In the Bedroom after the War
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March 17, 2008
they stole our hearts Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 12:13 AM they stole our hearts and they run away with a degree and portion of it that's when i realized that i've had something amiss i was leaning against the door on the train home staring into space, circulating pupils and blurry visions when it was climax i caught on the noises around me and awoke again it was terrible but it was really funny and i was lucky not toppling over today's zone f service was awesome actually this weekend was special and sweet dominic said something so powerful i had it recurring in my mind until now unknowingly as i lead and shepherd, those people i do lead and shepherd stole my heart unknowingly sometimes we've started to worship at their altar it was all the mundane work and suddenly a different environment altogether ain't it funny that we're so de-compartmentalized sometimes? hahhs i hardly can understand why too just that i know when we sow, we sow our lives and without any expectation of a return it would be a blessing having been loved in return but if not, not then (: they took it and they ran away with it i felt the lag and the tussle but i had no means to stop it it is the way it is it is leadership hahhs i hope i'm making sense to people but if not, nvm. yesterday night was crazy ernest, xing and sean stayed over again and we watched arsenal's match i was screaming at the television and it was satisfying my only sadness and grief was that they could not get a second goal they deserved it and i'm super sad LUH! then we entered into some short of a rattling off our hearts i hope i made sense to ernest, xing and sean. they listened and they listened and of course they spoke too. muahaha and today, i found out i suddenly kept quiet and the next thing, ernest checked me and i was asleep. but it was really some rattling off over there but well, people won't understand but some will i felt caught in the lag of time and dragged out of space and moment just to know that person isn't here anymore, and that person isn't here anymore pulls me apart yet i know that the vision is yet of a ripe time it will tarry but it shall surely come to past. and i'd just keep running with a lit torch amazing.. pastor lia is amazing i look at koon yew on the train just now and i thank God he opened that door and talked to me years back i look at jiaxin and i thank God she opened up her heart and shared with us she's a little sad today... and it's really crap hey, mine's really crap too (: we'll keep running... and running and running and we'll not falter you keep doing that! hahhs hahhs i'd better go won't rattle anymore it shall surely come to past if you read this, know that we just have to put our hands to the plow again sam, nadine, joanne, and everyone... fe, chew, whoever... cheryl, sf... whatever we'll do this and we'll do this together we'll forget about every other thing for the time being every other thing and i mean it we will do this together and only this now i love what i'm doing and i love it so much and this will be it all for the time being build build and build gdnight and gdbye
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