In the Bedroom after the War
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March 25, 2008
never there, came in, there and gone again Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:21 AM so we were never there with the rest and very much isolated laughing at our own jokes however we never fail to drop by to get what we needed and then move along again i think this clearly describes us. it's like getting gas and driving away some distance more. i guess f2 didn't saw themselves as team leaders which was why they didn't fail (: 95 was what i saw at the end of that sheet and my heart skipped when i exaggerated my cool and confident expression. i was overjoyed. i was freaked out. it was alien and i was proud of them. i think you don't get a lot of these things happening in cg all the time but then who says they are big things too complicated we cannot tear part? i love this game because i love this team. if there ain't a great team i think people won't love the game as much. i think we have a great team that's why i think all these ppl on the team live life like no other peer would live. they ain't lead like team leaders because they would have failed. they led like a team. leaders of a cg. it's quite different representing your department compared to the company. i guess no one really say that marketing department of so and so pte ltd is so amazing. i think we pretty much have company names raving all the time. i don't know how this works but they just seem to see the purpose, burden and that deeper reason to things we do all the time. and this is depth. with this i enjoy every second interacting with them. without that i tell you we will be canceling each other out. i had only said let's really grow this easter and here we have 95. now i feel like i've did nothing but talked. we are a dream team... there's no doubt about it. they know every dna behind this and they will build dream teams around and as a matter of fact it's coming to past already. this was our subtle revelation and i think we all sewn it to our hearts really. okay now, we've been really peculiar about somethings here a few alphabets down we're morphing and we're becoming that dream team soon one after another, barriers after barriers and also victory after another i think a dream team is addicted to winning and from the way i see it, we're addicted to winning because we're hating to lose. that euphoria when we move from faith to faith and glory to glory. hahhs! b1 is happening with JM and Wei Ling. trailblazing in front of us, they're the ones with every piece of good news now. major school revival and that feeling feels familiar. it amazing to be able to do and keep on doing whatever i am doing. few weeks ago i would have told you we're not up against 'it'. but few days back we were. and right now we're cruising. i feel we're back high, up and running. revival mode and feeling. hahhs so much of returning to memory lane and so much of familiarity finding our way. this is the worse time to get out and the most stupid to end. that is why, here and there, this and that happens to rock you so you will fear and now thinking logically to get out. nah... you don't get out... you stay because you have too much destiny marked over your life. you stay as long as everyone else stays. you will not go anywhere because no one is going anywhere. surely there will be wisdom, there will be a way. but surely there will also be a fist in the air. a statement victory. a war cry. muahahahahaha.... i've got to admit this. i'm high up there and really everything else just follows. when i was low down, it was low down and they were low down confused. alright now... sometimes when i do see a few people around, i wonder how things have been for them. you see, people have fought some good fights in this relative short period and won fights. people have moved on and grown and i just wonder if those few people had done the same. i wish you hear me screaming inside me when i look at you. when the team comes telling me and we've been through doing what we're supposed to do, i hope you get it that you really just have 1 youth to live and 1 chance to live the most fulfilling youth in your 1 life. hahhs well actually, we'll never know what is more fulfilling and less fulfilling a life because we'll never have the chance to compare our lives because we only have one shot. right or wrong... hmmm. good or bad.... hmmm if it's so simple then we'll all be champions in this game. precisely it's not so. so see me screaming inside when i look at you. hear my unsaid words and read my un-communicated thoughts. and hopefully you draw some depth and be a person of one. hahhs yeah just wanted to confirm that it wasn't so simple. we're a dream team. we hate to lose. we have that depth that brings the flame in our eyes, that traction and grip when we maneuver. i think these people can grit their teeth, gird their hearts and go through some serious grind in work and character. that is what i love about these people - depth after i talk to them i feel happy. they are bubbly, they make me happy they are so lame and funny, they lift my spirit. they are swift and fast and they astonish me. this is the finding of destiny... pst phil says your destiny is not just made up of yourself but the people around you. there is nothing, zero in oneness because except God there is no oneness that potentiates we are a team and i love this so much teams are not built just on inspiration that we have in the beginning after that it is pure hardwork, grind, struggle, tireless building and changing, convictions, discipline. very much the opposite of the feeling that inspiration brings to you we do not live from inspiration to inspiration we live from grind to grind there is just a fine line and differences between those who obtain inspiration and those who obtain the grind. at the end of the day, we want to hear someone speaking in faith not out of fresh feelings of possibility we want to hear those speaking in faith out of the grind that is why words of man and woman only have weight when it comes to past. i read 'speeches that changed the world' and yeah it's so true. the scary thing about inspiration sometimes is that we get too much we lose sight of where we want to go what we want to be. we will go through the mundane, routine, boredom, grind and all of this in love. inspiration will be the undergirding drive but more specifically a secondary one. destiny is first and always shall be we broke through (: now yeah! we just have re org! hogc 2.0 we're inspired by our destiny. but more with the hardwork that will take us there. hands to the plow... dirt off your shoulders.
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