly feel very excited about it we'll wait and see how things go from here... we will see luh alright today was a great day for me. i ain't feeling too well so i slept in a little woke up rested and got into shape, after that i went to causeway point for follow up. follow up was as usual very very very good! it is so encouraging to see someone change and grow under your mentorship. it was satisfying and i cannot enough express my joy about this. i just pray those 2 with me saw how significant it was. then i dropped by B1's basketball outing and we had loads of fun! they are seriously quite funny xinchi really really super funny. okay after that i rushed home for a shower and quickly left for chomp chomp. woot... chomp chomp was superb. the food was superb. we dumb all our money on the table and we went ordering the value's worth. we were food already and there was still 5 dollars left. hahhs! we decided we should take a walk and grab some ice cream so we went to haato. the ice cream there is seriously nice... just pleasing to the taste buds. alright then i got dad to fetch me and i was tired and bloated from all that food moreover, krisnan and andrew were super funny with such a combination for supper you hardly want to do anything else afterwards it has been quite a busy week. never too busy nevertheless... next week is going to be tighter and more fun. 5 or 6 cgs to preach in. follow ups to do. supervision to ensure. pastoral stuff to monitor. outings to personally run. meetings to hold and meetings to go. so it's quite fun. i remember last time how i will feel so stress at the prospect of these things. but now.... nah too fun... this is my life. speaking about life... i had a good talk with samantha and being a english lit student she summarized what i shared with her in that 45mins very very well! i think many of us hungry for God. we will chase ourselves to read our bible, pray, read books, etc. so much so that now this isn't a problem. everyone who is in heart of God church to a certain extent has hunger for God. we are a church that hungers for God so much more than many other people. to us hunger is norm to others it's a rarity. we look to progress all the time and we look to grow all the time. nothing stops us from wanting more of God. so that's not the point. well the point and cutting edge and differentiating factor is whether we are hungry for life. we will reach a point we will have a insatiable hunger for God but find ourselves stuck at a point still. that is when we need to hunger for life. the things about life. not secular living, carousing. but exploring and knowing God's creation a little bit more. what is the difference between eccentric people and albert einstein? he too is very eccentric. just that he had a good shot that life because he tried and he tried and he tried and he got some product at the end. that made him different from the rest of the eccentric people. that's when he became more significant in people's eyes, more established, more respectable. whatever you call that. i think we all need to keep trying and attacking life like what Pastor How said. we just have to keep giving our shots in life. not once but keep giving it. it's like soccer, you attack until there's an opening and you score. you keep trying, you keep acquiring and you keep replicating what you've acquired for yourself. sometimes we may feel we're in a limbo, direction-revert, going the wrong way, going back to the old way or not moving anywhere... that is normal well at least for normal human beings like all of us. so what do we do? we attack... we keep on moving on... we need to move on when we feel most like we need not move on. so hunger for God isn't a problem. what will take us further? hunger for life... Pastors are Pastor because they are hungry for life. they try, they experience, they learn, they discern, they go through stuff. they acquire principles, they keep acquire they become a powerful buzz. i want to be like that. progressive... always moving forward. got to keep reading, got to keep finding out, got to keep doing what i need to do so that i acquire and i acquire much. we shouldn't think that we've all arrived sometimes. yeah, it's normal because we all always have the hunger for God. We have good Pastors who always stir up our hunger. it never fails... but sometimes unknowingly we think that is it. after 1 to 2 years in church, church because overly mundane. well, that's our time, that's our show. whether or not we write a good script, play a good cast or we mess up is up to us. this is the crucial time where we need to be alot more hungry for life. i want to be hungry for life. i'm hungry for God! well God is Life. and i will be hungry for life. His creations.... the tangible and intangible. and when i acquire i will be strong (: with a good godly core and whatever we acquire and learn, we will revolutionize dry secular topics and make them spiritual yet pragmatic. i hunger for life.
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