In the Bedroom after the War
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March 14, 2008
a sudden return and eclipse of my dreams Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 6:39 PM out of the blue i felt like playing soccer in the english premier league i guess it came after reading newpaper on my way home it is quite funny though... really... that this childhood fantasy come back to haunt me now muahaha... i was reading about thierry henry and about him struggling at barca. i didn't know soccer players have personal problems or perhaps i forgo their humanity for a moment because they looked so amazing on screen. i like thierry henry and i wish he come back to arsenal and be part of the coaching staff (: hahhs... random but yeah. i just got home from chalet that started on tuesday noon. i had 3 rounds of bbq and alot of rounds of fun. hahhs. i really had fun and knowing the people had fun made me feel the fun returning to me again. we celebrated Samantha's and Chew Theng's birthday over there as well i hope they enjoyed themselves today at KTV (: seeing f2 people get their hands dirty with charcoal is really funny i can now still remember leona running the pit for us it was funny and really entertaining to see them each do one thing. the butter, the food, the flipping overs... they were all so servant hearted and YES we now are ready to go further into 240. Ooooh... and when we taught we were having fun, we just had to look left or right and walk a few steps to our neighbors e zone and d zone and realize that they are having as much fun as us (: it was a church union at costa sands and really really funny one with security guards trying to keep us low oh man, i remember that we might have forgotten to remove jacky's wanted picture. bless whoever goes in there, call his name 3 times and you feel lucky hahhs. army medical was crap. so we'll not talk about it. i've been thinking about it and there is a difference between love and loyalty. i'd prefered loyalty to love and this i learnt from Pastors. Love extends to one person Loyalty extends to one person's circle Love works in soulish grounds Loyalty functions in spiritual grounds Love stops at one person and reconsiders going to another Loyalty doesn't, it is spiritual and it transcends differences and persons. Love comes easy when we get close to that one person. When there was one no love, there is now love after period together. Loyalty is a decision regardless of closeness or not. It rests on spiritual sight, spiritual picture and destiny. One can love and not be loyal. But one cannot be loyal and not love. I love those i'm loyal to I'm loyal to those i love Love is very much a feeling Circumstances stirs it up more than we realize it does. It's more unreal sometimes than real we think it is. Loyal is a decision Circumstances will threaten to play it down more than we realize it does. It's more real sometimes than unreal we think it is. Same heart and similar spirit doesn't birth through a soulish love it comes through a spiritual principle of living; loyalty David and Jonathan Paul and Timothy Jesus and John It was loyalty more than love Love sweetens the taste of the relationship Loyalty locks in and makes us remember the aftertaste When we have loyalty, we know how to navigate back to that sweet aftertaste While love will always be a lottery of heads and tails We get a sweet taste, well good if not too bad. this is why it troubles us when someone comes so close and than the nex thing we know, is not in sight at all. was it just an emotional love? or was it a loyalty? love and love all we can but it will run out then we have to replenish our tank before we love again. loyalty doesn't have any sort to do with this. argh it troubles me deeply (: up till today. but the chalet was amazing. God is amazing. a new generation in F Zone. a new generation in B Zone. A new texture in the spirit A similar heartedness with our Pastors. A loyalty and a love. Not a soulish - you love me i love you Actions... yet not just actions all the time we will have a new batch of ...... hahhs (:
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