| March 17, 2008 they stole our hearts
 Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:13 AM
 they stole our hearts and they run away with a degree and portion of it
 that's when i realized that i've had something amiss
 
 i was leaning against the door on the train home
 staring into space, circulating pupils and blurry visions
 when it was climax i caught on the noises around me and awoke again
 it was terrible but it was really funny
 and i was lucky not toppling over
 
 today's zone f service was awesome
 actually this weekend was special and sweet
 
 dominic said something so powerful i had it recurring in my mind until now
 unknowingly as i lead and shepherd, those people i do lead and shepherd stole my heart
 unknowingly sometimes we've started to worship at their altar
 it was all the mundane work and suddenly a different environment altogether
 
 ain't it funny that we're so de-compartmentalized sometimes?
 hahhs i hardly can understand why too
 just that i know when we sow, we sow our lives
 and without any expectation of a return
 it would be a blessing having been loved in return
 but if not, not then (:
 
 they took it and they ran away with it
 i felt the lag and the tussle but i had no means to stop it
 it is the way it is
 it is leadership
 
 hahhs i hope i'm making sense to people but if not, nvm.
 
 yesterday night was crazy
 ernest, xing and sean stayed over again and we watched arsenal's match
 i was screaming at the television and it was satisfying
 my only sadness and grief was that they could not get a second goal
 they deserved it and i'm super sad LUH!
 
 then we entered into some short of a rattling off our hearts
 i hope i made sense to ernest, xing and sean.
 they listened and they listened and of course they spoke too. muahaha
 and today, i found out i suddenly kept quiet and the next thing, ernest checked me and i was asleep.
 but it was really some rattling off over there
 
 but well, people won't understand
 but some will
 i felt caught in the lag of time and dragged out of space and moment
 just to know that person isn't here anymore, and that person isn't here anymore pulls me apart
 
 yet i know that the vision is yet of a ripe time
 it will tarry but it shall surely come to past.
 and i'd just keep running with a lit torch
 amazing.. pastor lia is amazing
 
 i look at koon yew on the train just now and i thank God he opened that door and talked to me years back
 i look at jiaxin and i thank God she opened up her heart and shared with us
 she's a little sad today... and it's really crap
 hey, mine's really crap too (:
 
 we'll keep running... and running and running
 and we'll not falter
 you keep doing that! hahhs
 
 hahhs i'd better go
 won't rattle anymore
 
 it shall surely come to past
 if you read this, know that we just have to put our hands to the plow again
 sam, nadine, joanne, and everyone... fe, chew, whoever... cheryl, sf... whatever
 we'll do this and we'll do this together
 
 we'll forget about every other thing for the time being
 every other thing and i mean it
 we will do this together and only this now
 
 i love what i'm doing
 and i love it so much
 and this will be it all for the time being
 build build and build
 
 gdnight and gdbye
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