In the Bedroom after the War
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April 21, 2008
all that i have... left Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:38 AM you see it's not very usual that i dream or fall into deep deep thought when i sleep and wake up remembering everything quite vividly. i want you to know that what i saw isn't something i really wanted to see but then i dreamt it and it was afterall quite funny, at least for me. few nights back, i had a great dream. i dreamt that i got into some kind of controversy with the press and people all over the world. by what nature could this ever be??? if you know i'm a diehard arsenal fc fan but the freaky thing was that i dreamt that though i was openly an arsenal fan, i took over from alex ferguson at the helm at old trafford. i became manager of man utd!!! i tell you, it must have been because of all my man utd friends torment and torture. i am really going mad. though i was openly an arsenal supported, i remember that the glazers still welcomed me to the club. i was in my 30s. 32 if i'm not wrong... and why so sure? i remember that my captain gary neville refuse to listen to me because i'm 3 years younger than him. so we got into a roll. i remembered during my first year i bought 2 players to the club. Franck Ribery & Sergio Aguero. i don't know why this 2... maybe man utd should really buy them and see where they progress to as a club. so that was it, i was complaining to my partner about gary neville and then i don't remember a single thing already. more crap coming up, euro 2008 soon and maybe i'll be manager of the portugese team? who knows you know... earlier this morning, we were down at chc for services with mrs cho. there was no one at the train station when i was there. i should have told the guy to drop us off at hall 8! so we walked there and i don't see one familiar face. then i got into the premise and i met d1. they were there since 8am and you know that is amazing. i just woke up at 8am and managed to hit there on time at 9am. well, it was quite cool being there with them. i had a surprise from ruoen who got me donuts. it was cool and unexpected. and yeah a few days ago i was just wondering how she and the other people in c3 are doing. i use to lead them and that was fun... i'll catch up soon. my malay friend arrived at chc like a queen in a chariot. she did park her chariot somewhere then walked in as if she owned the world. but that was sweet... really funny and i never had a malay friend like that before. fifi iskandar is quite funny and she reads chinese better than a chinese like me. today we celebrated Pastor Lia's birthday and it was AE---- MAY----SYNC----! we were so funny Pastor was laughing like crazy and it was a total joy seeing her smile on her face. alamak! i should have injured myself on another occasion, i was already doing my parts until i got into trouble and can't continue!!! but nonetheless... hehehe you don't know what we're up to. today was beautiful. then Pastor led us in worship and she shared with us what was lingering in her heart for some time now and that was amazing. matt redman & chris o brien - Pastor Lia's favourite worship leaders... so we did matt redman sensational right there in hoGc. never had that presence of God like the way we did for a long time. that was so henderson industrial park. that was what we lived on weekly. that sweetness, you know today was pure sweet tangible presence of God. you could swallow that presence with your gut. you could feel it hovering amidst your chest, face and palms. it was beautiful... and i miss that right now... my eyes are closing on me now. i could be stucked here for a trillion years. just spoke with dom and charleston and garrett. all 3 in 1 night. it can't be so coincidental. hahhs but it's sweet. all that i wanted just reappeared while i spoke with them... now it kind of sped away already but i know where and how and when... so that's no problem. i have some quite amazing friends in the 3 of them plus some quite amusing friends in another 3 that stayed at my house yesterday/weekly. well, both sets are amazing and amusing. i just watched man city play the crap out of portsmouth. tomorrow i'll rest in God... i'll read a new book i'll see some ppl at amk hub and i'll meet charleston at 8pm. that's very much what i felt like saying tonight. someone told me tonight that the outer was never quite the inner and it was quite interesting as i entertained that same thought before. this is the only time there should be a discrepancy. weakness on the inside turned around to be strength on the outer. crap character and value system gets changed and turned around to success on the outside. hahhs, we were never really quite who we are today. the good and bad thing is that we were once that wrecked kid and therefore will always be a wrecked kid in essence. but the more we were that way, the more we were not what that way portrays. that is also amazing. i suddenly remember an amazing person i just met on saturday who is leaving for canada for her studies tomorrow. she is amazing and i'm so blessed to meet her, get to know her name and the first thing she did that i heard about blew me away. she is amazing. we'll see her in december back in Singapore. i think she's gone real soon. i feel i need to fall dead on my bed right now. yeah, that's really all that i have left on a sunday night.
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