In the Bedroom after the War
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February 10, 2008
just something quite interesting Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 4:43 AM this past 3 days has been the most wild of days i had in like for 2 to 3 years? or perhaps it was the most wild cny i ever spent... it was crazy, it was fun and i am quite satisfied having did all that i did these 3 days. see, i'm not someone would will go play and go crazy for long hours but this 3 days had been special. i've been reading U2 by U2 this few days and i tell you it's quite a book. the more i read the more i like Bono and The Edge. oh man, come to think about how once i wanted to be a star... muahahaha CUTE i know. but it's cool knowing what these people think man. anyway here's something that Bono said... he believes every rockstar has something missing about them. an area of their life. that is why they turn rockstar in search to balance out that area of their lives. some write songs about missing mothers, some write songs about hating fathers. so it's quite a thing you know. he mentioned that he only feels normal when 70 000 fans chant his name. if not he feels something amiss. he calls it the God-Shaped Hole. he says everyone has one... just some darker and just some wider. it's a Hole that longs for attention, love, desire by another human or humans... longing for a feeling of wantedness, a feeling that someone is actually checking you out, looking at you, looking up to you, wanting to be just like you, saying things about you to other people close to you. it's quite funny... he talked about that sense of abandonment that you get when the above isn't fulfilled. he used these words to describe it... "cut adrift of space and time". muahahaha. rockstars and their thing. they are actually magnified versions of ordinary lives. actually we all quite feel like that too (: tomorrow is the 4th day of cny and i'm going to sleep in... and pry myself up only for the evening's zone reunion and the cousin house visitation. it's going to be fun. and i don't know how things worked out... i find that i'm around ppl would i never thought i would hang out with you know. hahhs but then it's cool and very fun. also the combination of ppl hanging out together is quite funny too. yeah i just didn't think that they all know each other. (: cny does does its wonders ain't it? i'm going to find out why and how it all links!!!! muahahahahaha alright man, off to sleep and tomorrow i'm gonna read U2 all day (: after cny, i've like tons of things to do (: and i'm so going to do it well.... i'm rested, raring to go, energized over australia and cny... muahahahahahaha i've got my pitstop.... now enough of thinking and reflecting. i'm off and running and it won't be too fast i get a pitstop. until then it'll just be plain simple, plain do lor, plain just do, plain stuff.. and it's going to be fun again.. routines, i love routines. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want 3 more CGLs! tsk tsk tsk... we're going to grow... and i love the prospect of turning something around... quite fun (: hehehehehehehehe 160 120 1000 me you and every other force. perhaps it's good we remain like that for some time (: i do my thing. you do your thing. we bulldoze whatever that's infront of us. we focus, we give our all, we bring in tenacity and perseverance. we adopt healthy habits... and we build our relationship on the run (: alright... i'm on this now this is the beauty of ministry the more you do it, the more addicted you get and the stronger your relationship with whoever you are connected to (: phew... what a break i had (: WHAT A BREAK... never had a break like this before... MISSION ENGAGED
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