In the Bedroom after the War
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December 21, 2007
money making is so 70s Ivan 'Vern' Poh from URL @ 1:40 AM just got home for ggma's wake. it was terrible because we had sad happy masked people walking around restless. it was quite bad all till the end. you see, we tried making practical resolutions but the funny thing is that they double guess us all the time. but yeah, it was still funny seeing them do what they did. It was lovely, it was irritating but it was definitely beautiful. at the end of the day, it remains a wake and let's keep some sweetness at the wake. okay... it was the first time i sat down speaking with my first uncle. it was cool to understand what a 57 yr old, accomplished man, condo, cars had to say about life. we talked about life, about church, about making money. i got some lessons on how to run a successful business and how to keep things from the wife. the latter is total crap. at the end of the day, it remains a 57 yr old's heartfelt therapeutic emotional release. then... it was the first time i met my childhood buddy in years. man, this guy is grown up. lost at cuteness man, but i guess that's us. listen to this, he enlisted in march and now is december, stupid monkey actually beat up his sergeant and went to the detention barracks for 1 month. crude cruel man... As he described it to be, it felt like it was glam show beating his sergeant up for sprouting vulgarities at him, offended his fillial pride ah... sergeant cursed the parents! sigh... But at the end of the day, it remains another messed up life, looking for some form of satisfaction in current time. Well, it was actually quite an experience for me today. GGma is actually quite a chick. She's so popular she got on the newspaper. There were loads and loads of people present. I saw a group of gangsters like 2 connect group big, quite fierce but purposeless. Though rich and smart, but purposeless. Think our childhood gangster is just a fantasy. Real gangsters are rich and brilliant. But at the end of the day, it remains another routine wake they attend, dying in the routine of purposelessness. lots more happen... seeing my cousins, seeing the rituals, seeing everything, all of the sudden, i was arrested by a new perspective in life. Some people ain't gonna listen, so you'd to show them how you live your life. by that time, they will look back and cheer but then it'll just be in time only for their grandchildren. wahahaha... so really, from our generation onwards it's going to be different because we are in power. man's pride will be their downfall like what my big book says. and i say this in all serenity and understanding. Sometimes it's really just about me. what is dishonor to them is honor in my eyes. All many of us can say now in our family is 'wait'. We can only shape the generation after us. Now, only God shapes, our life has to speak in the midst of the politic mind. this is all i really have to say. God is good, that he saved a wretched like me :) now i'll never be like them.
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