In the Bedroom after the War
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January 14, 2008
once upon a time in a suburb far far away Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 2:00 AM my neighborhood days and my neighborhood dreams. i think your real world ain't anything like mine! whatever you watch on television, they seem out of reach, you can only go on a fantasy ride up hollywood and get hit back by reality when you mum screams,"go and bathe la!". so soon, you're back to our suburb commodity. but it's still quite cool... i'd prefer this thank God i had both but i think i'm still neighborhood born and bred. always and never want to not be... in my little comfort, i rouletted through my television just hoping i could settle on one channel but to my dismay, at such a time 212am, nothing on screen is good enough. That's when i turned on my music player and i had Hard-Fi travelling through those speakers. Then all of the sudden, things came into perspective. The lyrics seem to tear down every possible 'on-sale' lifestyle you can see on screen. It was clear cut down to earth and i liked it. i very much liked it. so now and then i will take a ride up memory & fantasy lane but then i'll be back... it's sunday nights and you get this sort of impulses. but just so also that when i look back, i know that this is everything i wanted and everything i would have laid my life down for all over aday. Just week in week out, thinking about the same old thing, preoccupied with the same old sentiments. It really is back to my bedroom after the war... looking at what's around me, regaining my perspective and also faith for tomorrow. I just know, tomorrow is going to be a great day. A real day, with problems.. :) perhaps challenges but it is beautiful. The victory to life lies in being real, confrontational if there's such a word. It's really plain real building a church with Pastors :) Plain real, we have our cravings for Heroes, chicken wings and even beef horfuns. As a matter of fact it's an understatement, we do really have lots of craving. I crave one day i can walk down the streets of Prague and Milan. I love what i'm doing and i love everything that is part of it... the people, the love, the bubble world and even the set backs. I love it real you see. I will go there someday surely but not now... be real, not now, i'm still inadequate. So this is what i mean, the one thing i admire most about Pastor How and Pastor Lia is their ability to be plain down to earth. Charleston? plain humble... Dominic? plain in your face... They give us ordinary people an alternative path being their ordinary selves and doing the magnitude they are doing!!! I totally admire them... We're very much like all of them :) Just that..... i think they are a little more proud about who they are. That's your homey version of the word magnanimous.. There's hope whether you're just another kid in the block looking to play or a princely kid with a butler to pay. There is hope people. heaven and earth born and bred. paradoxically but you get what i mean. anyway, had dinner with Pastor Shearer and Sister Doreen today, just so impacted and enlarged by them. Tell you more when i can...
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